I Wish To God Above, That I Could Explain To
The Rest Of The World, Who Theodore is in his private time,
and why he is so quiet.  He is a peaceful, youthful, innocent, loving,
gentle, kind spirit, like a very wise child who hasn't realised he
should be acting like a grown up, almost as though he were retarded.
but not in a bad way!  He seems to be childlike and helpless
And I Love him so much, that he tells me secrets with his body language
like when he holds me while we sleep, or kisses me, or
walks about the house, or looks at me,---he's communicating all the time.
he and i are really disabled, we shouldn't hold jobs.  if i took him to a doctor
they would say "He is very sick. Even Disabled."  I am confident in this
it bothers me that he has to do manual labor all day to support
 a son he rarely gets to see.  But, Yet he really does love and cherish his son,
almost even stronger than his natural love for me.  We are a Family,
A Family, not a sexual relationship, at this point.  We get through out days
thinking of each other and both know were missing each other without saying anything.
One could call this crazy, or foolish assumption, on my part, that
he really loves me madly and hopelessly, that we are
Forever, That I am His "Better Half" and He is Mine.
But I listen to my heart.  He's an incredibly, deeply, profoundly
sincerely loving person and he sincerely loves me.
He Is Forced to work...He misses me.  Our Love Will Never Die.
Because I am fascinated By My Odd, Sweetest Boy Husband,
And I Want Nothing More From Heaven nor this life, than to
sit here at my desks and write poetry about his needs and how i love him!
And for him to come home every single night without fail
for seven years, I WILL sustain him.  For The Rest Of My Life.
He is an Incredibly, Tragically, sweet and sincere loving heart.
It is easily broken.  if i looked online
for a new boyfriend, it would not only
break his heart--- but his health, and safety,
like driving safely, he might become suicidal.
Besides that i Do Not Want To-, and Can't- Move On from him.
I dedicated my life to this cause of Theodore.  And I'm never going to give up.
In JEsus Name I Pray,
Amen...
-Your Loving Wife, Caroline