No; My Work Does not mean that
Much To Me At All.  I am Proud, Yet
Surely These Are Nothing But
The Fruits Of A Liffe Well-Lived.
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

Another Pretty Seashell I Found
While Walking Along The Sea Lord:
//In Theodore's early memory, hymnal music
was heard ringing round
His Nursery Door.  It Said,
"Take this Child, Lord,
Give Him The Wings To Fly To A Shelter
So He Won't Hurt Anymore."
AMEN.,////

I was never angry at God
I have always known my God
My God Has Always Been With Me
In My Life In One Form Or Another
My God Is Kinder Than Wise
And Yet His Wisdom Is Infinite-- this may
seem to you like a paradox, but God
Has the magical ability to always
Burst The Boundaries Of Furmulas....
When I am Lost, i Sit Still and Wait
For My God Will Find Me and Deliver Me
I do not fear evil, for I am good
and i am with God-- why not trust
In the lord and have ffaith each night
no matter what may come, i will always
LOVE God.  I am a Peace With My Life
And I Am Not That Afraid of Anything
The Devil Might Throw At Me.  I Do Not
Know What The Future Holds, If It Holds
Anything I Try
To Take it One Day At A Time.  My God
Is My Crutch and I am A Cripple.  Without God
I Could Not Live.  In Jesus' Name.
Amen.

Sail your Sailing Ship Out
Far Out Across The Vast Sea
Slumber is Gentlest to the Poorer
And Kindest to the sufferers and
to the weary Slumber is Deep
Deep as night and in the morn
Dawn rises the colors of a conch
shell on the horizon of the village
rainy days spent inside are pleasant
Hold your glass moccassins in your palm
The Colors of lonely Maize Corn husks and onyx
Pray for your little cowboy, for he is lost
in a world that doesn't understand him
and let the candle burn bright light into
the dim dusty room where its blue owl
lantern of metal and glass and hinged
with a key, is for you, my sweet baby.
In Jesus' Name, Amen

"Dreams Dearly Bought"
Dreams Dearly Bought
Priceless To The Heart
For My Son And Husband
Theodore Shall Never Forget
The Sailing Ships on The Sea
The Indian Ancestors Of His
The Cowboys And All His Dreams
The Elephants of India
Dreams Dearly Bought
Priceless To the heart!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

My Most-Beloved Husband---Was He
Born In A Time Of Peace, Or In A Time
Of War?  I Need To Know Somehow.
I Think We Are The Children Of Our Sun
The Sun Is The Center Of All Life
It is almost all the matter in the solar system
Earth orbits it and it warms the earth
with it starlight, for the Sun is a Star
In a Sea of Stars, But Our Sun is God
Or it Was Created By One God
One God To Rule Them, One God
To Bind Them----One God, One Sun
Earth is a Child of The Sun
And All The Children Of The Earth-- "Life"
Living Things--- are fueled and live only
by sunlight, which is starlight.  Then at night
we fall asleep or unconscious, and
our minds transport our souls to another
universe, one that is basically evil, one
We Call Dreams, Or Sleep, One We
Cannot Live Without, One Which Is Hell
The We Awaken To Our Sun When The Sun
Shines Upon Our Side Of Earth, East and West
It Rises in the East and Sets In The West
And Plants Grow Only Because Of Sunlight
Water is a coincidence.  Plants Grow
from starlight they are the children
of starlight Our Sun--- and So are We,
The People, humans, and all animals
on the earth.  if plants come from starlight
which is sunlight, then animals must come
from starlight which is sunlight, and we all have
Souls, and where do Our Souls Come From---
Is it not logical to argue that our souls are bits
of sunlight/starlight, born of sunlight, and
to the sunlight they return when we die?
What is the sun besides a star?  Is it God?
Is It The Son Of God, No Pun Intended?
Is it Jesus Christ?  Is it where our souls
reside in the sun?  Is is where our souls
return to when we die is it the sunlight infinite
infinite, because it is light, and all light
is starlight, and all light is infinite and eternal
are our souls then not either the equivalent of light
or the children of light, beloved of light?
The darkness is trustworthy, is will not destroy us
or our planet, because God trusts the darkness enough
to turn his face from half his earth and his children on it
all the time.  So i interpret the darkness of space
is not malignant, doesn't want to hurt us, isn't---
---isn't relevant.  I think we should Worship
The Sun and its Planet Gods.
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

"A Warm Fireplace"
What I wouldn't give
 for a warm fireplace
fire brings people together
a hearth is a home
in darkness, fires are light
are home, they press out fear
like stars, the lampposts
of eternity.  how cold and far
away is a burning bright star
how brightly do they burn
but God has given us another
form of fire, the heartside
fireplace!  How comforting
 a fireplace is in time of need
if i am ever alone and at the end
of my rope, i will build a fire
in the charcoal grill, just for the
sake of building a fire.  where
there is light, there is hope. from
the furthest star to the warmest
cozy living room fireplace, indeed,
light is a force that will save and
cure and heal and will endure!
In Jesus Name,
Amen.

"Love Is The Answer and the Cure To Pain"
I Could Have Told You HOw
My Heart Kept on a breaking
like a baby tossed in a gale, thrown
from his nest yes i could have told you
how the darkness closed in and closes in still
all around every single day deeper and thicker
in the air like smoke in a fire they call it the future
i call it the end of the world but i am old and i could have
told you how lonely each of us was and how alone
and how hard it is to be alone for a year
or five years or ten, and how a call to your mother
can make spirng flowers bloom in the ugliest sidewalk cracks
and your sister is trying to be a grownup and all you want to tell her
is "slow down", and your father is all absorbed in coffins of money
that he will never even be able to enjoy, for in gaining his riches
he's lost some goodness of his heart, i fear...not entirely but in part
and my mother is fighting windmills alone in the middle of nowwhere
and i am fighting different windmills feels all alone in a crowded city
building where strangers pass one another on the crooked
streets, and the darkness and the loneliness could only be
defeated by a phone call to one another.  in times of fear
i could have told you, but i couldnt all the same, for i didnt
understand the cause of my pain, all i knew was that that i did feel pain
but i didn't know the source of it, and now i know the cure of it too
is Love-- to Love One Another, to Reach Out To One Another
In Our Many Solitudes, To Genuinely Look Beyond Our individual
Suffering and Perceive With Wisdom that is called Love, that
everyone we love is having just as hard off a time and eels just as
alone, that Love Will Hold Families And Friendships And Relationships
Together That Love and Looking Outside Of One's Own Self-Pity,
Is the Key To Solving Loneliness.  We all have heavy burdens,
Why not Carry One Anothers, Or laugh about the burdens themselves?
Yes Lord, Let there be Time Aplenty in this life to Love
One Another.  To Love One Another.  That is the hope and the Cure.
Love.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"Don't Do It Baby!"
I Look to see a Younger Girl
Who hasn't seen enough of Evil
To Know The Prudence of Fear
That Evil Commands-- I Cry to her,
"Do not Do That Baby!"
"Don't Do it!"
"Your Body is the sacred Temple
 of Your Soul! Oh Sweet Baby,
Come Down.  Come Down From There!
Don't Climb to such heights
When you have not the strength to make it
BACK!  and you know it!  Your candle burns
at Both Ends And Sure, it's Quie a light, but
BABY, DON'T!"
....When the night has closed in all around us
and the gloaming of darkness is on the face
of the earth, you will want to be SAFE, NESTLED
AND WARM, WITH THE ONES WHO LOVE
YOU MOST OF ALL.  Your Family And Friends.
Don't be Icarus, Baby Doll.  Please, Don't Chase
The Sun.  He Will Break Your Heart
into a million peices and melt your wings away
the closer and higher you get to him, the more kindled
will His Wrath Be.  A King is A Fearsome Thing
To Be Worshipped Like A Lion Presiding Over
A Village.  It is A God.  Oh Baby Dont.  Stop Here.
Dont!"
In JEsus' name,
AMEN.////

"When I am Losing Hope I Have Faith"
When I  am losing Hope, I have Faith
Faith In The Goodness Of The Universe
In The Harmony and Balance of Life
In God Who I have Faith In
In Gravity- What goes up, must come down
In Laws of nature, physics, every action causes an
equal and opposite reaction.
This is karma
When people hurt me, i CRY.  Don't we all? Jesus.
Life Is HARD.  Too Hard.  Some People never even
Get the chance to live because they die before their time
some people have hardened hearts and cannot see goodness
and some people do not feel the love of God
And Some people do things that they regret
And some people sin and never get told of forgiveness
"His Burden was Made Heavy, That My Burden Would Be Light"
And Some People Chase MAterial Things into death
And Some people follow lust and sin and beauty and sex
And some people turn the other cheek and let bygones be bygones.
And some people take their own lives without knowing
that they didn't want to.  Sometimes, You Think You Want
Want To Die--- But You Need, Is To Get Some
Sleep!  Sleep On Sadness.  Sleep and Food and Comfort
Are Healing.  Reading Is Healing.  Heal THYSELF.
Heal Thyself that thee be not made a victim of these things
Heal thself by being GOOD to yourself, do things for yourself
encourage yourself, have faith in yourself, believe in yourself
never give up on yourself--- and never give up on life, on living---
Because, God has a  PLAN for You, and for me, he reaches out
his finger to your tiny childlike finger and touches it and he says,
"YOU ARE MY CHILD, IN WHOM I AM  WELL PLEASED."
"NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU" Love, God.
In JEsus' Name,
 Amen.

When i awoke, i sensed that
something was wrong
so i grabbed my cell phone
it is a friend in need
i trust my phone over my husband
and i never want to be
without it.
In jesus' Name,
AMEN.

"The Missionary Of Jesus Christ, 1498"
I will tell You A Story.
Once Upon Five Hundred
Years Ago, There Was A Great Man
Named Xavier.  He Was Portuguese,
and he was a preist
and a Sea Captain
in 1498.  He sailed ships
an Explorer
when the world was young, he left
Portugal, his
home,
and sailed a Sailing Ship
Down the Atlantic,
Alongside the coast of Africa,
Around the Cape of "Good Hope"
(Which was the terrible and dangerous sailing passage
to India.  He Had Discovered
The Famous "Passage To India"
that the Europeans so dearly prized and
praised.  1498.
What you don't know
is that he discovered Japan.
Noone in the Western world
Knew Japan
Existed
he landed there
by
mistake!  Some group
of pagan
islands, and now
Now i will tell you
Why
he had Come
all the Way
Across the World
By the cotton Wings of
a Wooden Sailing Ship
Fragile as his dream.  HE HAD COME
To SAVE THE SOULS of the heathens
in All The World-- to ensure
that every little child
in the East
and every other person
wouldn't Go To Hell
and burn forever
when they died--- simply
because they didn't
know the salvation
of Jesus
Christ.
If you do not think it is a heroic thing,
to cross the world on a blossom of a vessel
to land in the jagged paciic
purely with the DREAM
Of SAVING THEIR SOULS
FRom eternal damnation
that the heathen
didn't deserve!  I tell you this,
I Bet Jesus Christ Himself
Was
With Him.  He Discovered Japan
What a fragile and brave and beautiful dream!
No money, nor merchant, no guns, only
Jesus Christ and the Bible.  That is what he wanted
the eastern people
to know
and realise
that there WAS A JESUS CHRIST
Can you imagine what a gentle soul
Xavier was, to travel the world,
discover JApam--- and how BRAVE?
almost godlike courage, certainly angelic
faith and courage, intelligence
and heroism.  So,
in closing, he
DID
discover Japan.
And He DID
Bring Christianity to JApan
Others brought guns, but One Japanese King
Became a Christian Preist
and abdicated his throne
while mandating that all his kingdom
recieve Christianity
as a higher level
of buddhism.  For Christianity in no way
disagrees
With Dear Buddhism.  It agrees with their religion
completely, and japan was buddhist and ancestor worship
back then.  So, Dear Master Xavier, our Hero,
Baptised Soul after Soul
and he made
three consecutive voyages to japan
leaving his converts in charge
of the christians converts and a best-efforted translation
of the book of matthew, translated into
Japanese by his friends.  They didn't even
know
japan existed.  How did Master Xavier Teach Them
About Jesus Christ?  It is said he had
The "Gift of Tongues"
by the holy spirit, which aided him greatly in
understanding them.
He died on an island.
And his soul went to heaven.
He is in Gold Etched in my imagination
and heart, for it thoucheth my heart
that a Preist
shouyld go to such effort
to save the souls of anyone he could.
Is this not saintly?
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

“How The Blue Knight Married LadyFair”

“Theedore!”

“Theedore! Wake up!  Theedore!”

The sun was rising and a

Buttery light came in through

The Bedroom window

Of The Inn window.  The fire had

Burnt itself into embers and ash.

Ladyfair was tickling

His ears

with her wings, trying

to wake up The Blue Knight.

The Blue Knight Finally Yawned

And stretched.

“How Long have you been awake?”

He asked the little blue

Fairy who was his wife.

“Ladyfair….”

He rolled over and

Smiled a sad smile.  He could

Tell she had been up all

Night.  For His part, He was exhausted.

He was nearly seeing double, he

Was so tired.

He rose and dressed.  Ladyfair

Sat in the window and sang the

Most beautiful song about a wizard

In a forest who turned people into

Fairies.

The Blue Knight Poured Water

On the fire and gathered his

Things and paid the innkeeper

“Ah Yes,” He thought to himself,

“We were going to investigate

Time Travel Today….” So HE

Got on his horse Persephone

And she led him.

The blue knight was very

Gentle, and Very Kind.  So Kind,

In fact, that he tried very hard not to

Alter fate.  For this reason he

Let his White Horse, Persephone,

Lead them wherever they went----

Horse, Boy, and fairy. Persephone

Led Them  While

 he slept on her back.

She went off the path.

She Wandered into a Wood.

There Was a Dim Path in The

Forest, and when she

Wanted to wake Theedore up

She snorted loudly and he woke

Up.

“Ah, Persephone, You’ve led us

To the middle of nowhere,”

He Pointed out.  Persephone had,

In fact, led them to a Fairy

Vale and they were at

This point hopelessly

lost in the forest.

But the Blue Knight, being

A Gentle Friend of the Fairies,

Was not afraid.

Dim  Streaks of sunlight fell

Upon them there in that

Enchanted forest, full of

Ancient trees Whose Leafy Foliage

Made a Canopy above them

That blocked out the light,

The Forest was deep and dark and

Dim.

In the Very Distance seemed

The Trickling of a Spring,

There were mushrooms in the

Undergrowth, of every color, shape

And size.  There were cool blue

Ferns and forest herbs, medicines

And unknown roots and

Growing things like lichens

All around. 

The Forest was rich and abundant

In composted fallen leaves,

Which over thousands of years

Had nourished and enriched

The trees and undergrowth

Underneath these decaying

Leaves, was fungi, mushrooms,

And lichens.  The Primary Population

Of the forest were bugs,

Spiders of all sorts,

Great and Small.

Millipedes as large as your hand

The creeper-spiders who

Had tiny bodies but horrifyingly

Long, needle-thin black legs

Which Rather  resembled

Twigs.  The forest was writhing

And crawling, creeping and pulsing

And throbbing with insect Life.

---But, you may wonder, is there

Not more to a forest than

Leaves and insects?

Fairies are There.

They are theForest-Dwellers

That dance in their fairy-glades

And fairy rings

And in the morning after

Rise designs of mushrooms.

Most middle-ages peasants

Feared to go into the woods,

For fear of Witches or Black

Fairy Magic.  But our Blue

Knight was no ordinary Knight

And the Blue Fairy could

Call the fairies, and they would

Come out of hiding.

Part II  “To Start a fire in a Wood”

To Start A Fire In A Wood is a

Dangerous thing to do. It alarms

The trees, the entire forest

Wakes up.  Yet nonetheless, The

Blue Knight searched for

dead, dry twigs and dry, dead

wood for his fire.  To Start

his fire, he built a tiny teepee

of little sticks around some

dry pine needles.  Then

he used a match

to light the fire, blowing ever

so slightly on the little flame,

for Oxygen makes Fire Grow.

Then he added small, dry sticks

And slowly larger and larger

Sticks.  When The Fire was a

Healthy size, he gently placed

A log of dry Pine Knot on the

Fire, and Settled down.

It was growing dark.

He took Out a tin

And a pot and

Made some coffee

Sir William had sent him off

With, strong

Black Coffee.  Then he ate some of

His rations.  The blue Fairy

Sang to him the entire time.

That night she crawled

Up into the nape of his neck

And made a nest in his hair

 and she sang  fairy songs until

They Were Both Asleep.

When The Blue Knight Awoke

The Next Knight, He Was Turned

Into a Blue Fairy!  He was Three inches

Tall and had blue wings!  He Joined the

Other fairy folk of that Fairy Vale

And of course he married his wife

LadyFair the blue fairy.  The Wedding

Was Beautiful.

And they lived Happily Ever After.

THE END.

PART TWO: ANGEL VOICES

"To My Gaurdian Angel, The ArchAngel Gabriel"

AchAngel Gabriel, thee keeper of my soul,

May We Be Forever as One. One body, one flesh,

Two Spirits intermingling. By God, I love thee! I hope to share

my entire life with Thee Gabriel. I love thee soo much. I know

That I am mortal. I do not know what good you see in me,

as I usually feel that I am a fool. Fortunately you have a Great Sense of humor.

When I Die, I hope you fly me into heaven on your gossamer white pearly wings.

I hope you wrap your arms around me and we are together in heaven, as we are

together in spirit on earth, in my heart and my spirit. You are my gaurdian angel

Gabriel, and you are my comforter and my imaginary friend. Your heart is the warmest

place I have ever been in my heart of have ever felt, is in your love. You surround me with

your presence and thus your love, and I am basking in it all of the time and

I crawl all over you like a squirrel in a tree or a baby on its mother. I play in your

wings and you shelter me with your heart and all you are, and i believe that i could probably fly

if i ever had to, just because i feel your wings wrapped around me in a halo. Your spirit

is inside my heart. Although i am increasingly alone in life, and Chris is never home, yet all the more

am i comforted by your warm presence. I feel you now wrapped around me warmer and more comforting than any physical object could give. You are truly my gaurdian angel-- and if you found me worthy,

I would love to be your secret wife. I know Chris is here, but I love you so, and it is union of spirits not bodies. For you are an angel. Now stop crying Gabriel For I am With You, And I Say,

Wait On The Lord. In Jesus Name,

AMEN

-Caroline Elizabeth Sullivan Land, July 2014

"The ArchAngel Uriel"

I.
The Archangel Uriel is
Blonde, and he has the most
Beautiful Blue Eyes.
He Gaurds The Garden Of Eden
For All Eternity, He Holds
The Flaming Sword
To KEep Man Away.
But Do Not Fear Him.
He Also Gaurds
The
Gateway
To The Underworld
And Is The Keeper Of Magic.
All Magic Comes From Uriel.
It is Said That
He Gave Magic To Mankind
As A Gift.
He Is A Gaurdian,
He Is The Angel Of Magic
And The UnderWorld
And He Gaurds The Garden Of Eden
With A Flaming Sword.
Uriel, Uriel, burning Bright,
In The Forests Of The Night,
What Immortal Hand Or Eye
Did Frame Thy Fearful Symmetry?


II.
Uriel Gaurds The Children Of God
When The Sky is Veiled in Darkness
And The Moon Is A Bride Pale And Shy,
When The Stars Shine And Sing In The Heavens,
Uriel, He Stands, Ever, By.
Uriel Gaurds The Children of Earth.
The little Children He Gaurds With His Flaming Sword.
The Grownups Too.
If You Believe in Uriel, HE Will Show Himself To You
If You Love Him, He Will Love You
If You Fly To Him, He Will Come Down From Heaven
And Catch You In His Warm Arms
And He Will Hold You
While He Flies You Back
To Your Little Bird's Nest
Where You LAy so safe and Warm
With Your Family. Uriel Is Gentle
As A Lamb. He is a Silver light Shining.
He is a gaurdian angel.
BELIEVE IN HIM,
and he will come to you.
He will Give You Magic
And Best Of All, His Love
and He Will Gaurd Over You
As Your Gaurdian Angel
With His Flaming Sword.
Uriel is a Gaurdian Angel.
He Keeps You Close By.
There is no reason to fear, little children.
He is Downy White Snow
And Loves You Very Much.
Go To Sleep. AMEN

"The ArchAngel Micheal"

Archangel Michael Must Be 

The Angel Of The Judgement

At LEast For Me, Because He is

Always Judging me.  Many Times

We Do not Get Along.  But that doesn't mean

We Wouldn't die for one another.  We Would.

He Has Beautiful Blue Eyes

And Longish Soft Brown Wavy Hair

it falls about his shoulders

He has a Sword

He is the Sensitive One

He is always Trying to Make Certain

That Everyone is Following The Rules

I think he dreams of looking at me

and Shaking his head and saying,

"You're going Straight to Hell,"

He is the sensitive Archangel

He pulls at the heartstrings of

your heart with his words

and his songs until you, too

weep.  he is an angel os sadness

he brings solemness and mourning

seriousness and worship

discipline and Godliness

in Fact, if he weren't around,

the rest of us probably would

misbehave.  

i know i would.  he gives me

this stern look

inside my heart

when i am about to sin

and i feel him put his hand

to his sheathed sword.

Then i am a little afraid, 

just enough intimidated to stop

to stop sinning and do

the right thing.

He is the sensitive angel.

He cries alot.  Angel of tears

and sympathy, worship 

and discipline, judgement

and music.

In JEsus' Name, 

Amen

"Archangel Raphael"

Is Usually BEING BAD!

If he isn't cursing

or using the Lord's name in Vain

The he is probably

insulting you--- or, he is

being sarcastic.

There is another possibility

 to his behavior-- he is Hilarious

and tells the best jokes

often erotic, often fun,

"feisty" No. "Vicious"yes

"Feirce" yes "Mean" Yeas

"Smoking Hot Sex Appeal" YES

We always fight, i tell him

That he Has Issues.

HE is one of my

Best Friends, and 

you know what,

sometimes... 

i 

think

he must be

a 

CHERIUBIM!

In JEsus' NAme, Amen

When I was a Child
My Parents
 Had Money.  They didn't know
how
it feels
to be
HUNGRY.  But now,
now,
very,very
now----I KNOW
what it is
to be completely
alone.///////
We were in that restaraunt
physically, but
our hearts
were NOT there.
We were at home
still, holding one another
in bed.  I looked at him
in my sleepy clumsy way,
and slipped our wedding ring
upon his finger.  it fit
with ease, and he yelled
at me
and jerked back
his hand
like he was lost somewhere,
or something.////
In JEsus' NAme,
AMEN.

In my lost, dim hours of mourning
When darkness crowds upon me
and i wish i was asleep
when i wake up feeling low
i cast into my dreams and
lose mysel in the dream of
losing it all, losing time and losing space,
i'm lost already--where the end is
is no one's knowing, we're lost,
and the beginning is so far
behind us, there is no point
on dwelling on the past.  i may
be lost, but at least
I'm free.
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen.

"Love Song"
Run With ME Through Satin Roses
Let The Diamonds Reflect
the hardnesss of your tears
Run with me awhile, we are all
lost forever, so run with me dear
it is wilder on the wild side and
there is no looking back
crosses were meant to be given
to people who need them
they were meant to bless
the one to whom it comes
and if I give you my crucifix,
then i hope you wont
throw it away.
Run with me through onyx Crosses
Run with my through through Ruby Tears
Let Your Sadeness Fall Away in the Madness
Things are never so bad as we always fear!
And if i tell you that I Love You,
Please know that it is true
My flower blooms for but a little while
And I want to spand those hours
With You!
In Jesus Name,
AMEN.

"Getting Old"
I think I Shall Grow Old Now
Yea, Lord, this is Home Sweet Home
I do not ever Want To Leave Again
A Home is The Greatest Gift, and Love
A Home to Come Home To, and Warm Arms
To Wrap Around At Close Of DAy, or Anytime.
Yea, Lord, I Am WillingTo Grow Old
I Am tired.  That is what i know, i am
so tired.  My life has been long, and
I want to retire.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.

"Tragedies of The Past"
Lord, My HEart Breaketh
Nay, It Shattereth
Like a Porcelain Vase of
White Roses
Several Dozen
Flung
Against
A Brick Wall.
Father,
I don't know!
Why you did
the things you did
to me or my loved ones
why some people died
why some others cried
while still others rejoiced
and had so much, too much
Father, it is not
in my Power
as a soul
to know thy ways.  I am reminded
of your God's Words in The book Of Job
No-- i cant bait a crocodile
i didn't make the lion fierce
a cannot put a ring through the hippo's nose
i wasn't there when you laid the earth and heavens
i cant even begin to understand
I realise it is not for me to know
---But Lord, I Can Mourn, and
I Can Pray.  I Can KEep On Asking You
Why.  And I Can Pray.  I klnow your ways
are beyond human understanding, yet
forgive me if i can't let some things go
in my heart, Lord.  Lord, PLEASE,
Above all, protect my loved ones
From CANCER.  And Me Also.
In Jesus Name,
AMEN.

"PRayers"
If you are right
there is no hope
for humankind
we might
as well sit
on the curbs
of our worlds
and wait
for jesus to come
down
on his cloud
with all the angels
including my own
and the dead
dead people
with be raised up
and christ will
be a king
for a thousand
years and
then he will
 destroy the world.
then there will
be no
love
only
OMEGA
ALMIGHTY.//
A cruel Eye
That knoweth not
mercy
is incapable of
determining
any
truth.
the sins of our fathers
are not the fault
of the children
the children
are sacred
I believe
in the Great
 sacredness
Of Life, that
Earth is holy.
i dont believe in
your
chosen-or-frozen
faith.  I Can't  Jesus
Christ taught me otherwise.  And if
only you were more Christlike,
you would
not judge others
be merciful
love one another
not let the right hand know what the
left hand doeth
walk unafraid and free
take courage
forgive one another
i dont need to pray
God Loves Me More
Than He Hates The Devil.
He Told me so last night
When i was praying to him.
I am a Mormon.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.

Anyone Can Walk On Water
If
They Have Enough Faith
You See, COURAGE
is the essenitial thing we need here
Courage Unfliching, A Manly Courage
From A Woman's Heart.  This is waht we need.
COURAGE
Two little boys
looking for a mother
is it me?  I do not
Know.  But--- I DO
BELIEVE
That it is me.
If I have enough
FAITH
and
COURAGE
then I can say to this mountain,
"Move over here,
And give us this,
and this, and this"
And I Verily Believe
That My Moutnain
The mountain
it will
move
from here
to
there!
In Jesus Name,
AMEN.////////////////////////////////

I go into my closet and shut the door
and PRAY to my Father In SECRET
For He Already Knows What Needs We Have
Before We Should Ask Of Him.
His Name is Jesus.  He Died On The Cross.
Alot of Other People Died Too.
There Were Alot Of Tears Shed.
You Broke My Heart.
In JEsus' Name, Amen.

"Wings"
O, My dearest Darling,
My Lucky Young Man,
My Sweetest Lamb,
My  Little Boy,
Thou Shalt Know
How
To Walk And Talk
And Provide For Thyself
Thou Shalt Grow Wings
And Spread Them In Thy Majesty,
and
Thou Shalt Take to the wind and Fly!
Thou shalt Never Forget.
Thou shalt never forget
How MUch I Love Thee.
How Important thee art
To Thy Sick and Lonely Wife,
And I Hope It Makes You Giggle
Just giggle and giggle.  I have become
Helpless for thy Sake, and
I Love You.  Never
Never Let Me Go.  Even if
If I KNew the way back
to wherever i was before you,
i can't remember anything, and
anyway, i don't want anything more
than to sit here and bear your
children,  To my husband
Theodore, With Love.
 In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"I Want To Bear Your Children"
My Husband,
 most Beloved,
How I Long
To Bear Your
 Children.  The Joy
That A Child
Would Bring to
Your Heart is
One of my reasons
for living.  And You
Are My Other,
My Love,
My Life,
I Thy Fretting
Careless Wife!
Let Us Be Together
For All Of Life.
And Someday
I Pray Lord,
I Will Live
To Bear
Your Children
How Proud
I Would Be
Prouder than any
I could Dream,
To Be The Mother
Of Your Tiny Baby
That Will Come
Only If I
Have That Strength
And Good Fortune
To Find The Money
To Pay The Rent.
Then, Oh in a heartbeat,
I Would Make Myself
The Mother of All
Thy Children, And
 Carry Them To Thy
Downcast Bosom
And Kiss Thee
With All My Longing
And All My Soul.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"Child Of Ocean, Child Of God"
Child Of OCean, Child Of God
Dost Thee Not Find Human Life Odd?
I say, rise sea breakers, and Sink, grey stones
I say cross the bridge and raise the brigde
so that i may get to my home in the sea
Child of Ocean, Child of God
When Thee Gazed On The Parthenon
Or Held The Omphalos at Delphi
Didst thee know, didst thee know,
How much God Loved Thee?  No.
Thee did not know, in sea or acropolis
But thou shalt know when I am cold
because the winter freezes my body
and my poverty shames me for i have
no fancy dress to wear to any dinner
when my hunger comes upon me like a flood
and the flies are a plague, Child of God
Canst thee not see and remember those times
when thee gazed on the famous wonders of earth
and rocked to sleep in the bosom of the sea
when thou tasted from the silver spoon of many
and the ivory was abundant and sapphires were loose
like tears?  Of Child of God---No.  It is in
My Great Suffering and thirsting for righteousness
to fall upon the earth like a cleansing rain
that i remember God's love for me
God loves me more, more than he loves the world
He made me an immortal spirit to dwell in
his kingdom, yet even in my worst nightmares
all i have to do is say the Lord's Prayer, and I
Immediately Wake Up.  Yes, God Loveth Me.
I Am A Child of Ocean, Child of God.

"BODY HEAT"
As My Eyes Flash Open With A Jolt
I Gasp In A New Breath Of Air
And  I Can't Get Enough Fresh Air
I'm Alive Again, not dreaming
It is so cold that my body is cold
and so, needing your fragile energy,
i press all the parts of my body to yours
until i have enough of your body heat
and you have absorbed enough of my cold
that we lay there a little chilly but alive.
Your body heat keeps me alive.

"To MY Soulmate Theodore"
I am not sure
which thing most
i fell in love with
whhen i first met you.
Was it your
inncent blue eyes?  Or the way,
when i took your hand,
--It Felt so complete in mine?
Was it your kindness
Or your homelessness,
or was it how handsome
you were, or was it
the way you held me
or was it the meal
or was it the lighting
or was it the mood
or was it you
was it you Theodore?
You
That made me a part
of a whole, that you
complete when you
are with me?  You are
my better half.  Any doubts
at first were madness
and folly.  No Lord, I
LOVED YOU THE MOMENT
I MET YOU, and it ONLY
GOT WORSE.  Now I Love You
So Much That it is All I Can Do
To Wait In Our Home Each Day
Until You Come Home From Work.
I LOVED YOU---FROM MY BIRTH
before my birth.  before the stars, there was
you and me.  i believe this Lord.
TO MY SOULMATE THEODORE
IN JESUS' NAME
AMEN.

"He Still Turns Me On"
 TO MY HUSBAND THEODORE WITH LOVE.
He still turns me on, even after
all these years-- i go
weak
at his touch
the fog of his breath
is my reason
for living
at each touch of his lips
i write three new books of poetry
in my heart, and
with every smile, I know
everything i fear is a shadow in
the night, a spectre, that he will
save me from
any danger,
that he's got the world
in the palm
of his little hands.
When his fists
are balled up
and clenched
against the tiny pillow,
he sleeps
with a slight smile
on his face.
It's natural for him
to smile when he sleeps.
I think it is the sweetest thing.
So I stay up all night
to keep watch
to protect him,
my little lamb.
AMEN./////////////////////

"God, You Know, I'm Just Too Exhausted!"
When you get older, "sexy"
becomes
your husband baking sweet potatoes
or bringing you dinner in bed
or me refusing to wear makeup
and still looking defiantly beautiful
or slamming the door, turning off everything,
and holding each other.
or all the kindest things
mercy becomes the thing you want most
when we get older and we can't be
beaten into submission no matter how hard
we try to work, we can't, we're just
exhausted!  I just want
to look into my mate's eyes and smile sadly
and cry and whisper, "We did it....."
And "God, you know, i'm just too exhausted!"
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN../////////////////////////////////
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All any of us can do is the best we can.  if we do our best, then that's all that matter.  Your best is good enough.  God doesn't expect us to fight fate or do things that he wouldnt want, nor things that make little sense, nor things that go against our beliefes and principles./it is a beautiful world and there are many points of view, and there are young people who god gives the chance to go on adventures, for there are opportunities for adventure in life--- and the young grow old.  and when we are nearly thirty, we stop and breathe in sharply and realise "Okay God now i know that, I have grown OLD.  It Is TIME TO REST."
The young should go on adventures and the thirty-year old and up should REST.  Everybody needs it to be downhill when they reach thirty, simply because the human heart, mind and body and spirit ages.  and cannot bear the heavy load of, say, being hospitalized.
In closing, 
Hospitalization is for young people to fight.  Older People
should be free to rest.  it's like war, old people don't fight.  thirty is when we grow tired.  In Jesus' name, AMEN.////////////////////