"After surviving Suicide"
When I Had Survived Suicidal Intentions
--you see, I nearly killed myself yesterday
i don't clearly remember why, some heartbreak
which i truly believed i could never overcome in this life
therefore i was determined to die.  To take my own life seemed wise.
I'm so glad I didn't.  I almost lost my life  My World  My Hopes and Dreams
Because I was in too much pain and Theodore was being cruel
What saved me was Theodore's kindness and when a man tells you
that you're beautiful, or a joke utters itself from one's lips just before
commiting the deed, one cannot help but searingly giggle at
something random, something silly, and one wonders what on earth
one is about to commit such an act, and one finds oneself very lost and alone
then your husband comes home and he holds you so tight, is kind to you
you find it inside yourself that you are being unreasonable, that life is
worth living, that you have everything to live for
Life is that Fragile, suicide is a demon that smothers the hearts
of the heartbroken and illusions them that their lives are hopeless
if they survive they will wake up the next day grateful to Be Alive
I don't think you can ever be cured of it, it's heartbreak that causes it
and when people are kind to you or live you back, it heals you
suicidal thought strike the heartbroken and unloved
the cure is to be treated with kindness, to be loved and coddled and held
a simple compliment or acknowledgement can save a person's life
One can only try to prepare for the times that pain will come in the future
One can never really be healed, heartbreak happens
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.