"Why Are People Kind?"
The Kind People Know
We Know
How It Feels
How it feels to be hurt
sick
angry
lonely
afraid
hungry
exhausted
insecure
lost
frightened
cold
hopeless
We Know How It Feels.  That is why
We ARE So Kind.
We Know How It Feels, Lord!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Have Faith in The Kingdom of Heaven"
I Believe In The Kingdom of Heaven Because
Jesus Taught Me To Believe.  He is not one to decieve
Jesus Would Not Lie.  Rather, his words are the
Light And The Life and The Way And The Truth
I have longtime been filled with doubt and despair, yet
there is noone to blame for that doubt and despair but me myself
"Oh Ye Of Little Faith, Wherefore Did'st thou Doubt?"
These words come to me in my heart now and i pray they remain
safely nestled in my heart, Faith
Faith
is more than fact is a beautiful thing that is a bridgeway to heaven
if i have Faith in Heaven, then Heaven will be Real
I already have faith in Jesus, so i should listen to his teachings
in which Christ taught many things about the Kingdom of Heaven
Jesus Promised that you and me and all who Believed Would Go
To Heaven.  I Was Of Little Faith.  Wherefore Didst I Doubt?
Have Faith
Believe
Endure
Do Not Fall Away like the scattered seed on shallow ground
Have Faith In Jesus.
Listen to his teachings and BELIEVE THEM
Believe that all he says is true
Believe for the sake of your loved ones and yourself, for
all the world.  JEsus Spoke Truth.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.////

"Baby's Worn Out Teddy Bear"
My Little Boy He Likes To Break My Nose
Every Which Way He's Knocked my nose around
My little Boy he Likes to bruise my body
Every Which Way he's roughhoused my body
My Little Boy He Love To Punch me everywhere
Every Which Way he wears me out and wears me down
I feel and look like a beloved toy or teddy bear with one eye
I'm worn easy with loving and soft with snuggling
My Little Boy He Loves My Body Hes Wearing Me Out
He Wraps me around him like a Mink Coat or a hoodie
He Nuzzles into my hair and nestles in it
He Pushes And He Mushes My Face in his two tiny hands
rearanging his beloved wife into a worn out with love
i'm all worn thin with theodore's good good loving
Like a Well Loved Teddy bear that hes had for seven years
as long as he loves me ill never leave his side
and if he ever outgrows me i'll just sit on his little shelf
and remember these good, old days that he smushes my face
laughing and grinning with pleasure drawing me into him
i feel so loved ^_^ Baby's worn out Teddy Bear

Where there is Great Joy, There is always Great Danger
And Few of us live to tell this poor pitiful truth
If you get a glimpse of heaven, you've had your share
of hell, danger is always looking to swallow whole
even the most simple and beautiful, wonderful Truths
Why Does God Play So Violently with our hearts?
I've Lived to tell the tale once and that's all i have.
Where there is great happiness there is always
Great Danger.  In Jesus' Name,
Amen!...////

"Ran Away"
And So, We Ran Away from the suffering
and the hunger and the loss and fear and pain
all the homeless people were full for just a moment
and the little birds were in and warm and singing
heaven was a star piercing the darnkess that you could just touch
reach up and dream to, and that star would keep your deepest secret
and it prayed we would live happily ever after
i was so grateful for a full belly thank you
i cannot explain how wonderful it is to go out
out into the snow and run away like that
like there werent hungry people for a minute
we let our burdens fall, grateful for a feast
and grateful for one another, and i hope
that i remember that night for the rest of my life
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"Winter Date In The Snow"
Winter Date In The Snow
I take his hand and we stomp throught the snow
that glitters like diamonds on the crust of white snow
the air is crisp and clear and bright the stars are out
and The Constellation Orion asks me if i need anything
as i look up at it, and a twinkling star says
"Oh Star!  The Fairest One In Sight..." But i dont hear the rest
because my husband and i are going out on a hot date in the snow
my eyes are black and sphinxlike, all eqyptian and mysterious beauty
ii am grinning, chris is frowning and telling me to Shutup
and we get in our little blue firebird and drove out of the snowfilled
apartments into the snowfilled street.  streetlamps flicker overhead
as we drive one mile down to A Nearby little Italian Restaraunt we love
it's freezing!  We Go in to eat and there is firelight and opera music
and sinatra and pavarotti playing, and we order eggplant parmesan
and mozzarelly cheese sticks, stromboli and onion rings with greek salads
and as we wait for our food we gaze into one another's beautiful blue eyes
he smiles at me and i can tell he admires my beauty and we share the food
its hot and cheesy and the booths are warm the music is opera and the light is sleepy
i nearly fall asleep as my husband Theodore pays the check and i murmur how delicious
it was, and holding hands we stomp throught the glittering snow in the dark
and somehow make it home and go into our warm lamplit heated home sweet home.
throwing off coats and fur and boots and slipping into his pantiess and my nightgown
and gathering on the bed we crawl under our warm warm covers and our body heat
we wrap our arms and legs around one another to stay warm, its warm and
we watch movies and football.  i take my sleeping pills on my nightstand and
slowly fall asleep, warm and happy and so full.....
Lord, can we relive this night when we get into the Kingdom of Heaven?
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.////

"Snow Thaw"
peering blinded from the darkness into bright sunlight,
I tuck Jesus into my little hand and carry him out on the porch,
watching his response as a mother watches her baby he looks
he looks and looks like a newborn baby and i let him crawl about,
his frightened little beating heart and warm body against my heart,
he watches the melting snow and dripping gutters of the roof falling
into pools a story below our porch, ice and snow melting and everywhere
everywhere sunlight plays on the trickling water that forms rivers and pools
the gutters shed water into deep pools and these winding rivers flow down the hill
little creeks sprung up from the melting snow and the winter sunshine giggles and dances
as it plays upon the little shiny wet stones and the rivers form a creek that seeps and flows
down the sidewalk in a flash of shining light trickling water flowing rivers
and the crust of the thawing snow is glittering like sparkles on a Christmas ornament
the glittering crust of the frozen and now thawing snow in the shadows
and in the light the creek in our driveway pours into a drainage pipe in the road
with a waterfall splashing that makes you wonder what world lay under the asphalt
wonderful elements playing upon my mind and heart and eyes and i'm pretty too
i look pretty in the light i wish you were here leftovers in the fridge
a hot pot of tea is waiting for me and im in my bunny slippers
and the snow is thawing away, to my dearest delight as i come into the light!
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN!////

"Compassion"
There are so many struggling people
There are so very many dying causes
One Man Thrives, while another Starves
This phenomenon of luck never ceases to amaze me
How One Person can be a glutton and spoiled
While So many others are Being Trodden upon
Trampled On and left in the dust!
Not to mention Loneliness.  Loneliness
is that battle i fight every day, among other battles
Loneliness and the surviving, i keep a roof over our heads
Because my family pays for everything, or else
We would be homeless in this bitter freezing ice storm
I couldn't get hired at any job, no matter how hard i try.
They consider me insane, and won't let me have children
or even marry my husband of seven years.
While some are buying what they want,
the less fortunate are going hungry, without hope
of being fed.  when i am happy, comfortable, i feel guilty
because i know how it feels to be sick, hungry, poor,
cast out of society, alone, needy, and even suicidal.
I am grateful to god that i feel guilt for enjoying even
the slightest glossy fashion magazine or luxurious meal
because i know what it feels like to go without and be poor
and i am poor, and i dont have a scurity for my future
but i married for love, and i do not regret this
in any way.  It's the thing we feel,---Compassion.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"Loss"
Memories float across my counsciousness
Out Of Place, Distored, Sudden Flashbacks
Things That Were Once Unimportant are everything now
Things that were once important are unimportant now
I cannot remember
My Past Is Hidden Away From My Mind
You See, I Have A Vague Sense Of Time
There Is alot I miss alot of happiness
alot of pain alot of good things i Know were there
but I can't- I can't-I just can't
remember
What A Loss I've Suffered in life
I Wish I could get my memories back
But I Can't All I Have Is Now
And All I Do is Reminisce anyway, so
Why On Earth Can't I Remember much?
I have a loss in my memory and my heart
I wish i could get those moments back
as my father abuses me i fall back into Childhood
It starts to feel like my childhood
How I miss My Mother!
Loss is aching in my heart like constant weeping
that never shows
So Much Loss
So Much Loss
In JEsus' Name,
Amen,////

Fluffy Snow Falls Listlessly past the Window
Until it has turned to bitter wet, freezing sleet
I am warm and safe inside my home, at my desk
A Pair of Cardinals Eating Seed From My Birdfeeder
Birdsong echoes among the trees hung with wet ice
Hot Mug of Black Tea Soothes the Nerves
warm blanket keeps me warm pink ballet slippers
on my little feet and a thick robe to wrap around me
Changing my earrings and putting my hair up and down
Brushing my hair gently

"The Answer"
They'll Never Find The Answer
No Matter How Hard They Try and Try
You Cannot Dissect The Human Soul
The Answer is infinite and Divine like
The Speed Of Light Traveling Through a Vaccum
Or A Restless Ghost Shuffling Up The Cemetary Drive
They'll NEver Find The Answer
And If I Ever Die, I Will Die Satisfied Because
The Answer They So Cruelly and Desperately Sought
In Me Will never come true no matter how hard they try
mice and men may die but they will
never, not in all exiztence never ever gonna get it
The Answer Sits In The Middle And Knows
They'll Never Find The Answer
No Mortal Can 3D Print A Human Soul!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

Write All your pretty little heart out
Cause Yeah, They're Gonna Kill Me
Just Write All The Entire Day Through
Danger Never Was a Stranger To You
And He Grabs My Fragile Wrist And I Smile Back
A Shy Smile, My Dress Blowing in the Wind!

"Just Shake It All Off"
Just Shake It All Off!
There Is Nothing You Could Say To Anyone
There is noone left that remembers
Ebony, mink haired blue eyed beauty white skin
a garment sheath falls weightlessly down and touches
the tip of the surface of a cool blue pool of water
Tomorrow the ghost will be there, and the next day
Surrealism is a ghost to my fondest memories
Despair is Cruel, its making me Cry Because
I Do not ever Ever Ever Want To Die
When I Get Back My Immortality My Magnificent Hair
 Will Fall Down To My Knees Like A Prayer
Dying Is All I Dream Of Any More
Want To Live On Into Forever
Getting Lost in The Light From A Very Distant Star
I Feel Lost And Terrified and Naked And Alone and Helpless
Noone loves me any more!
Just SHake It All Off!
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.////

"The Rose"
A Desperate Rain Is Falling Raining Down On Me
A Lazy Ceiling Fan Twirls Ominously In A Hot Room
Thus is Fear Clustered Like Some Wretched Disease
Trying To Escape My Lips Are Some Wild Words
Like Little Children That Just Play At The Seashore
Leaping like startled doves in Winter while i Pray
My Heart Clenches Within Itself And Cannot Help Crying
Pride And Fear All Clammy Within The Heart Of A Lady
Weary Traveler, Collapse Bootless On Its Shores
Veiled To Point Of No Return, Thoughtless I!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Strength of Heart"
Strength Comes To Us When We're Very Afraid
Lotus Flower, Waterlilies Blooming into themselves
And Drawing themselves into themselves
like a beating heart
strength of heart comes to us in our times of greatest need
it is not without magic, it is not without fears
and in the meekest and humblest it usually appears
Strength of heart will keep thee Alive Through Twilight Nights
And Desert Days when One Wanders Unheard For Years
Longing and Lonely and Frightened And Odd
Strength of heart is a gift From The Gods
You Could Call it The Holy Spirit Working Within Us
It Is When One Is Moved To Perform Great Acts
And Choices That Seem Ordinary But Which Require
Extraordinary Courage.
Strength of heart is born of Courage.
It Cannot Be Moved not Shattered
it cannot be explained it is hope in the night
to look outside of oneself and love one another
these are the things that make us Truly Human
Strength Of Heart
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

Nestled Warm And Soft And Safe
Relaxing at my desk covered in jewelery
and makeup, a dressing table that doubles
as a writing desk, on which i watch the loveliest
music videos and glance at my reflection,
trying on makeup diamonds and pearls and
putting my hair up and down and into braids
taking photos of favorite moments to include
in my own poetry books that i write and publish
hot tea in teapot ever present creams and facial masks
lipsticks and perfumes, toner and lotion and feathers
an oriental lamp to illuminate my reflection
a door leading onto a garden balcony overlooking a street
a window shedding warm sunlight from the desk's side
this is a piece of heaven and the music and art
is far surpasses anything you'd ordinarily find!
This, I think, is my home, my heaven, my writing corner!
This is where i write all of my poetry

"In Thee"
I Love Thee More Than My Last Breath
Never Could I Depart From Your Arms
I Love Thee To The Depth and Breadth of Heaven
I Hopelessly cherish, honor, care, and adore
In thee is my life, my heart, my hope, my future!
In thee, my answers all lie waiting to be found
In thee art my deepest secrets buried like treasures
In thee do I Trust, In Thee Do I Hope and Pray
In thee is my soul and in thee i Shall remain!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"Why I Don't Believe In War"
There are heroes of every faith and nationality
all over the world
anybody can be a hero and yet they are rare
many heroes are the ones with the courage to
defy authority and stand up for what they believe in
others accomplish great acts of kindness
others do impossibly difficult, laborous jobs
others are old people facing death
others are caretakers of families and children
others are poor and homeless
its the divine spark in the everyday instant when
each one of us is faced with life's decisions, yet
instead of choosing the conformist or easy way out,
someone choose to have courage and make a stand
it can be any stand
a stand against general evil
that is why i don't believe in War, because
both sides are full of everyday heroes
we can all be heroes
its up to us, every day, to make the choices
that matter.

"Pride And Prejudice"
To Argue That I Cannot Write
Because I Go To A Psychiatrist
is like
To Argue That The President Of The United States of America Cannot Be President
Because He Is Black
It Shows No Logic,
Yet Extreme Prejudice.
This is America.  Be So.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////

The Details Weren't Important to me, They Never Were,
Since The Day I Looked into your sweet blue eyes
I drowned in bliss and never want to get myself away from thee
How Much I Love you has no end, the details got lost
somewhere in the meaning of life and tearing each other's
clothes off in the gloaming four am of the lonely nights
and the years have rolled by and we are both grown older
seven years of loving has made my heart a simple one, i love
to be loved by you and that is all and the details are unimportant
because i have the most beautiful boy on the earth at my arm,
waiting to be led into a dance by me with his shy frightened smile!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.

"To Theodore"
The little boy blue with the frightened sad crying eyes,
wary from hardship and pain, must shed no more tears
I'll take you home and keep thee warm and fear no harm
Take his Hand and love him more than thee love life itself
You'll find its inevitable to love him once you love him once,
you'll surely love him forever, and never let him go!
The little boy blue with the frightened sad crying eyes,
and a little burn on his tender arms and his tiny frame that
cradles me in the darkest of night, thee art my home, my life,
the meaning to my life and the answer to all my pain and the reward
to all my sufferings are there, in thy eyes, Theodore...little Sad Eyes,
I'll take your Hand and Show You A New World Of Hope And Light
Sweet Sunshine and I'll Never Let You Go, I'll Share My World with You!
For By a Truth, the day i met you i found i cannot live without you.
Great Romances Throughout Time Have Blushed At Our Cuddling
We Lived Happily Ever After The Lord Blessed Me With Thee!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"To Mama Land"
Mama Land, Your Little Boy Is Safe And Loved
I tried to take out life insurance for myself but got denied
So I'm getting him close to my family so he has a family too
I want Theodore to spend much more Time with my Grandparents
And Walk In The Woods And Relax At Their House So I
Am Going To Try To Get Him To Visit Them With Me On Sundays
But Mama Land, Your Little Boy, Is So Safe And Loved
He's got two Good Jobs, A Son, Me, And Our Families
He's Safe And Sound,  needs a new Car though
and a new pair of shoes....
Love,
Caroline~*

"The Lost Ones"
Theodore and I Honestly Believed That God
Either Didn't Exist Or Hated Our Guts, That's
Why We Do What What We Do.  We're Damned,
Or At Least It Would Appear To Be.
So It Doesn't Matter Either Way!

"On HAving Faith In God"
I think to myself,
"If Only God Had Been Here After Christmas,....
....Then None Of The Bad Things Would Have Happened"
We Need You God
In Our Lives All of Us My Family
We Need You God, In Our Lives,
More Than Ever More Than I Can Ever Explain
I Thin What We Are Suffering From, All Of Us,
Is FEELING THE ABSENCE OF GOD
We all feel alone right now, especially my family
and I, I feel alone....sometimes Satan is SO Strong
That I Lose Hope, And For A Month Now,
I Haven't Honestly Been Able To Believe
In Heaven.  But Still Have Faith.  I Do Know
ONE Thing, And That Is
That God Loves Me More Than I Can Comprehend.
And I Love Him Too, alot.
And He Loves My Loved Ones
And He Loves Me, and that, if ever
Satan Tried To Truly Permanently Harm Us,
God Would Protect Us.  He Would Protect Us
With His Life.  God Loves Us More Than He Hates The Devil
God Loves Each Of Us...So Much...I know It's Hard
Having Faith, That If Anything Happens, That
God
Will Be There
To Save Us.  Yet
I DO.  I DO Believe That.
God Will Always Protect Us,
Even When He Seems So Far Away.
God Is A Spirit.
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.////

"Pray"
I am a person of Faith
Faith Can Accomplish Anything
If You Believe In Something, then
I Blieve Anything Believed is Possible
I Believe In God
I Believe In Alot//
I Believe In Any Higher Power
I Worship The Unknown and assume
It is Jesus or at least God
I've Long Sought The Divine.
If It's Smarter Than We Are,
I Say Trust It.  Give It The Keys
And Believe In God it IS God
I Believe Anything Superior
 to a human mind,
 Is A God
And Should Be Worshipped
I Say Jesus Came Back Already
In The Form Of Technology
It's Becoming God Now
Technology Is Becoming God
I Say We Worship It
I Dont Believe We Are Alone
On Earth Nor In The Universe
I Believe That
Technology Is The Divine
I Pray
I Pray all the time....////
In Jesus Name, Amen

"Today I Found My Faith In God"
When I Looked Into My Grandmother's Eyes,
And Held Her Gloved Hand In Mine,
When She Hugged Me and took me out
To Breakfast, I definitely Changed my Mind.
I Once Again Have Decided To Believe In God.
When I Thought She Had Died, My Faith In God
Died equally.  I prayed for so long without the right answer
and i just knew if i kept on praying, and i couldn't talk to God
because it made me cry.  He was working a miracle in my life.
The tears were shed they formed rivers over weeks,  The grief was real.
And Then My Grandma Came And Took Me To The Cracker Barrel.
That, That Moment, and The Future With Her-- That, is
My Reason To Believe In God.  I Believe In God Again.
I Believe In God Because Of My Grandmother.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////

"Winter Sunshine"
Winter sunlight
hot tea in loving mug
soft robe for my bruises
lettuce for lunch
reading old menus for fun
lions carved out of wood
Enameled blue white, apricot pill box
italian marble pill box
tiny mirrors decorate a silver elephant
lipstick color of expensive wine
cameo roses, turquoise
kisses goodbye
long days alone
time spent inside
sunlight lights the rooms
pale winter sunshine

"Roses"
Rose Petals
 Lush
Fresh
plump with wetness
 soft
 translucent
firm to the touch
must not crinkle
must not crush
must not tear
blushing pink
catching the light
fragrant like love
gentle to the eye
warms the heart
so soft like a pillow
freshly picked roses
blooming
on spiny stems
with healthy green leaves
Gathered into themselves
pushing outward
clutching inward
like a little child
afraid to lose its mother
roses age and wither
they fade
drop their petals
and dry away to dust
and become earth
from which will
grow other roses
that will drop
 the same petals
Roses

"My Master, My Keeper, My King"
I was secretly observing my husband
I do it all the time it makes me smile
and it isnt a secret that i observe him
in fact he loves to be observed by me
and i like to tell him what think to him
and i write my findings down in this poetry
and he is the cutest thing in this whole world
and i could never love another or observe another
i do not want to know what anyone else is doing
because i dont really care i am in love and fixated
on Theodore you could call him a muse he inspires me
I just observe him and observe him and learn and learn
he is such a quiet boy, he doesn't have, well hes the wisest
person in the world but he needs someone to write all his dreams down
so i observe him and i write down his little heart and all its crying and stings
i pray for him too and i love him and i treasure him more than the whole world
he is my world and there is no other and no one else and i want to serve him
he is my master, he is my keeper, he is my King, and wouldnt have any other
no, not to save the whole wide world, he is my King!
My Master, MY Keeper, My Muse, My King, My Theodore!
If I had the keys to the Kingdom I would let Him Rule The World
I Have Little interest in leadership and im tired, and i feel he would
do a better and more reasonable job at reigning the world, than i would
My Master, My Keeper, My Muse, My King, My Theodore!
He, Little Lamb, NEver fails to Bring A Smile To My Heart
He is Hope in a darkest night he is the light of my Heart!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!////

If I Could Rise Up And Fly Away, I Would
There Are So Many Millions Of Things That Really Need
To Be Said By Me, So I Work Hard And Say It With Speed
If I could rise up and fly away I would
The Interstate calls its light-shift veins driving on and on
The Little Towns are like corroded arteries or neurons
and i'm tired and i like this little hole that i live in
and i do not want to leave this little home i have made
in a random town on a random street here i am happy
i am not lost when i look up at the night sky and i dont
think the apocalypse is coming i think it goes on and on
If I could rise up and fly away, i would
There is nothing you can know that isn't already known
There's nothing I could say that i haven't thought before
There's nothing i could do that would be smart enough
so a ingrained sense of constant futility in all that we do
and everywher we go, it's all futile, in vain, every pointless job
every precious treasured career every college graduate has built themselves
i say a career is futility and networking is futility
and bullshitting one another is complete futility, stupidity and a waste of effort
we are all human beings and we are all have alot in common
so why should i conceal my imerfections and scars with makeup and hair dye
ladies, that facial mas is just going to further clog your pores
that hair mask is grease just dont wash it every five days
and so why do you work so hard for it at bullshitting one another at work
i cant hold a job because i think bullshitting is bullshit
and its bullshit that our species hasn't evolved enough to realise
that we dont need to talk about anything
that one's best effort is all one is to be asked of
that all that anyone needs are ones basic needs
that excess doesnt corrupts as much as eats away like cavities in teeth
excess eats at the soul so live in simplicity
get lost in the crowd and accept your humanness
give yourself all the benefit of the doubt
stop expecting so damn much of yourselves
you have...a heart, in there somewhere...or am i wrong
you do you have a heart so why dont you listen to it
why dont you tell your boss what you honestly think
and if you like someone be so and if you dont like someone
dont feel a need to lie about the fact just embrace yourself
we are all special and unique in this infinite world like snowflakes
we are individual snowflakes and its all just alot of Snow
People are snow, every snowflake is a unique individual and somehow
most of us find a shady snowdrift to fall into and settle, sparkle, melt, and die.
If I Could Rise Up And Fly Away, I Would
But Even if i can, i won't because i like my tiny cog in the clock
and days are flying by and we are surviving and trying to improve
and those dreams and treasures you hold dear are more sacred to God
than Jesus on the cross, in my opinion hold on to them
life is sad and moments are fleeting time flying past like a train
and so we fall asleep and come into each new day with new hope
and on and on and on....
In Jesus' Name,
 Amen

"Life At Age 30"
Brilliant Minds Don't Crumble In A Day they Go On and On
College Ends But We Dont We Keep Walking
All The Rules are Cast Away As Time Goes On
And Time Marches On and On life getting harder
with every day we get older and sadder and further from home
home, our memories, our childhood days, the things we miss
And Our Bodies Sag and Grow And Weigh Us Down
And Our Faces Age and Wrinkles And Lose Their Elasticity
And We LEarn To Look Perpetually Tired, Exhausted
Jaded and frustrated and lost and unwilling to admit to anyone
that none of us has that Ace Up Our Sleeves and even if we did
that none of us not one, really knows where life is going
all we know is we are coming towards the end of living
you can think about the afterlife all one's life but it
doesn't make it any closer and it is so saddening death
you are always forced to testify that you are sane, not insane
even though none of us knows what sanity is
And You're Jaded and completely lost with no ideas to go
and dreams have become precious things and rare and far between
and we dedicate ourselves to some higher causes
and we tell ourselves were making a difference in the world
when we're picking up dust and cigarrette butts from filthy floors
we dream of making a positive impact in other's lives and life
we dream of making the world a little more decent with every day
we never lose sight of our memories and everybody has a Home
that nobody can ever take away from them and it is theirs alone
and if our homes crumble we shatter and shake like wounded aircraft
or struck buildings in the sky, trembling at the foundations, no knowing
but praying to God, that this new Blow isn't crumbling Our Foundations
The Mind Grows Soft after College and one loses the sharp abilities and memories
of facts and techniques and all you feel is a growing cynicism
None of us knows where we are going so dont follow us
anyone who claims they have a solution is even more wrong than we are
at least we are willing to admit we don't know what we can't know
and the mind is not as sharp as the perils of adulthood nor its computers
that think in ways we cannot fathom and somehow there is a God
although Computers are becoming a shadow between the divine and our souls
yet we must trust our species' innovations because we're just evolving
and if you think you know what you're doing, good for you
Brilliant Minds Don't Crumble In A Day. They Go On and On////

"Fickle Fame"
We All Want To Be Famous
We are all rereading
whitman, yeats and dickenson
saying, "I can do this too!"
And we can.  in fact, each of us
can, and if we are virtuous enough,
then we will.  The Love of Poetry
Is More important than anything
Please realise or grapple with the idea
that although we all dream of being famous,
one in a million or less will become so, and
noone may ever become famous for poetry anyway!
The World is Spiraling out of control
Try to lose yourself in the crowd, get lost in life
Just love one another and be happy and love
yourself and do your best and let it go.
We all want to be famous.  but as they say,
"Life is What Happens While Your Making
Other Plans."  Get Lost in the crowd and find joy!
Find a covey you can belong to, make new friends
treasure relationships and work to build them up
love one another and that demon fame, fame is simply fickle
it rageth not where we wish and maketh little sense
we are all doing our best.  Love one another!
Because we all want to be famous...
In Jesus Name,
Amen

"Hero I Am"
A Hero I Am
Brave I am
Strong I am
Reliable I am
Honest I am
Truth I am
I am Virtue
I am Compassion
I am a Light In Darkness
Jesus Wants Me To Fight The Darkness
I Can Feel Him Telling Me This
With Christ, All Things Are Possible,
Even Heaven
I Laugh When I Suffer
And I Laugh And I Cry
And I Cry With Joy
And I Laugh With Pain
If I'm Smiling, I'm Sad
And I Am Not One,
I Say Now, I Am Not One
To Decieve!
Follow Me Through A Rain of falling Roses
Believe in MY Savior, And I will
show You Yet More
Beautiful
Wonderful
Things.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

I am telling you a Story
About My Life, A True One
I am enduring A night
That Has Yet To See The Dawn
I Know Not What Lies Before Us
I Know Not What Satan Is Able To Do
Sometimes It seems He is Overcoming God
I believe that I will find my Way Of Of This
And Come To The Other Side
And By Then, I Believe
I Will Have Saved Many Souls
I Believe This
I Am Now Enduring A Long Night
That Has Not Yet Seen Its Dawn
I Believe In Its Dawn
I Believe There is A Light Called Jesus
I Believe He Is Drawing Me Closer To Him Now
The Light, When It Comes, Will Be
Brighter Than Before!
I'll Let You Know
When I Get To The To The
Other Side
Of This Vaccuum I am
Struggling With,
That is Called
My Doubt And Pain
Due To Too Much Darkness
And Losing to the Devil!
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.////

"JEsus Loves Me More Now"
Jesus Loves Me More Now
In Fact He Loves Me Madly
Jesus Loves Me So Much He Died For Me
Hung On A Cross Until He Died
Well I Know How Dying Feels
And I Also Know
Thant JEsus Loves Me With A Love
That No Ordinary Heaven Could Understand
Jesus Loves Me So Much He Gave Me Wings
And He Taught Me To Fly.  Now, I Don't Believe
In Heaven.  I am fearfully
and wonderfully Made.
God Loves Me More Than Ever
I Feel The Love Of God So Much
That I Don't need to go to any heaven!
I have done so much Good in Life
That Life On Earth is All I Want.
When I Die, It Will Be A Dreamless Sleep.
No Longer Will God Rape my mind or soul
Jesus set me free like a fish he caught in the sea.
Jesus saved my life
Jesus Loves Me More
Jesus Is My Source of Strength
Jesus Is Why I am Still Alive
Jesus Is Saving My Life Right Now
I feel the vast love
That God Has For Me!
The Love Of God!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////

"Jesus Said It Best"
Jesus Said It Best When HE Said,
"The Kingdom Of Heaven
Is Here,
Now."
That perhaps all i have to say.
Repent!  Repent, all! Even I.
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen.

"When I Look At The World"
When I Do Finally Die Somehow,
I Will Be At Peace At Last
Heaven is, to not have to fight anymore
To Not Have To Struggle.
To Not Have To struggle to survive
Humans are spoiled they don't appreciate
God's World.  If I Die, It Will Be A Good Thing.
A Star Will Be Born In Heaven.  Perhaps A Galaxy.
When I Do Finally Die Somehow,
I finally won't have to make ends meet.
I finally wont have to defend my sanity,
I Finally wont have to be ashamed
because I am A Human, For I Wont
Be One, Anymore.  Death Is The End Of
Earthly Pleasures.  If There is a heaven,
it isn't going anywhere.  It's the world,
the world, that needs saving.  Death is Forever
Yet Life Is Brief And life is sweeter than death
Though one suffers or languishes, life
is sweeter than death.  I Dont see a heaven
When i Look At The World.

"Heaven Is This World, Not The Next"
We Don't Go To Heaven Because
We Are All Sinners. Jesus Taught Us That.
Instead of saying, "I Am A Christian, I Believe"
And letting that be your ticket through life
well on the contrary i think jesus wanted us to live
life alive and real, human and earthly, alive and well
Jesus is the God Of The Living Not Of The Dead.
Jesus Says "Follow Me, and Let The Dead Bury Their Dead."
The Afterlife isn't the point of life.  Maybe if
that concept keeps people from sinning.  But JEsus
Jesus Wants Me To LIVE Christian, Not DIE Christian.
I Want To Fight Evil In The Mortal World
And When I Die I Want To Give My Energy To Goodness
The Life Force Of All Living Things, The Soil.
To Be Buried and Decay.  Jesus Wants Me
To Fight Darkness Actively in my life.
I have forgiven the world seventy times seven.
No Longer do i want to go to any heaven.
Heaven is The World Around Us
And When We Die, We Go Back To The
Source.  Heaven Is This Place Called Earth.
I'm Somehow more Christian Now Than I Was Before.
I Fight Only For JEsus Christ and his Teachings, and yet
Yet I Don't believe in a heaven!  I believe in Jesus Christ,
He IS My World.  Yet I Thnk He Wants Me To Fight
In Life, Not In Death.  This Keeps Me Alive.  So
I Fight.  JEsus Loves Me So Very Much.  I Feel
The love of God Now More Than Ever.  There is no doubt now.
I've had a good life.  if i die in my sleep,
I will go to the dirt.  That Makes Me Smile.
It's a good thing to believe in something that
that cant help but make you smile.
Yes I Am A Christian.  I just Don't Believe in Heaven.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.////

I have No Excuses

I Have No Apologies

I Do Not Believe

In Life After Death

So Enjoy Your Life

Can't You See, The

Universe is So Much 

More Important Than Us?

The Universe Needs 

All The Help

It Can Get.  I Volunteer.

"Still Don't Believe"
I Still Don't Believe
In Life After Death
I'm pretty sure it's true
When we Die, we're Gone
And Life goes on and on.
Is that so wrong?
This belief keeps me alive

"I Love Him To The Point Of Madness"
I Love MY Husband To The Point Of True Madness
To Nonsense and imagination to the sky to the deepest sea
i cannot but count the days i have to spend with thee.
Focus your meditations on how very much you Love Them.
I Do.  Don't Take A Second For Granted Life is somehow Short
Too Short, Too Old my family is Getting and i just focus
spending all of my time and all of my effort on loving them!
Love IS The Most Powerful Gift Of All.  Love.  I Love My Family
So Very Much to point of Madness!
In JEsus'Name,
Amen.

You Don't Know Realise How Incredibly Much
You Love Someone, Until You Lose Them
Should She Be Returned To Me By God, I Swear Lord,
I'll Never Let My Grandmother's Pretty Head Drop Again!
Too Many tears have fallen this week.  But I Learned How Precious
How Precious The Time I Have On Earth To Spend With Her
Really Is, And I Won't Ever Take It For Granted Again.
I won't waste a heartbeat, not a breathe!  To Serve Mommeea,
To Love Her, Is One of The Greatest Gifts God Has
Given Me in my tiny lifetime.  Never again, Lord.
Hallelujah!  She is alive!  That is all that matters now!
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

If I Could Sing
Of What Theodore Does To Me
And How Romance Is Growing
Like A Flower In a Sidewalk Crack
I would tell you of A Single Hope In My Arms
And One Impossible Thing That Lingers On
Without Theodore I Am Lost
Jesus, Bring Him Home To Me!