I just want to lay down on my back in the forest
and feel the leaves and the sticks, and listen to the sounds
birds, airplanes, locals, the rushing of the river, sighing of trees
rustling of leaves and the wind against my cheeks, and feel alive
I want to bring a shovel into creekbeds and unearth what lies beneath
I want to hunt for cherokee indian paths, artifacts, civil war, revolutionary war,
any human objects over thousands and thousands of years.  also fossils
in sedimentary rock there are so very many fossils are so common
noone looke for them anymore. i want to see the tadpoles crawling out of the ponds and eddies
in the river, and watch all day as they stop being a tadpole and change into a tiny baby frog.
i wouldn't hurt them.  i wouldn't catch or touch them.  i would observe, take pictures,
do some research.  the world all around is big and vast and there is infinity in everybody's yard
all around us, is History.  And gardening! i love to grow plants and study plants,
i also have a pet mouse named "Jesus", we are incredibly close. he is my only pet
and he is getting almost three years old, but i feed him by hand and wash him in warm water
he has an eye infection. yeah they broke my heart.  who? the aesthetics.  the famous poets.
when i realised i have a gift to write that is Different from anything the literary poets famous
would consider to be "quality"...yet i prefer just to write.  jsut to live my life. just to tell the rules
to go to hell, and tell The Truth.  Just tell it.  about everything.  and anything. I love to write.
I'm no less talented a writer now than before.  I am brave and daring and there is beauty in that!
Sometimes you have to be different from the famous people, to be who you really are, to realise your potential, to tell your truth, to find your way, to realise who you truly are.  You jsut have to forge ahead.  Ideas are everywhere....
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!////