///I Cast Those Books Away
Yet What I Did For My Loved Ones
Was Nothing.  Especiially Compared
To Chris's Mother, Who Gave Her Life
As A Sacrifice To Save Her Children.
She Died Of Cancer, So That
Theodore
Could
Live.
I do not want anything.
I am so proud to have married my husband
and it is such an honor
to be given the gift of
His Love For Me
And Mine For Him,
That I don't deserve
anything more
from this life, When Chris's Mother
Died
For HEr Children. Me.////
I'm Trying to do what she
would do
If Only
She
Could
Be
 Here
With
Us.
Amen.

"You Cannot Take These Things With You To HEaven"
Our Bodies
Our Money
All Our Possessions
Our Dignity
We Cannot
Take These
To The Inevitable Death
The Grave
What Lies Beyond
Is Where I Set
My Sights
You Cannot Take Thes Things With You To Heaven!
Why do they matter.
They Don't.
There is so much light
That You Cannot See.
I don't want to be
a sinner like you.///
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

"Treasures In HEaven"
I Live My Life
Waiting
For The Judgement Day
I Really, really do
I have stored up for myself
so many treasures in heaven
and suffered so much
down here on earth
i couldnt have children
because i wasnt allowed
and we were to poor
and it isnt safe to raise
a child in this world
not me not on my own
without the help
i cannot do it on my own
dreams die and melt
into the desert, but
they are not
forgotten the
pain i feel
every moment
for poverty
for being crazy
and sick
for being alone
and not being able
to have a child
to have no car
to have no money
to have no clothes
or the things i once
dreamed i would
have, i believe
in the judgement
day, when i go to
 heaven and i
Believe in my
treasures in heaven.
In Jesus's NAme,
Amen.

"Ethical Concerns"
I Dream Of A Future
Where There Are No
Apathies, There Are No
Strangers
A Place Where My FEllow Man
Is Kind To Me,
And I To Him.
A Place Where
We Aren't All Strangers
Too Busy and Cold To
Help one Another. I Live
For The Day When MY
Fellow Humans Look
 Me In The Eyes, And
 Smile.  All The Time.
Simple Greetings.  Smiles.
I wander through their
marketplace, i know it well
they don't want to have
anything to do with me,
and i dont want to have
anything to do with them.
It makes me want to cry.
Mutual apathy breaks my
heart.  I am Standoffish
in public because i am a
stranger, and a grownup
and a woman.  I wish I
Had A Baby To Hold,
I Wish I Could Go Soft
And Cry At Movies, I
Wish I Could Go To One.
I Look at the five-inch
cockroach above my head
that interrupts my praying.
I Look to the cieling
to pray to my Father God
In HEaven, and as i let my
burdens feel easy and steady and
i am about to cast my cares on God,
A Huge Cockroach Crawls across
the ceiling over my bed where i lay
and i conclude that god
Doesn't like me.  That God
Doesn't want to hear
My Prayers, that he doesn't
like me.  I do my best, but I
I Wonder About God,
When I Look Around Me
And See All This American
Culture.  I Wish I could find
a little house in the country
and never have to deal
with the city
again.
In JEsus Name,
AMEN