The heavy-duty antipsychotics I was immetiately put on at age eighteen, were countless huge pills; it took me five minutes to swallow three times a day.  Haldol, Geodon, etc... im still on Geodon three times a day.  But when they first slowed down my mind, i was like a dumb dead person or a drowning soul in a mind being smothered by chemicals.  Pills.  I was unable to think clearly, wake up before 11am, i would sleepwalk to the refrigerator and wake up with food in my mouth, passed out.  The pills dimmed my mind and sou and emotions, it was like being numb.  they cut off my hair.  I became ugly.  It was hard.  The antipsycotics dumbed me down so that i had to really focus to study as i was going through the next six years of college, i had to read sentences again and again.  My grade plummetted.  I was ugly.  I was so lonely and lost back then.  If It hadn't been for my grandparent,s I would have died somehow...or been permanently committed to the asylum.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!