Sunday, March 16, 2014
Spring
is Coming,
I see it in the leaves bursting forth
from their well rested stems. I see it
In the thawing snow and the longer days,
In the warmth of the Sun. I wonder,
How long must i stay locked inside this
place?
THE END
I see it in the leaves bursting forth
from their well rested stems. I see it
In the thawing snow and the longer days,
In the warmth of the Sun. I wonder,
How long must i stay locked inside this
place?
THE END
"Sometimes,
I Wonder"
Sometimes, I Wonder,
Why We Are Suffering,
Who Sees Our Suffering,
Who Cares,
Who
Knows
Our Pain?
Who counts the tears
We're too proud
to let fall, does
anyone? Are We Really
Alone in this world?
I have told myself
a million times that there is
A God and Karma, that we will
have stored up for ourselves
treasures in Heaven.
Now The Laugh At Me
When I Mention Heaven,
And When I dream of
Being Consoled and reunited
With all I have lost--
My Family, My Friends,
All I Ever Owned----
I Wonder If God Hears Me At All.
I've begun to believe God has turned
a Deaf Ear To Me. I Cannot Believe
That Our Good Deeds and Suffering Could
Ever, Ever, Go By Without Being Noticed
By Anyone, so there must surely be a God.
I Bow my head in weariness.
It has been many years of suffering
and the future seems impossible to get
to, like a broken bridge. I don't know
if i will live a long time si I
Dont Plan for the future. I just Pray.
I Pray By Night and I Pray By Day.
I Pray To God In my Heart every moment.
I pray to God. I Pray That
He Even Hears Me, I Pray That
Those Good Deed I've Done All My Life,
That They Mattered, That They
benefitted The World Somehow.
I Pray.
Sometimes, I Wonder,
Why We Are Suffering,
Who Sees Our Suffering,
Who Cares,
Who
Knows
Our Pain?
Who counts the tears
We're too proud
to let fall, does
anyone? Are We Really
Alone in this world?
I have told myself
a million times that there is
A God and Karma, that we will
have stored up for ourselves
treasures in Heaven.
Now The Laugh At Me
When I Mention Heaven,
And When I dream of
Being Consoled and reunited
With all I have lost--
My Family, My Friends,
All I Ever Owned----
I Wonder If God Hears Me At All.
I've begun to believe God has turned
a Deaf Ear To Me. I Cannot Believe
That Our Good Deeds and Suffering Could
Ever, Ever, Go By Without Being Noticed
By Anyone, so there must surely be a God.
I Bow my head in weariness.
It has been many years of suffering
and the future seems impossible to get
to, like a broken bridge. I don't know
if i will live a long time si I
Dont Plan for the future. I just Pray.
I Pray By Night and I Pray By Day.
I Pray To God In my Heart every moment.
I pray to God. I Pray That
He Even Hears Me, I Pray That
Those Good Deed I've Done All My Life,
That They Mattered, That They
benefitted The World Somehow.
I Pray.
"It
Blooms On Hope"
Our Love Blooms On Hope.
That Is Why It Will Last
Forever. Theodore and I,
He says i'm annoying,
I say he is mean, which both
are probably true. Yet if I
Lost My Temper and faith--
If I Broke Down and lost all
my strength and pride, if i
Broke Down, and cried, and
begged him to leave me forever,
to go, go, to leave me---
The miracle is, I really believe
that he doesn't have it in him
to leave me. He doesn't have the
heart. He Could go for a few
minutes, even a few days, but--
and I really believe this is why
we will endure forever-- Theodore
Can't live without me, just as my
heart
cannot live without him. He is
The Love Of My Life, my Mate.
We Will Grow Old Together.
And I Believe This, Because--
Our Love Blooms on Hope.
The Hope We Keep
Deep
Within Our Hearts. The Love
Of A Child, The Love That a Mother
Has For A Child, The Love That
Children HAve For their Mothers,
Our Love Lives on Hope.
In JEsus's Name,
AMEN.
Our Love Blooms On Hope.
That Is Why It Will Last
Forever. Theodore and I,
He says i'm annoying,
I say he is mean, which both
are probably true. Yet if I
Lost My Temper and faith--
If I Broke Down and lost all
my strength and pride, if i
Broke Down, and cried, and
begged him to leave me forever,
to go, go, to leave me---
The miracle is, I really believe
that he doesn't have it in him
to leave me. He doesn't have the
heart. He Could go for a few
minutes, even a few days, but--
and I really believe this is why
we will endure forever-- Theodore
Can't live without me, just as my
heart
cannot live without him. He is
The Love Of My Life, my Mate.
We Will Grow Old Together.
And I Believe This, Because--
Our Love Blooms on Hope.
The Hope We Keep
Deep
Within Our Hearts. The Love
Of A Child, The Love That a Mother
Has For A Child, The Love That
Children HAve For their Mothers,
Our Love Lives on Hope.
In JEsus's Name,
AMEN.
Love
Doesn't Have To Hurt.
That's What They Seem To Say/
All My Love Does is make me Hurt,
Every Minute of every singly Day.
I Wish there was a way that
Love Doesn't Have To Hurt.
That's What They Seem To Say/
All My Love Does is make me Hurt,
Every Minute of every singly Day.
I Wish there was a way that
Love Doesn't Have To Hurt.
Saturday, March 15, 2014
And
On Some Days,
most days, really--
I laze about the castle,
dozing and applying my
makeup, trying to be faithful
to my husband, applying
makeup and removing it,
always waiting for my husband
to come home from work.
I wonder who will do the dishes,
I wait for something unexpected
to happen. I feel lonely, i feel sad,
But Mostly I feel bored. I am waiting
for my husband to get home
so that he can hold me, yet what
my life holds for me, if
it holds anything at all left--
is clearly unknown by me.////
most days, really--
I laze about the castle,
dozing and applying my
makeup, trying to be faithful
to my husband, applying
makeup and removing it,
always waiting for my husband
to come home from work.
I wonder who will do the dishes,
I wait for something unexpected
to happen. I feel lonely, i feel sad,
But Mostly I feel bored. I am waiting
for my husband to get home
so that he can hold me, yet what
my life holds for me, if
it holds anything at all left--
is clearly unknown by me.////
Friday, March 14, 2014
Oh
Rhyme A Rhyme about a day
When Mice Were Kings and Soldiers Pray
And When They Prayed They Did Survive
The War Couldn't be lost, for all survived!
When Mice Were Kings and Soldiers Pray
And When They Prayed They Did Survive
The War Couldn't be lost, for all survived!
"To
Theodore, My Husband"
I love you with a love so pure,
A Love So Sweet, A Love So Sure,
That I Know That, Whatever Should Occur
But Yet, On That, Will Our Love, Endure.
--Your Wife Caroline Land
I love you with a love so pure,
A Love So Sweet, A Love So Sure,
That I Know That, Whatever Should Occur
But Yet, On That, Will Our Love, Endure.
--Your Wife Caroline Land
When
All That's Wrong
Of Wrong And Right
Is In Two Headlights
Illuminating Sight,
I Wonder What
Gave Man The Right
To Criticize The Dark and Light.
Of Wrong And Right
Is In Two Headlights
Illuminating Sight,
I Wonder What
Gave Man The Right
To Criticize The Dark and Light.
Monday, March 10, 2014
I
Went Outside Today,
I Think That
The World
Has Changed.
It Is Not As I Remember. There is
A Good Deal more Anger, more
Pain, more Pain, More Frustration
in the hearts of many
more people, that I did see
with my heart, where i went,
Today.//
////Amen.////
I Think That
The World
Has Changed.
It Is Not As I Remember. There is
A Good Deal more Anger, more
Pain, more Pain, More Frustration
in the hearts of many
more people, that I did see
with my heart, where i went,
Today.//
////Amen.////
Sunday, March 9, 2014
No
Matter Who You Are,
No
Matter Where You Are,
No
Matter What Is Troubling You,
No
Matter The Odds---
No
MAtter The Future,
No
MAtter The Past
No
Matter What You Have Done,
Or
Have Not Done---
Karma
is Kind, it gives us all a chance.
--Just
Shine.
Shine
Your Light, When You Exist, Where You Are.
Shine
Your Light Into The Darkness.
You
Do Not Have To Be "Good"
It
Doesn't Matter What They Say
You
Don't Have To Be "Beautiful"
Or
"Young"
You
Don't Have To Do anything but
Hang
On To Life.
Or
Let Go!
God
is Kind.
He
loves us all.
I
don't really think there is a Hell.
And
I dont really think
Karma
is our God.
We
Shouldn't Have To
Answer
For
Our
Past Mistakes.
Just
Shine Your Light,
Your
Heart,
Right
Now
Wherever
You Are
And
Know That
There
is something called
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Forgiveness.
Jesus
Died For You and Me
And
All Of Us, And
It
Helps Me See
Forgiveness
Is
My God.
Love
Requires
That
We All Be
Forgiven.
When
The Night Has Closed In
All
Around Us
And
Noone Is Left To Love
There
Will Still Be
You
And I
I
And You.
When
Our Husbands Have Left Us
When
Our Beauty Is Gone,
When
Money Is Nowhere
And
Pain is All Around---
When
Our Husbands Are Fallen,
There
Will Still Be
You
And Me.
I
Wish
I Were Perfect. Yet
That
I Shall Never Be.
I Wish
I Were The Best. Yet
That
I Shall Never Be.
I Wish
For anything. Yet
That
Shall Never Be.
Oh God,
How Long You Make
My Struggles
While Others
Get Ahead
I am Still Here
Only Praying.
It is all
I Know How
To
Do.
I Were Perfect. Yet
That
I Shall Never Be.
I Wish
I Were The Best. Yet
That
I Shall Never Be.
I Wish
For anything. Yet
That
Shall Never Be.
Oh God,
How Long You Make
My Struggles
While Others
Get Ahead
I am Still Here
Only Praying.
It is all
I Know How
To
Do.
"Loneliness
Haikus"
A Long Afternoon
I am lonely and it Hurts
How Long Will this last?
Life is Sad to me
Why are people so cruel?
I pray for myself.
I'm Always Alone,
Sadness Falls Heavy In Sunlight
Pools around the floor.
Wishing You Were Here
I Weep For All I Have Lost
I Miss My Old Friends.
I Have No Friends Now.
I had many Long Ago
Now I am Alone.
A Long Afternoon
I am lonely and it Hurts
How Long Will this last?
Life is Sad to me
Why are people so cruel?
I pray for myself.
I'm Always Alone,
Sadness Falls Heavy In Sunlight
Pools around the floor.
Wishing You Were Here
I Weep For All I Have Lost
I Miss My Old Friends.
I Have No Friends Now.
I had many Long Ago
Now I am Alone.
"When
I Strive And Get Struck Back, I Remember"
When I Strive To Be Good
And Do Unto Others as
I Wish They Would Do Unto Me,
And When Doctors and Rich People
Scorn me and Strike Me, and Say,
"How Dare You Speak Unspoken To"
And I Get Struck Back,
it hurts. it is
one of the greatest aches my heart
could bear. We Can't all be
"perfect". But After the Tears, Then---
I Get Back On My Own Two Feet And I Pray,
And I Remember Christ and All I Promised Myself To Him
To Serve Him, To Live Through His Teachings,
Word for Word, Lesson By Lesson, and I
I Remember.
I Remember all my friends and family who are
suffering the same blows, i think of how we have been
beaten, thrashed and thrown into prisons and hospitals
as I Have too---i see the ones i love suffering with me,
I think of the gentle rain
The Gentle Insects minding themselves,
I think of the Faithful Noble Sun In The Sky
I Think of The Humble Plants that die to nourish us
and grow in the cracks of the street and along the roadsides
that give me hope, i think of spring, i think of all those
who have loved me------and---i can smile, finding myself in
Such Wonderful Company. When I think of how all of us
are being treated the same way by those people, I wonder
Why I could ever want to join them "up there" in their castes
I look around and i remember the Beatitudes of Christ.
They Are Written On My HEart, Such That I Have Fulfilled Them.
Is That Not More Important?////
When I Strive To Be Good
And Do Unto Others as
I Wish They Would Do Unto Me,
And When Doctors and Rich People
Scorn me and Strike Me, and Say,
"How Dare You Speak Unspoken To"
And I Get Struck Back,
it hurts. it is
one of the greatest aches my heart
could bear. We Can't all be
"perfect". But After the Tears, Then---
I Get Back On My Own Two Feet And I Pray,
And I Remember Christ and All I Promised Myself To Him
To Serve Him, To Live Through His Teachings,
Word for Word, Lesson By Lesson, and I
I Remember.
I Remember all my friends and family who are
suffering the same blows, i think of how we have been
beaten, thrashed and thrown into prisons and hospitals
as I Have too---i see the ones i love suffering with me,
I think of the gentle rain
The Gentle Insects minding themselves,
I think of the Faithful Noble Sun In The Sky
I Think of The Humble Plants that die to nourish us
and grow in the cracks of the street and along the roadsides
that give me hope, i think of spring, i think of all those
who have loved me------and---i can smile, finding myself in
Such Wonderful Company. When I think of how all of us
are being treated the same way by those people, I wonder
Why I could ever want to join them "up there" in their castes
I look around and i remember the Beatitudes of Christ.
They Are Written On My HEart, Such That I Have Fulfilled Them.
Is That Not More Important?////
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Do
You Believe In Dreams?
Do you Believe in an infinite dimension
Where everything is fantasy and nothing is boring?
Do You Believe in Spiders and Angels?
Do You Believe You Can Fly?
Do You See Africa and The Nile, then Travel On To
Greece And Europe, China and the Netherlands?
Do You Wander Among Marble Statues in The Vatican?
Is there enough Money in your bank To Purchase
A Pair of Earrings in chinatown?
Or an Angel Statue in A Church?
Will You Flee the Devil in a whirlwind,
Will You see Worlds that are not easily
imagined, then srpread your wings and be carried away
to new worlds, until you wake up?
Where Heaven and Hell Meet in Harmony
And Your Soul and Memories are Your Belongings,
And Your Fears And Wishes and Hopes are your Futures?
Do you Believe In Dreams?
Do you Believe in an infinite dimension
Where everything is fantasy and nothing is boring?
Do You Believe in Spiders and Angels?
Do You Believe You Can Fly?
Do You See Africa and The Nile, then Travel On To
Greece And Europe, China and the Netherlands?
Do You Wander Among Marble Statues in The Vatican?
Is there enough Money in your bank To Purchase
A Pair of Earrings in chinatown?
Or an Angel Statue in A Church?
Will You Flee the Devil in a whirlwind,
Will You see Worlds that are not easily
imagined, then srpread your wings and be carried away
to new worlds, until you wake up?
Where Heaven and Hell Meet in Harmony
And Your Soul and Memories are Your Belongings,
And Your Fears And Wishes and Hopes are your Futures?
Do you Believe In Dreams?
My
Dream World
There is a world of Dreams,
It is a World We All Know
Just Close your eyes to sleep,
And to that world you'll go.
Dreams are the World in which
Anything Is Possible, From your
Worst Fears to To Inmost Wishes
Full of Wonder Are Our Eyes When
We Stumble Upon an Old Ruin or Relic
And Purchasing in From Dream Market,
We Wake To Find It Was Only A Dream!
I Own Many Things In My Sleep.
I have money and a husband named Bobby,
I have homes and favorite islands in the sea
I have wings and I can fly from world to world
Islands they are in a magical sea.
I long to kiss his Open Mouth Again.
I long To Feel The Tender Warmth Of His Skin.
I Pray For Jesus To grant Me Dreams of Wonder.
Wonder abounds in this life, but more in the next./
There is a world of Dreams,
It is a World We All Know
Just Close your eyes to sleep,
And to that world you'll go.
Dreams are the World in which
Anything Is Possible, From your
Worst Fears to To Inmost Wishes
Full of Wonder Are Our Eyes When
We Stumble Upon an Old Ruin or Relic
And Purchasing in From Dream Market,
We Wake To Find It Was Only A Dream!
I Own Many Things In My Sleep.
I have money and a husband named Bobby,
I have homes and favorite islands in the sea
I have wings and I can fly from world to world
Islands they are in a magical sea.
I long to kiss his Open Mouth Again.
I long To Feel The Tender Warmth Of His Skin.
I Pray For Jesus To grant Me Dreams of Wonder.
Wonder abounds in this life, but more in the next./
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
Father
God,
What Are The Stars?
It doesn't really matter
anyway. I jsut hope
that's heaven up there
i suppose it doesn't
really matter, anymore....
let the scientist sling pebbles
at the stars until they're
blue in the face.
Death is the Shepherd
of all mankind
and i'm at peace with
where i'm going, i've got
a boy there and he really loves me,
we kind of belong
to each other. During the day
When I am awake, I know
he will come to me that night
and make love to me
in a new way, and tell me
about high school, and everything
i missed, and we
giggle. Me and all those
old kids i went to high school with
---we dont talk anymore.
it's just me an theodore during the day
and me an bobby at night.
An Bobby Makes me feel so Beautiful.
I feel like princess when he Holds me in his
Arms. I am free to be Who I Am,
and I dont have to hide, he knows my
darkest secrets, and i love him.
Forever.
Amen.
What Are The Stars?
It doesn't really matter
anyway. I jsut hope
that's heaven up there
i suppose it doesn't
really matter, anymore....
let the scientist sling pebbles
at the stars until they're
blue in the face.
Death is the Shepherd
of all mankind
and i'm at peace with
where i'm going, i've got
a boy there and he really loves me,
we kind of belong
to each other. During the day
When I am awake, I know
he will come to me that night
and make love to me
in a new way, and tell me
about high school, and everything
i missed, and we
giggle. Me and all those
old kids i went to high school with
---we dont talk anymore.
it's just me an theodore during the day
and me an bobby at night.
An Bobby Makes me feel so Beautiful.
I feel like princess when he Holds me in his
Arms. I am free to be Who I Am,
and I dont have to hide, he knows my
darkest secrets, and i love him.
Forever.
Amen.
"To
My Dream Prince"
A Simple silver Cross around
Your Neck And a Rose
When you died there was no
future for you, and nothing for
you to fear. But nothing to
love. There Was Nothing.
I am sorry, dear friend. I know
that when we made love and whispered
high school secrets last night and you
taught me how to fish, when my hair became a
clematis vine of purple blossoms hanging across
the steps and i looked up at you and you
were so damned beautiful, so we made love
again, except i was a mermaid making love to you
with my tail, as i held you we swam through a tunnel
of clematis blossoms. I never knew
that you were so happy in heaven. You took
my to a yin-yang sign, and asked me which i
was, the light or the dark. I said for certain i was
the light. You said you were the dark. But, you whispered,
looking deeply into my eyes, you said to me, "But You have
some darkness in you, too---trust me, i know you well."
Them I Grabbed you and we kissed like crazy and then
i said "I'll be the dark when i die, just to be with you in eternity,
like this" And I Kissed You again.
A Simple silver Cross around
Your Neck And a Rose
When you died there was no
future for you, and nothing for
you to fear. But nothing to
love. There Was Nothing.
I am sorry, dear friend. I know
that when we made love and whispered
high school secrets last night and you
taught me how to fish, when my hair became a
clematis vine of purple blossoms hanging across
the steps and i looked up at you and you
were so damned beautiful, so we made love
again, except i was a mermaid making love to you
with my tail, as i held you we swam through a tunnel
of clematis blossoms. I never knew
that you were so happy in heaven. You took
my to a yin-yang sign, and asked me which i
was, the light or the dark. I said for certain i was
the light. You said you were the dark. But, you whispered,
looking deeply into my eyes, you said to me, "But You have
some darkness in you, too---trust me, i know you well."
Them I Grabbed you and we kissed like crazy and then
i said "I'll be the dark when i die, just to be with you in eternity,
like this" And I Kissed You again.
"The
Mortal Instruments."
To The Day They Tried
To Tell Me
I Shant have a Child
Catnt HAve A Child
But I Can
And I Will.
Mayby, That Was The Day I Knew
I Know That You're Going To Be Born.
The Day They Tried To Take You Away
Was The Day I Prayed I'd Find A Way.
To Bring You Into This World
To Keep You Warm, Safe and In
In, Away From The
Cold
Cold.
Mother Will resist The
Mortal Instruments
And Live To See The Day You Can
Open Your Eyes
In This Cruel Beautiful
World.
TO MY UNBORN CHILDREN.
LOVE-YOUR MOTHER.
To The Day They Tried
To Tell Me
I Shant have a Child
Catnt HAve A Child
But I Can
And I Will.
Mayby, That Was The Day I Knew
I Know That You're Going To Be Born.
The Day They Tried To Take You Away
Was The Day I Prayed I'd Find A Way.
To Bring You Into This World
To Keep You Warm, Safe and In
In, Away From The
Cold
Cold.
Mother Will resist The
Mortal Instruments
And Live To See The Day You Can
Open Your Eyes
In This Cruel Beautiful
World.
TO MY UNBORN CHILDREN.
LOVE-YOUR MOTHER.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
My
Heart Dwells On Itself,
and hell seems quiet
tomorrow is long day of fear
poems, if i don't come home
tomorrow, i was abducted/
and hell seems quiet
tomorrow is long day of fear
poems, if i don't come home
tomorrow, i was abducted/
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Rain
Falls Outside The Window,
We Fear What We Do Not Know.
All that is lost may never again be found.
Words soothing my tired soul, while
Husband is flirting with other women.
There is nothing Left For Us, yet
a snowflake settles on clean grass,
How Could the Grass Not Be Clean.
Time's decays are aging me,
And I have Lost My Peace.
Would God it were Restored
To My Soul.
I lost You,
I Lost You Sleeping.
I found you,
I found you in tears.
I held you,
You pushed me away
But Slowly
You Warmed You Body
Against My Own.
I lost sight of all
That I was Thinking
At the warm breath
Of your tender mouth.
We Fear What We Do Not Know.
All that is lost may never again be found.
Words soothing my tired soul, while
Husband is flirting with other women.
There is nothing Left For Us, yet
a snowflake settles on clean grass,
How Could the Grass Not Be Clean.
Time's decays are aging me,
And I have Lost My Peace.
Would God it were Restored
To My Soul.
I lost You,
I Lost You Sleeping.
I found you,
I found you in tears.
I held you,
You pushed me away
But Slowly
You Warmed You Body
Against My Own.
I lost sight of all
That I was Thinking
At the warm breath
Of your tender mouth.
World
Without Sunlight,
Ebbing Water Cools My Eyes,
Oh Rushing River..
All About Heaven
Stars are seemingly Lost There
And We are Lost Too.
Chaos Maddens me,
My Own Earth Saddens Me,
I Am A Hermit.
Tired I Look at You,
I cannot bear so much Pain,
Kiss Me One More Time.
Decay is Wisdom,
The Earth is As it Should Be
And There Is A God.
AMEN.
Ebbing Water Cools My Eyes,
Oh Rushing River..
All About Heaven
Stars are seemingly Lost There
And We are Lost Too.
Chaos Maddens me,
My Own Earth Saddens Me,
I Am A Hermit.
Tired I Look at You,
I cannot bear so much Pain,
Kiss Me One More Time.
Decay is Wisdom,
The Earth is As it Should Be
And There Is A God.
AMEN.
"Blue
Dawn Haikus"
Blue and Yellow Dawn,
See Me Through Another Day
My Will is too Strong.
Now Time For Farewell,
We Greet You a the Morning Gates
Goodbye Forever.
Peace Before Me Lord,
Peace Beyond My own Small Life,
Peace On Our Unborn.
Life's Sadness Wells Here,
I Stand On Cold Precipice
Should I Jump, or Not?
Tired from Deep Prayer
Weeping Tears For The Future,
Science merciless.
If they do Come Up,
Write to me from the valley,
I will send a rose.
Warm Smile, I Wonder
What Life Holds For Chris and I,
We Must Be Soulmates.
Spider Smarter Will
Creature Breaking Barriers
May You Never Die.
Prophecy Now God,
For I am tired of weeping.
Blue feathers of ferns.
Gulls Over The Sea,
I fear what the sea conceals,
Can you be so Btave.
Life Long Lived is Good,
Soul rests deeply in its Lord
Until Time To Go.
Life is Very Sad,
I stand by the water's edge,
No Child of My Own.
Weeping I hold You,
Kisses like snow on my lashes,
Tears Cascade Like Rain
Blue and Yellow Dawn,
See Me Through Another Day
My Will is too Strong.
Now Time For Farewell,
We Greet You a the Morning Gates
Goodbye Forever.
Peace Before Me Lord,
Peace Beyond My own Small Life,
Peace On Our Unborn.
Life's Sadness Wells Here,
I Stand On Cold Precipice
Should I Jump, or Not?
Tired from Deep Prayer
Weeping Tears For The Future,
Science merciless.
If they do Come Up,
Write to me from the valley,
I will send a rose.
Warm Smile, I Wonder
What Life Holds For Chris and I,
We Must Be Soulmates.
Spider Smarter Will
Creature Breaking Barriers
May You Never Die.
Prophecy Now God,
For I am tired of weeping.
Blue feathers of ferns.
Gulls Over The Sea,
I fear what the sea conceals,
Can you be so Btave.
Life Long Lived is Good,
Soul rests deeply in its Lord
Until Time To Go.
Life is Very Sad,
I stand by the water's edge,
No Child of My Own.
Weeping I hold You,
Kisses like snow on my lashes,
Tears Cascade Like Rain
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Predawn
morning. I have Risen,
awakened, by my husband's voice
talking to strange married woman.
I smile, knowing he will never leave.
The Spring is here, the crabapple
trees are in bloom. The sun is warm.
Only last week, we had blizzard.
Tea is boiling in the kettle, and i have
a tea jar with pink porcelain roses.
I will steep the tea, and meditate on
nothing in particular, all morning.
It is time to worry about Christmas
Money. Iam awaiting the Dawn.
Gold Horse, Silver Elephant, Brass
Horse, Prayer Journal, and incense I
Have bought for my husband. I also
Bought myself an expensive Teaset.
Cream Pitcher, Sugar Bowl, Teapot,
Snack Bowls, and Two Tea Mugs
On a wooden tray. I love you.
When Morning ComesI will let my body
be carried away by sleep again; and worry
about little emily. There is a tragedy
about her that i want to mend with
My Love. I have a Mother who adopted
me today, i will now call her Mother.
I Love You. The Sun is butterfly blue
on the predawn horizon. Time for Tea.
awakened, by my husband's voice
talking to strange married woman.
I smile, knowing he will never leave.
The Spring is here, the crabapple
trees are in bloom. The sun is warm.
Only last week, we had blizzard.
Tea is boiling in the kettle, and i have
a tea jar with pink porcelain roses.
I will steep the tea, and meditate on
nothing in particular, all morning.
It is time to worry about Christmas
Money. Iam awaiting the Dawn.
Gold Horse, Silver Elephant, Brass
Horse, Prayer Journal, and incense I
Have bought for my husband. I also
Bought myself an expensive Teaset.
Cream Pitcher, Sugar Bowl, Teapot,
Snack Bowls, and Two Tea Mugs
On a wooden tray. I love you.
When Morning ComesI will let my body
be carried away by sleep again; and worry
about little emily. There is a tragedy
about her that i want to mend with
My Love. I have a Mother who adopted
me today, i will now call her Mother.
I Love You. The Sun is butterfly blue
on the predawn horizon. Time for Tea.
Thursday, February 20, 2014
"No
Memory"
I.
There Was a Sign on the
Door; it said, "NO
MEMORY." I said, Why,
and it said something about
being bigger than me or you
or anything else in the whole
damned universe. The sign
said, simply, "No MEmory"
II.There is a memory i would like to have,
I want to be dress clean and fitted like a white
cotton sheet, pressed. And I want to stand
On the Precipice of a gully, over a creek bed,
I want the water to trickle over the stones
it is dark except for milk moonlight and cool
stones and blue starlight and strangling
smothering
darkeness
of a night you could cut through with
a knife, and yet, it is such a clear night
on the memory of this night one can see far
into the starlight and even perhaps beyond.
The coldness of the night is also important.
It's winter, and there is a frost in the air.
Bones, Stones, Cold, and my warm fingers
holding themselves
within themselves
within a glove
forever.
Amen.
I.
There Was a Sign on the
Door; it said, "NO
MEMORY." I said, Why,
and it said something about
being bigger than me or you
or anything else in the whole
damned universe. The sign
said, simply, "No MEmory"
II.There is a memory i would like to have,
I want to be dress clean and fitted like a white
cotton sheet, pressed. And I want to stand
On the Precipice of a gully, over a creek bed,
I want the water to trickle over the stones
it is dark except for milk moonlight and cool
stones and blue starlight and strangling
smothering
darkeness
of a night you could cut through with
a knife, and yet, it is such a clear night
on the memory of this night one can see far
into the starlight and even perhaps beyond.
The coldness of the night is also important.
It's winter, and there is a frost in the air.
Bones, Stones, Cold, and my warm fingers
holding themselves
within themselves
within a glove
forever.
Amen.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
"On
Clear Cold Nights"
On Clear, Cold Nights,
When The Stars are Blue and Bright
And There isn't home but highway in sight,
And all that's wrong of wrong and right.
Is in two headlights illunating sight.
I wonder what gave Man the right
To Criticize the Dark and Light.
Its Cold and Clear and I'm alone,
Dreaming as I drive on Home
Hoping To be warm again,
In my husband's arms again,
Hoping not to Be in Pain
Hoping Not To Die in Vain,
On The roadway said again,
like my long lost schoolmate friend.
On Clear, Cold Nights,
When The Stars are Blue and Bright
And There isn't home but highway in sight,
And all that's wrong of wrong and right.
Is in two headlights illunating sight.
I wonder what gave Man the right
To Criticize the Dark and Light.
Its Cold and Clear and I'm alone,
Dreaming as I drive on Home
Hoping To be warm again,
In my husband's arms again,
Hoping not to Be in Pain
Hoping Not To Die in Vain,
On The roadway said again,
like my long lost schoolmate friend.
Monday, February 17, 2014
"WRITE
FOR FUN." be Caroline E Sullivan Land
Write For Fun
Write For Nothing.
Write For Joy.
Write For God.
Write For Humanity.
Write Because It Makes
You Feel ALIVE.
Write.
Write Because You Can.
Write because it's art.
Write Because its freedom.
Write for the Sake of Writing.
Write For FUN.
Write For Fun
Write For Nothing.
Write For Joy.
Write For God.
Write For Humanity.
Write Because It Makes
You Feel ALIVE.
Write.
Write Because You Can.
Write because it's art.
Write Because its freedom.
Write for the Sake of Writing.
Write For FUN.
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
"Song
To Myself"
Oh Poet, Sing Us a Sad Song
A Song For The Wounded, A Song
For The Broken, Song
For The Wounded
People
All
Over
The
World.
Poet, Hide In Your Apartment
Hide, Because So Many
People You Love
Are Holding Their
Breaths, Counting
On You
To Make
It
Through
Another
Night.
Oh, Poet, Sing Of The Sadness
Sing of the Cruelty
Sing Of How Words Could never
Heal any of us
enough
And Greive, but always,
always,
ALWAYS,
REMEMBER THAT
Everyone is Counting on Me
To Be OK. The Fact That
I Exist is a LIGHT
To This Dark Dark World.
If you believe, Then I Bet
Some Other Good People
Will Love You Too
And Take Care Of You
And To Live Happily Ever
After
With.
Oh, The World is so
Cruel!
In JEsus' Name, Amen.
Oh Poet, Sing Us a Sad Song
A Song For The Wounded, A Song
For The Broken, Song
For The Wounded
People
All
Over
The
World.
Poet, Hide In Your Apartment
Hide, Because So Many
People You Love
Are Holding Their
Breaths, Counting
On You
To Make
It
Through
Another
Night.
Oh, Poet, Sing Of The Sadness
Sing of the Cruelty
Sing Of How Words Could never
Heal any of us
enough
And Greive, but always,
always,
ALWAYS,
REMEMBER THAT
Everyone is Counting on Me
To Be OK. The Fact That
I Exist is a LIGHT
To This Dark Dark World.
If you believe, Then I Bet
Some Other Good People
Will Love You Too
And Take Care Of You
And To Live Happily Ever
After
With.
Oh, The World is so
Cruel!
In JEsus' Name, Amen.
"We
Dont Want Children Anymore"
Right now, I am Even Glad
That Chris Doesnt Want To Share Me
With Anyone, not even having a Baby.
I think of the future with Just
The Two Of Us
No Responsibilities
No Liabilities
No Work
Just Each Other. I'd kind of rather
Spend My Life With Just Chris Than
To Have To Share Him
With A Baby. I DO Get
Jealous. I Can't HElp it. We are too in love
To HAve Children. Just Me
and Him He and I, alone, taking on the World...
Jesus, my that be my Best Portion of My Life!
He's Getting old, thirty five, and I Just Want To
Treasure Every hour and minute and day that he
loves me
And NEver Let That Go, Ever,--- Not Even For a Baby.
No, We Can't Have Children.
And Now We Dont WANT To Have Children, Anyway!
Glory Be To JEsus, Lift thsi burden from my shoulders
and give me peace. In Jesus' Name I Pray.
AMEN.
Right now, I am Even Glad
That Chris Doesnt Want To Share Me
With Anyone, not even having a Baby.
I think of the future with Just
The Two Of Us
No Responsibilities
No Liabilities
No Work
Just Each Other. I'd kind of rather
Spend My Life With Just Chris Than
To Have To Share Him
With A Baby. I DO Get
Jealous. I Can't HElp it. We are too in love
To HAve Children. Just Me
and Him He and I, alone, taking on the World...
Jesus, my that be my Best Portion of My Life!
He's Getting old, thirty five, and I Just Want To
Treasure Every hour and minute and day that he
loves me
And NEver Let That Go, Ever,--- Not Even For a Baby.
No, We Can't Have Children.
And Now We Dont WANT To Have Children, Anyway!
Glory Be To JEsus, Lift thsi burden from my shoulders
and give me peace. In Jesus' Name I Pray.
AMEN.
I
Found Out I Would NEver
Ever
Have
A
Child. It has Made Me.
It
IS Forming MY Soul And My Being.
When
I Want To Smile, I Hold MYself
Back
For
The Babies That Will Never
Be
Born.
I
Have No Future.
I
am Only A Lady of Sorrow.
Someday
I Will Be Very
Wise.
They
Will Say of Me, "She is A
Lady
Of
Sorrow."
///MY
heart tells me
I Know
A terrible secret---
but i
do'nt know
What
it is.//
I Know
A terrible secret---
but i
do'nt know
What
it is.//
Sunday, February 9, 2014
I.
The Cat.
Her Fur is Black
And Also White
She Has Invisible Wings
She Can Jump On
The Kitchen Counter
And She Never Falls
She Always Lands
On Her Feet. She Has
Little Soft hands with Pink
Paws and little White Pearly
Claws. She Has Wet Pink
Nose That Brush Against Me
On Cold Nights and I am
Grateful For Her Company
Her Eyes Are Green
The Pupils are Slits
She Has Long Whiskers
And A Touch of White On
HEr Forehead, and on her
Ber Where She Most Likes
To Lick Herself. She
Is Very Sensible, yet at times
She Acts Like Small Kitten.
She Never Neglects
To Come When I Call
Unless Something is
Worng. In my Illness
She is Nurse and Crutch.
In my Wellness, She is
My Best Friend. She is
My Companion of five
Years. May We Never
Sever!
II. The GUinea Pig
He Answers To "Rat"
And Will Eat Just About
Anything Organic. His favorite
delicassies are my best
Paintings, which he enhances
With Nibbles that Frame The
Edges, and they look even better!
He is a sure-footed grumpy Gentleman.
He Knows What HE Knows,
You Could Say He is Sensible.
He makes stern decisions.
He is The Most Sensible Fellow!
Theodore adores his little pet, and
Treats Him To Celery And Butter
Lettuce Daily.
III. The Birds
Are Lovely, and they speak. The Birds
Are little miracles. They are so smart,
they can speak perfect english. We have
Long Conversations all day in the
sunlight and at night they sing me to
sleep sometimes, and sometimes
they sing to wake me up. They Sleep
In The Night, Their Fragile Claws grasping
Their Perches in the Bird Cage.and never
tire. They Are Sweet, They say,
"Tweet! Tweet" Noble they are, and
civilised, wealthy and wise-- why, they could
be the Pope Himself's Royal Pets! They Love
Wealth or the luxuries of things. They tell Jokes.
We Listen To Music. They Are Ten Years Old.
They don't seem old to me though, and I hope
They Live With Me Here Forever.
Her Fur is Black
And Also White
She Has Invisible Wings
She Can Jump On
The Kitchen Counter
And She Never Falls
She Always Lands
On Her Feet. She Has
Little Soft hands with Pink
Paws and little White Pearly
Claws. She Has Wet Pink
Nose That Brush Against Me
On Cold Nights and I am
Grateful For Her Company
Her Eyes Are Green
The Pupils are Slits
She Has Long Whiskers
And A Touch of White On
HEr Forehead, and on her
Ber Where She Most Likes
To Lick Herself. She
Is Very Sensible, yet at times
She Acts Like Small Kitten.
She Never Neglects
To Come When I Call
Unless Something is
Worng. In my Illness
She is Nurse and Crutch.
In my Wellness, She is
My Best Friend. She is
My Companion of five
Years. May We Never
Sever!
II. The GUinea Pig
He Answers To "Rat"
And Will Eat Just About
Anything Organic. His favorite
delicassies are my best
Paintings, which he enhances
With Nibbles that Frame The
Edges, and they look even better!
He is a sure-footed grumpy Gentleman.
He Knows What HE Knows,
You Could Say He is Sensible.
He makes stern decisions.
He is The Most Sensible Fellow!
Theodore adores his little pet, and
Treats Him To Celery And Butter
Lettuce Daily.
III. The Birds
Are Lovely, and they speak. The Birds
Are little miracles. They are so smart,
they can speak perfect english. We have
Long Conversations all day in the
sunlight and at night they sing me to
sleep sometimes, and sometimes
they sing to wake me up. They Sleep
In The Night, Their Fragile Claws grasping
Their Perches in the Bird Cage.and never
tire. They Are Sweet, They say,
"Tweet! Tweet" Noble they are, and
civilised, wealthy and wise-- why, they could
be the Pope Himself's Royal Pets! They Love
Wealth or the luxuries of things. They tell Jokes.
We Listen To Music. They Are Ten Years Old.
They don't seem old to me though, and I hope
They Live With Me Here Forever.
The
Part in You
That Feels
Is The Part That They
Can Never
Take Away. It Endures,
An Eternal Flame, Gilded and
Luminous, Shining into
Eternity
Forever.
That Feels
Is The Part That They
Can Never
Take Away. It Endures,
An Eternal Flame, Gilded and
Luminous, Shining into
Eternity
Forever.
I
believe it was Fate
That
My Theodore Should
Have
Come To Me
The
Way He Did--
Of
Course, It Was
I
remember Holding Him
On
Someone's Couch
At
Five AM, And I,
I
Fell In Love With Him.
I
love Theodore So much,
I
want him to be so happy
And
So Free, It's Been Five
Years
We've Lived Together
Here,
And, I Hope, We Will
Forever.
I am So In Love
With
Him I Hurts, Oh, It
Aches
in my Soul! Love is
Blind,
Love is Beautiful, Love
is
everything and it means
everything
to everything.
It
is every feeling in the
World.
It is every Moment
That
I Have Shared With
Theodore.
It is Our
Kisses
and Growing Old
Together
And Being Together
Forever
Only He and
I.
The Most Important thing
To
Me In My Life is Our
Marriage.
HAPPY VALENTINES
DAY
THEODORE I LOVE YOU
FOREVER
LOVE, Caroline.
"Things
on my Desk"
Pearls cool to the neck and heavy strands
Diamonds That Shine Like Light on Ice
In Flowers and headpieces bracelets and
Chandelier Earrings, Portraits of my husband and I,
Afghans on Faded Pink-Grey Sofas
Resin Angels With Brass Wings
And Words, "Dream", Love","Our House"
On Them. Decoupage Boxes full of
pressed powder eyeshadows in royal purple,
cobalt blue, neon yellow, fairy pink, coral,
moonlinght blue and leaf teal.
Coral dipped in glitter and white paint
ornaments for my hair. Perfumes
in Bottles and toners, atringents, cold
creams and night creams, cotton pads for
dabbing, Poufs in the bath, bubble bath,
Fresh Strawberries in ice water, fancy
Oranges and brilliant red apples,
Cream-Colored Makeup for white skin,
Loose and pressed powder for the face,
body powder, lotions for hands and body
that smell like flowers, body soaps and masks
for the hair conditioners for the face polishes
for the nails in every color berets and derby hats,
HEadpieces of Gold and Peacock Feather,
Toirtoiseshell Hair Combs, Pill Boxes, Lipsticks,
Plum, Dark, Cherry, Raspberry, Hot Pink and petal
colors. Anklets of raw chunks of uncut gems
and bangle bracelets, A Tea Table With Lace
China, a mirror for the body and a mirror for the
Face, A Delf Porcelain Teapot and a pair of sunglasses,
Two Corset Belts, Scarves and shawls, lace, candles,
Porcelain and silk flowers in vases and china bowls.
These Are The Things On My Desk.
Pearls cool to the neck and heavy strands
Diamonds That Shine Like Light on Ice
In Flowers and headpieces bracelets and
Chandelier Earrings, Portraits of my husband and I,
Afghans on Faded Pink-Grey Sofas
Resin Angels With Brass Wings
And Words, "Dream", Love","Our House"
On Them. Decoupage Boxes full of
pressed powder eyeshadows in royal purple,
cobalt blue, neon yellow, fairy pink, coral,
moonlinght blue and leaf teal.
Coral dipped in glitter and white paint
ornaments for my hair. Perfumes
in Bottles and toners, atringents, cold
creams and night creams, cotton pads for
dabbing, Poufs in the bath, bubble bath,
Fresh Strawberries in ice water, fancy
Oranges and brilliant red apples,
Cream-Colored Makeup for white skin,
Loose and pressed powder for the face,
body powder, lotions for hands and body
that smell like flowers, body soaps and masks
for the hair conditioners for the face polishes
for the nails in every color berets and derby hats,
HEadpieces of Gold and Peacock Feather,
Toirtoiseshell Hair Combs, Pill Boxes, Lipsticks,
Plum, Dark, Cherry, Raspberry, Hot Pink and petal
colors. Anklets of raw chunks of uncut gems
and bangle bracelets, A Tea Table With Lace
China, a mirror for the body and a mirror for the
Face, A Delf Porcelain Teapot and a pair of sunglasses,
Two Corset Belts, Scarves and shawls, lace, candles,
Porcelain and silk flowers in vases and china bowls.
These Are The Things On My Desk.
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Mothers
Of Small Children"
Women Are The Source of Wisdom
Satan approached Eve
In THe Garden
Because Woman is Smarter
Than Man. Because Of Eve,
We Can all women, can Have
Babies ouf Our Own
A Woman in touch
With God
Is A Woman
That Can Heal,
Woman Also Have Compassion
//We care for the children anyway.
Woman probably make better doctors
Because they have Eve's Gift, And Mercy.
And Compassion The Howlednge of-------
Amen
Women Are The Source of Wisdom
Satan approached Eve
In THe Garden
Because Woman is Smarter
Than Man. Because Of Eve,
We Can all women, can Have
Babies ouf Our Own
A Woman in touch
With God
Is A Woman
That Can Heal,
Woman Also Have Compassion
//We care for the children anyway.
Woman probably make better doctors
Because they have Eve's Gift, And Mercy.
And Compassion The Howlednge of-------
Amen
My
TESTIMONY OF JESUS CHRIST
At Eighteen, I returned for mong Trip in Europe To Landmarks and I really went all though the Vatican like a little child, i wandered...Funny, I wasnt a christian then....
When I got home I celebrated my eighteenth birthday but it marked the onset of my mental illness. After trip to europe I was Very Paranoid and afraid and had developed severe bulimia which i overcame. Very Sick... UNTIL
UNTIL Jesus Christ Began To Call To Me In My Illness. In My Madness He Would Call Me To Him, Giving me Peace, and the ability to speak fluently with birds and all other animals. I became solitary, a loner.... i turned from my sinful ways and went to many churches between age nineteen and twenty seven, which age i am now. Yes, Jesus Has Given Me Ability to love, understand and appreciate birds and all animals like my cat and guinea pig.
Psychiatrists, they want to deny Christ and Smother the light. I, Who talk constantly with Jesus in my heart and mind (and a number of angels including Gabriel and Jophiel--Before Raphael and I got a divorce, now they are my gaurdians.) I know so many things about Jesus Christ and I learned them from the scriptures. I read and read, bibles, i read commentaries, i read books that explained the scriptures--- and i tried so hard to understaadn, well i still of course try constantly, --to Understand "That though seeing they may not see, and though hearing they May Not Hear" (Jesus Christ)
I am so proud to have married the wonderful man i met, Theodore Land, i met him the day my great grandmother passed away. We were madly in love the day of her funeral, I didnt learn she had die until a few days later, and by then Theodore and I were planning to elope and be married, we already lived together. He consoled my grief.
Today, we spend our waking hours in prayer. Prayer is essential.
We've been married five years and we've been through an aprtmnt house fire that didnt touch our apartment that we still live in. Also some death of His Loved Ones, also mental illness, job changes, car troubles, student loans, etc....and i was recently involuntarily commited to the psychiatric ward in June 2013 because i kept repeating onle "JEsus Christ Saves" When The Ambulance Came. And The Whole Time I Was In The Hospital I ministered to the sick, smiled at the nurses, and of course almost mever stopped talking about the sancutary in Jesus Christ! I brought many souls to the Lord, The fourth day I was there, they told me that i was never going home, i was never going to see my husband again, because i was being transported in morning to a long term facility far away.
At that moment, I SILENTLY secretly prayed to God To let me fall asleep forever in that place. I proceeded to sleep a deep unwaking sleep for three days. On the THIRD Day I Rose, and Ate. An Hour LAter They Gave me my bag of my clothing and belongings and told me i was free to go. When I got out of the ward, the sunlight blinded my eyes and i struggled to find where they had place my cell phone and wallet....by the Grace of God, I got it, and i called my poor husband.... he say, i'm on my way to pick you up baby." I walked through the hospital entrance and i stood on the curb calling my husband, he telling me he was on his was to get me.....He picked me up, my beautiful Husband, smiling with the top of our blue firebird down and the rock music blaring. Well, Let's just say he was my knight in shining armor! HE toook me home and has treated me like his little baby girl ever since that day. I Give Thanks To God And I'll End my Testinomy Here. Amen. HALLELUJAH!
--Caroline E Sullivan Land
At Eighteen, I returned for mong Trip in Europe To Landmarks and I really went all though the Vatican like a little child, i wandered...Funny, I wasnt a christian then....
When I got home I celebrated my eighteenth birthday but it marked the onset of my mental illness. After trip to europe I was Very Paranoid and afraid and had developed severe bulimia which i overcame. Very Sick... UNTIL
UNTIL Jesus Christ Began To Call To Me In My Illness. In My Madness He Would Call Me To Him, Giving me Peace, and the ability to speak fluently with birds and all other animals. I became solitary, a loner.... i turned from my sinful ways and went to many churches between age nineteen and twenty seven, which age i am now. Yes, Jesus Has Given Me Ability to love, understand and appreciate birds and all animals like my cat and guinea pig.
Psychiatrists, they want to deny Christ and Smother the light. I, Who talk constantly with Jesus in my heart and mind (and a number of angels including Gabriel and Jophiel--Before Raphael and I got a divorce, now they are my gaurdians.) I know so many things about Jesus Christ and I learned them from the scriptures. I read and read, bibles, i read commentaries, i read books that explained the scriptures--- and i tried so hard to understaadn, well i still of course try constantly, --to Understand "That though seeing they may not see, and though hearing they May Not Hear" (Jesus Christ)
I am so proud to have married the wonderful man i met, Theodore Land, i met him the day my great grandmother passed away. We were madly in love the day of her funeral, I didnt learn she had die until a few days later, and by then Theodore and I were planning to elope and be married, we already lived together. He consoled my grief.
Today, we spend our waking hours in prayer. Prayer is essential.
We've been married five years and we've been through an aprtmnt house fire that didnt touch our apartment that we still live in. Also some death of His Loved Ones, also mental illness, job changes, car troubles, student loans, etc....and i was recently involuntarily commited to the psychiatric ward in June 2013 because i kept repeating onle "JEsus Christ Saves" When The Ambulance Came. And The Whole Time I Was In The Hospital I ministered to the sick, smiled at the nurses, and of course almost mever stopped talking about the sancutary in Jesus Christ! I brought many souls to the Lord, The fourth day I was there, they told me that i was never going home, i was never going to see my husband again, because i was being transported in morning to a long term facility far away.
At that moment, I SILENTLY secretly prayed to God To let me fall asleep forever in that place. I proceeded to sleep a deep unwaking sleep for three days. On the THIRD Day I Rose, and Ate. An Hour LAter They Gave me my bag of my clothing and belongings and told me i was free to go. When I got out of the ward, the sunlight blinded my eyes and i struggled to find where they had place my cell phone and wallet....by the Grace of God, I got it, and i called my poor husband.... he say, i'm on my way to pick you up baby." I walked through the hospital entrance and i stood on the curb calling my husband, he telling me he was on his was to get me.....He picked me up, my beautiful Husband, smiling with the top of our blue firebird down and the rock music blaring. Well, Let's just say he was my knight in shining armor! HE toook me home and has treated me like his little baby girl ever since that day. I Give Thanks To God And I'll End my Testinomy Here. Amen. HALLELUJAH!
--Caroline E Sullivan Land
And
Then I Kissed You
Your Arms Around My Throat Tell Me
You'll Never Let
Me Go
And I Feel More Alive
When You Hit Me
So Let Me Be Your
Rag Doll and You can be My
Baby Doll. I'll Kiss You,
You Scowl and yeall, I'll hold you
some more, Life is
Pointless
Without You
I'm falling, I'm falling---
But What More Could
We Want, Anyway?
A Strand of Cream Pearls,
A Baby Girl To Hold,
Sure--- But When Your arms
Are around me I actually---
I'm actually Afraid to Die, because
I don't want to ever lose
You.
Your Arms Around My Throat Tell Me
You'll Never Let
Me Go
And I Feel More Alive
When You Hit Me
So Let Me Be Your
Rag Doll and You can be My
Baby Doll. I'll Kiss You,
You Scowl and yeall, I'll hold you
some more, Life is
Pointless
Without You
I'm falling, I'm falling---
But What More Could
We Want, Anyway?
A Strand of Cream Pearls,
A Baby Girl To Hold,
Sure--- But When Your arms
Are around me I actually---
I'm actually Afraid to Die, because
I don't want to ever lose
You.
Sunday, February 2, 2014
The
Language of The Stars.
I Can SpeakThe Language of the Stars.
They Sing To Me So Loudly That
I Cannot Go
Outside
Sometimes I Go Out At Night
They Tell Me Things.
They Care
They Are Worried About Me
And My Husband and All My
:Loved Ones And All That I Have
They Ask Me If I am Alright,
I Say Yes, And Look Down Again.
In JEsus' Name, AMEN.
I Can SpeakThe Language of the Stars.
They Sing To Me So Loudly That
I Cannot Go
Outside
Sometimes I Go Out At Night
They Tell Me Things.
They Care
They Are Worried About Me
And My Husband and All My
:Loved Ones And All That I Have
They Ask Me If I am Alright,
I Say Yes, And Look Down Again.
In JEsus' Name, AMEN.
"There
Is Life," By Caroline Land
There is Life.
There is life under the leaves.
There is life on This, This, Very This, Earth.
And nowhere else is there Life, in all the universe.
Amen Lord, But there is Darkness.
And We are surrounded by darkness.
And So Much of Mankind is Consumed By
Darkness! Fortunately--we are not the Only
Living Things On The Earth. I am So Sad
That I cannot feel
The earth Between My Fingers, Ball It Into
A Fist, and Cry. I Am So Sad, That I
I Cannot leave this place, this apartment.
I would wade in the waters and feel the earth cleanse
my soul and i would taste the air the gentle air and my feet
would fall lightly on the soft green grass. I wouldn't trouble anything.
Oh, for a day to wander free in the forest or meadows, to live
To Live! Until The Darkness Ebbs, Until The Stars Are
Satisfied With My People Humans and theDark
Dark Ways--- Until Then, I Fear, I Must Keep Our Little Temple
And Home
Safe
And Filled with Worship
And Prayer.
In Jesus's Name, AMEN./
By Caroline Elizabeth Sullivan Land
There is Life.
There is life under the leaves.
There is life on This, This, Very This, Earth.
And nowhere else is there Life, in all the universe.
Amen Lord, But there is Darkness.
And We are surrounded by darkness.
And So Much of Mankind is Consumed By
Darkness! Fortunately--we are not the Only
Living Things On The Earth. I am So Sad
That I cannot feel
The earth Between My Fingers, Ball It Into
A Fist, and Cry. I Am So Sad, That I
I Cannot leave this place, this apartment.
I would wade in the waters and feel the earth cleanse
my soul and i would taste the air the gentle air and my feet
would fall lightly on the soft green grass. I wouldn't trouble anything.
Oh, for a day to wander free in the forest or meadows, to live
To Live! Until The Darkness Ebbs, Until The Stars Are
Satisfied With My People Humans and theDark
Dark Ways--- Until Then, I Fear, I Must Keep Our Little Temple
And Home
Safe
And Filled with Worship
And Prayer.
In Jesus's Name, AMEN./
By Caroline Elizabeth Sullivan Land
Humans,
Humans coming
Together In The Name Of
Love. When I Look Up At
The Stars I Feel Like I am
Home I feel, for a moment, that
Someone up there understands
When I look around at my fellow
Man and I see them trying to bo
Good, I fall to my knees in Paryer!
The evidence that we dream and wonder
is evidence that we are not
Alone. To Come Together In The Name Of
Love, Is Enough To Believe in Mankind
Once Agian. I cry for the past, and am
Remembered By God, Who
Comforts Me. Angels! Send the
Angels!
Together In The Name Of
Love. When I Look Up At
The Stars I Feel Like I am
Home I feel, for a moment, that
Someone up there understands
When I look around at my fellow
Man and I see them trying to bo
Good, I fall to my knees in Paryer!
The evidence that we dream and wonder
is evidence that we are not
Alone. To Come Together In The Name Of
Love, Is Enough To Believe in Mankind
Once Agian. I cry for the past, and am
Remembered By God, Who
Comforts Me. Angels! Send the
Angels!
Friday, January 31, 2014
"So
Cruel"
People are So Cruel.
Ordinary People.
Where Is There Sanctuary?
Not In a Hospital.
Not in a Church.
Not in a doctor's office.
Not at a restaraunt.
Not in a job.
Not even in food.
One becomes accustomed
To Cruelty,
Like an Unsweet Bitter Tea.
It Neither Taints Nor Devours, Yet
It Most OFten Leaves
Its Bite
On The Heart. We Are
Dreamers. We are
Dreamers. They think that that makes us
Less Than Human.
We are Not Less Human, But More Human.
We are being punished for kindness and tortured
for compassion, nobility, courage, and anything
different. Everyone must
Conform to Society.
Everyone must act a certain way
Do certain things
marry certain people
live in certain ways
buy certain things
believe certain things
and so on.
I must be brave.
If I never Have a Child I
Will never have lived.
My legacy will die with me
and my husband and i shall Perish
From weariness, loneliness, and lack
of Joy and Love. It is Hard
To Look One Another
In The Eyes
Any more.
We Hurt. It is an ache.
Sometimes I wonder how we
Keep Our Love Alive.
If Our Love Wasn't So Alive----
I Would Have Nothing Else
To Live For. I Live For Thee,
My Theodore. There is no other
meaning to life. nor means, nor ends.
I end Here.
People are So Cruel.
Ordinary People.
Where Is There Sanctuary?
Not In a Hospital.
Not in a Church.
Not in a doctor's office.
Not at a restaraunt.
Not in a job.
Not even in food.
One becomes accustomed
To Cruelty,
Like an Unsweet Bitter Tea.
It Neither Taints Nor Devours, Yet
It Most OFten Leaves
Its Bite
On The Heart. We Are
Dreamers. We are
Dreamers. They think that that makes us
Less Than Human.
We are Not Less Human, But More Human.
We are being punished for kindness and tortured
for compassion, nobility, courage, and anything
different. Everyone must
Conform to Society.
Everyone must act a certain way
Do certain things
marry certain people
live in certain ways
buy certain things
believe certain things
and so on.
I must be brave.
If I never Have a Child I
Will never have lived.
My legacy will die with me
and my husband and i shall Perish
From weariness, loneliness, and lack
of Joy and Love. It is Hard
To Look One Another
In The Eyes
Any more.
We Hurt. It is an ache.
Sometimes I wonder how we
Keep Our Love Alive.
If Our Love Wasn't So Alive----
I Would Have Nothing Else
To Live For. I Live For Thee,
My Theodore. There is no other
meaning to life. nor means, nor ends.
I end Here.
"To
My Husband Theodore Christopher Land"
I Can't Help Being So Damnedly
Beautiful.
I Can't Help it.
I Love A Man More Beautiful Than
Me
And It's Breaking My Heart
And He's So Damnedly Beautiful
I just want to think about him
I don't want to think about
Him at all, I want to
Hold On To Him
For Dear Life, You See---
It's not that he does not Love Me!
For You See, We Both Know That He Loves Me More
Than He Ever Dreamed He Would.
And I love Him So Much That I'm Bartering My
Soul Out
Bit for
Bit
To Buy Him a Horse And Carriage
and a White Dress
And Pretty Things for Him to Mess
Up. He Is a Child. My Life Was Abandoned For His
Sake; He Is, alas, Mine.
No Woman Can Lay Claim To His Life Or Mine--We've Earned Them!
We've earned our own lives and one another, and noone will
ever separate us.
My Husband Theodore And I.
I Can't Help Being So Damnedly
Beautiful.
I Can't Help it.
I Love A Man More Beautiful Than
Me
And It's Breaking My Heart
And He's So Damnedly Beautiful
I just want to think about him
I don't want to think about
Him at all, I want to
Hold On To Him
For Dear Life, You See---
It's not that he does not Love Me!
For You See, We Both Know That He Loves Me More
Than He Ever Dreamed He Would.
And I love Him So Much That I'm Bartering My
Soul Out
Bit for
Bit
To Buy Him a Horse And Carriage
and a White Dress
And Pretty Things for Him to Mess
Up. He Is a Child. My Life Was Abandoned For His
Sake; He Is, alas, Mine.
No Woman Can Lay Claim To His Life Or Mine--We've Earned Them!
We've earned our own lives and one another, and noone will
ever separate us.
My Husband Theodore And I.
Every
Day They Die
Every Day
Every Single
Day
Like meeting a
Quota.
There Is a Man I Love
Love Him More Than anything in the Universe.
He makes me want to die. Makes me want to fly, he makes me
ashamed
that
I was ever born, because He's Just so Damned
Beautiful. He's So Beautiful, Fills
Me With
Shame. I Say To God,
God, You Know, I'll NEver ever Be That
Beautiful.
I Dont Ever Want To Be That Beautiful I Just Want
Him To Love Me.
Amen.
Every Day
Every Single
Day
Like meeting a
Quota.
There Is a Man I Love
Love Him More Than anything in the Universe.
He makes me want to die. Makes me want to fly, he makes me
ashamed
that
I was ever born, because He's Just so Damned
Beautiful. He's So Beautiful, Fills
Me With
Shame. I Say To God,
God, You Know, I'll NEver ever Be That
Beautiful.
I Dont Ever Want To Be That Beautiful I Just Want
Him To Love Me.
Amen.
I
Think Of Those Who Died
Every Day A Few Must Die
Like
Shaved
ICe
Or
Fallen
Snow
Mentioned
Coldly, Without
Remorse, That Jerks The
Tears From
All
Of
Us
And That Gets Me Though
Another Day. I Think Of
How We Shall All Die,
And It's HArd
Hard
To Smile
Thinking about that.
It's Hard. And If You
Can
Smile
Then You Are Porbably
Very
Brave.
Every Day A Few Must Die
Like
Shaved
ICe
Or
Fallen
Snow
Mentioned
Coldly, Without
Remorse, That Jerks The
Tears From
All
Of
Us
And That Gets Me Though
Another Day. I Think Of
How We Shall All Die,
And It's HArd
Hard
To Smile
Thinking about that.
It's Hard. And If You
Can
Smile
Then You Are Porbably
Very
Brave.
A
Prayer
She'll Come Back Singing
Like the Wind, I will
You'll See, I'll Be So Free
Time Hasn't Silenced My Life,
And God Isnt Absent in his Silence
And I Believe that whatever Should Pass
Me By Like
A Ghost-- Still Yet, The Dear Rememberance of
My Sweetness Shall Live
On.
She'll Come Back Singing
Like the Wind, I will
You'll See, I'll Be So Free
Time Hasn't Silenced My Life,
And God Isnt Absent in his Silence
And I Believe that whatever Should Pass
Me By Like
A Ghost-- Still Yet, The Dear Rememberance of
My Sweetness Shall Live
On.
I Was Lost
Till You Found Me---Oh, That's An
Old One, I Realise....Decay into the Sparrows
Pecking about the fallen Winter Leaves, Come What May
I hope that I will never Leave,
Every Day,
Tell me that you
Love Me More, Honey Take Me
To The Store, Spin Me Round Round On
The Floor....
It was simple, writing at Love's First
Blush. The Whilrwind ebbed and riveted, Sank and Folded
Under Like A Current That Swept All Our Dreams
Away at the Edge Of The Sea and Now
Out To Sea And Lost Away.
Never To Be Found. All Around
Me Lie The Tragedies Of The Day,
Outside all is Time's Decays
Snow That Noone Sees But May
Enchant With Dreams The Coming
Day. Night Is Long But So Is
Day, My Heart is Hummingbird and HE
Is The Sweet Flowers To Which I
Fly. Without His Love I Would Surely
Die. It Isn't that i should Try
To Make Him Love Me, Lord Knows I
Place His Soul Above me, and Give him all my best.
Ah Lord, This, Then, Must Be
A Test!
Lord, How Long Left Till I am Free,
Free To Feel, Free To Be,
How Long my heart has been in Chains
Locked withn its sad only Pain
And Fearing Ne''er To Love Again!
Yes, Writing is easy When One's In Love
But When It's Time To Pray Above,
All Words are Breathless---Flown
Away! Give Me, Ah Lord, The Fruits
of Day And Night Spent Sadly Without
Hope, And Treasures longed and gained in Scope,
No Hope remains on that I Pray
But That My Theodore Adore Me
Agin---This, Lord, I Pray!!!!!
Till You Found Me---Oh, That's An
Old One, I Realise....Decay into the Sparrows
Pecking about the fallen Winter Leaves, Come What May
I hope that I will never Leave,
Every Day,
Tell me that you
Love Me More, Honey Take Me
To The Store, Spin Me Round Round On
The Floor....
It was simple, writing at Love's First
Blush. The Whilrwind ebbed and riveted, Sank and Folded
Under Like A Current That Swept All Our Dreams
Away at the Edge Of The Sea and Now
Out To Sea And Lost Away.
Never To Be Found. All Around
Me Lie The Tragedies Of The Day,
Outside all is Time's Decays
Snow That Noone Sees But May
Enchant With Dreams The Coming
Day. Night Is Long But So Is
Day, My Heart is Hummingbird and HE
Is The Sweet Flowers To Which I
Fly. Without His Love I Would Surely
Die. It Isn't that i should Try
To Make Him Love Me, Lord Knows I
Place His Soul Above me, and Give him all my best.
Ah Lord, This, Then, Must Be
A Test!
Lord, How Long Left Till I am Free,
Free To Feel, Free To Be,
How Long my heart has been in Chains
Locked withn its sad only Pain
And Fearing Ne''er To Love Again!
Yes, Writing is easy When One's In Love
But When It's Time To Pray Above,
All Words are Breathless---Flown
Away! Give Me, Ah Lord, The Fruits
of Day And Night Spent Sadly Without
Hope, And Treasures longed and gained in Scope,
No Hope remains on that I Pray
But That My Theodore Adore Me
Agin---This, Lord, I Pray!!!!!
"Rain"
I Cry.
I Cry and I Cry Some
More, Then
I
Cry.
Life is Painful
Life is Lonely
Life is Long
And Life is
Sad.
These Are some of the Worst Times
We've
Ever
Had.
Life is hard to me,
And I feel
Bad.
Life is Temperate, Trying, Difficult.
Life is Tense, Tiring, Subordinate,
Life is Soft Light Through Lace Curtains
And The Denial of Pain
Life is loneliness, Devastations, JEsus
And Soft Rain.
Rain That Falls, Rain The Splatters,
Rain that Flitters and Flatters,
Rain That Cries My Eyes Bone Dry
Rain That Makes Me Feel Alive
Rain That makes me Unable to Speak
Rain that Shows me I am Meek
Rain my Sky For I am Weak!
Rain Through Curtains, Dots and Dashes,
Computers, Lens, My Frail Eyelashes
Rain for Every Day That Passes
Rain Rain Rain, on all the masses---
Rain all day til I feel Silly
Rain All Day and Willy-Nilly
Go my Soul To Higher Perches
Mayhap, Perch On Maple Birches
Sleeping In The Winter Rain,
Simon Peter, Sense My Pain--
And Dare Me Not Till I Attain-
To Ever Leave My House Again.
"On Misery"
I thought, WHerefore my Heart Art Sad,
I thought, why do they call me Mad,
I dreamt that I might cry aloud
And Rest Me Yon Nigh Mourning Shroud.////
I Cry.
I Cry and I Cry Some
More, Then
I
Cry.
Life is Painful
Life is Lonely
Life is Long
And Life is
Sad.
These Are some of the Worst Times
We've
Ever
Had.
Life is hard to me,
And I feel
Bad.
Life is Temperate, Trying, Difficult.
Life is Tense, Tiring, Subordinate,
Life is Soft Light Through Lace Curtains
And The Denial of Pain
Life is loneliness, Devastations, JEsus
And Soft Rain.
Rain That Falls, Rain The Splatters,
Rain that Flitters and Flatters,
Rain That Cries My Eyes Bone Dry
Rain That Makes Me Feel Alive
Rain That makes me Unable to Speak
Rain that Shows me I am Meek
Rain my Sky For I am Weak!
Rain Through Curtains, Dots and Dashes,
Computers, Lens, My Frail Eyelashes
Rain for Every Day That Passes
Rain Rain Rain, on all the masses---
Rain all day til I feel Silly
Rain All Day and Willy-Nilly
Go my Soul To Higher Perches
Mayhap, Perch On Maple Birches
Sleeping In The Winter Rain,
Simon Peter, Sense My Pain--
And Dare Me Not Till I Attain-
To Ever Leave My House Again.
"On Misery"
I thought, WHerefore my Heart Art Sad,
I thought, why do they call me Mad,
I dreamt that I might cry aloud
And Rest Me Yon Nigh Mourning Shroud.////
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