Sometimes I think ordinary people, they
don't really know the concept of simple love
i want to explain to people how to learn to love
because i feel so much more love than people I know
it is sad and i feel isolated and alone with my big heart
they never cease to break my heart, my love is honest and real
honest love gets struck on the cheek again and again loyalty and kindness
compassion do they feel compassion?  I dont think that most people feel much.
I wonder how they can be so heartless to ignore me, in my endless solitude
there is peace because Christ Is With Me and me and the world agree to disagree.
I am quite certain that I Know This Beautiful Hope for the Universe that we call
"Love" and I really don't mind the isolation...it leads me into deep inner peace
my conscience is pure and clean they are living, meanwhile i am becoming christlike
i enjoy my life in solitude, prayer is probably my most common thing I do every day.
To Know what "Love" Is, is so fulfilling, I just don't need the world anymore.
I just want to express in poetry this concept of "Love" in its beautiful kaleidoscope!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"We Are So Rich"
Be Ye Not Troubled regarding money;
Theodore and I, We are So Very Rich
In So Many Ways That Others Have Not,
Not only in physical treasures but in ourselves
and in loved ones... Our Cup of Life Runneth Over!
We Need Nothing.  God Provides.  We Have So Much
There Are so many poor, I wish that all People could be blessed
With These Treasures and Things Given To me!
We should not Take Things we Don't need, But To Give To Others.
We are so very blessed, in so many ways!  God's Love Is Wonderful!
Praise The Lord!  Our Home's Possessions are complete!  We need no more!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"This Little Woman"
This little woman with bare plain face and ashen black hair
Tied Up into a bun, is slowly yet steadily moving forward.
This little woman perseveres in spite of adversity, she works
Doing womanly things, her home Is warm and Cozy inside.
This little woman is not wanting for courage in any way, except
In that this little woman respects karma and Fate With Such Worship
That She Tries Never To Move Anywhere, But to stay in one place.
Fate goes on without this little woman and little woman goes on without fate
Safely nestled in a warm bosom of home, she tends to her own.
In their love for this little woman, they go out into the world and make money,
Which they bring home to this little woman, with humility and modesty and hugs.
This little woman doesn't really judge others, and she does not do much harm, at all.
Content with her diligent working of daily writing and tasks, she has faith
That her mark, her humble legacy, will not be uprooted, without greed nor fame.
This little woman believes in a God and is alot like so many other little women.
But she doesn't worry what others have, she doesn't compare herself with others.
Her Virtues Are Unannounced, the reverberations of her tasks are ripples in time and space.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Winter Greens"
Winter Greens Surviving the cold Winter
Tempting me to touch them with tiny, fascinating leaves
Winter Greens Promising Spring, enduring hardship and freezing cold
They Only need a tiny bit of water to thrive
You look down into your garden and see a tiny garden in little planters
Winter Greens making it through the winter, encouraging me,
That Maybe I Can Make It Through The Winter, Too!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"Theodore And I Are Great Heroes."
Theodore and I Are Great Heroes Together.
Theodore is a Hero
I Am A Hero
We Would Both Die For One Another
And We are Madly In Love
And It Is Mutual
This is a True Love!
A Love That Lasts Forever!
That's Why We Couldn't Have Our Children....
We're too in love!
Theodore and I are Great Heroes.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"Our Unborn Children Love Us"
Theodore and I cannot Have Children Yet---
I Know Our Unborn Children Are Cheering Us On
Wildly From Heaven, Because....well, Look At
How They Decorated our walls!
 Look At My Walls
And Tell Me My Unborn Children aren't Cheering us on!
You Can't! Because I feel their love in my heart!
In Heaven Theodore and me will meet Our Unborn Children!
And Do All The Things We Never Got To Do In This Life
And Know, While Alive, That They Love Us Wildy and
Are Cheering Us On!  We Do Have Children, they are very proud
of Us, even though they are in Heaven.  They Love Us So Much!
In Jesus Name,
Amen!!!!

"More Than Breath"
I Love Theodore More Than I'd Love My Own Last Breath
If Dying for him is neccessary, I am prepared to do it.
Knowing that i am saving his life every single day by sitting here
And providing a home, a loving home, and a loving wife--me,
It's everything.  I Love Him More Than I Love My Own Heart
Or its Blood.  I Love Theodore With A Madness beyond comprehension
I love him more than I love Myself, More than I Love Being Alive.
I Love You Theodore, More Than I Will Love My Last Breath
For In My Last Breath, I Will Only Pray To Awaken To Thee In Heaven!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"True Love"
Sometimes, I doubt most people actually know what true love even is.
I Know What It Is Because I Feel A Love of Life and Death For Theodore
I Love My Husband With The Beauty of Newborn Life and Agony of Death
I Believe Our Love Is True Love Because I believe in God and my heart tells me
This love, This Love, Is The Truest Love Of All!  It Is laying in your arms at night
It is saving each other's lives over and over, why--because
of the greatness of our love.  I believe God Won't take someone you love enough to die for
Because He Knows that you would die, then, too.  When you love someone to die for them,
when your only purpose in life is the one you love, To Love Theodore, Then, You are Saved.
And If You Pray Hard Enough To God, He Will Save Your Loved One's Life
Over and Over Again, Endlessly, Because of the Grace of God and The Vastness Of God's Love.
God's Love is so vast that he doesn't do things people cannot handle.  The Grace of God,
The Vastness of God's Love For His Children, Will Inspire God to Save Your Loved One's Life
Infinitely---again and again, as though an army of angels were defending him.
"For We Walk By Faith, Not By Sight" I have Faith that God's Love is Bigger than Death,
And I Believe deep inside my heart that Theodore Will Live To Be Extremely Old With Me
And On The Day He Dies, I Will take My Own Life, saying, "This Day I Will Be With You!"
"I Will join Theodore In Paradise The Day he Dies!" and i know this to be true, it's True Love.

"I am A Kite on The Wind"
There's something magical in me, something divine
it's a miracle how free my heart is like a kite on the wind
like a kite i ride the wind all day, never running out of wind
there's something hellbent and cool and free in me.  Charisma?
Determination?  See, I know exactly who I am, and that is beautiful
I know exactly who I am, and I never let anyone else interfere.
I even let them try to change me, because I'm brave but there's magic in me
I have some divine aspect to my personality that makes me cool
that doesn't give a fuck, the part in me that know when to quit
there's something exceptional, something rare in me a miraculous personality
there's something in me that will never change kite on the wind
i don't die. i just shake off the old ways and move on. they can't kill me
hell, they can't even change me!  i know who i am and that is really cool to everybody.
nobody will ever to ask me who i am, i will be happy to tell them myself.
I'm real i'm down to earth i'm sincere i'm cool I'm a nice person wow
this anger flash mob rage has got to be tranquilized, blitz my mind doc
i can't fly off the handle, that's my fatal flaw i can't make! I'm Responsible, that's up to me
Nobody can change me, but they can tranquilize my temper.  drug me.
I need to be sedated
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!/////

"Honesty"
I found myself an honesty in my poetic voice
i stopped caring what professors call literature
I want to experiment and play with poetry
I stopped caring whether i was writing "literature" or not
I stopped caring, and just started pouring my heart out
I hope it never ends my heart goes on and on
We adapt.  We evolve.  Bad things happen and they
change us, affect us, who we are inside.  we change over time
i do not write the way i did eight years ago.  I tried so hard
the last six months ive been trying to force myself to be
something that...someone, that i'm just...not...i'm not the same
I can't hide so i din't care what is good poetry i write for fun
and i think i'm doing just as good writing now as i was then
not restricticed to victorian rigid rules, i can just
tell you what i am thinking now, and isn't that
a beautiful thing?  Yes it is.  This is my poetic voice!
In JEsus' name,
Amen

"It's Completely Worth It"
I think that the anger i feel is Satan tempting me.
I refuse to succumb to temptation.  I never have before.
I honestly don't believe I ever will.  Im a constant burning star
burning off my own energy i love him so much and when he is here,
i realize the only thing i must never do is lose my temper because
i would lose my husband!  If i ever got too angry, he would leave me
he would be afraid if i ever let the devil get the better of me
he would run away
he trusts me with his life.  It's the challenge I face,
and when i'm holding him i realise, all this meditation
is completely worth it, just to be able to be married to Theodore!
My internal battle with satan is completely worth fighting!
In JEsus' name,
Amen.//////

"Dangerous Lovers"
Theodore can only be the little spoon.
I am the protector.  And we are happy together,
we have a beautiful marriage and a beautiful life.
i may not be extremely pretty but make a pleasant wife.
I sigh and I wrap my arms around his hungry frail little frame
and feel very concerned and very old.
I like it that way....wouldn't trade it for anything
i love it when he pisses me off!
Sometimes we butt heads and i surrender every time
because he knows he can get away with any thing with me
he can do any thing he wants because he is with me
well jesus at least he isn't afraid of the world outside our door
I am only tring to protect him. THeodore needs a keeper desperately.
and I need someone who will be my little spoon when
i wrap my arms around him.  It's my only heaven.
It's what i survive for.  When i have my arm around his waist!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!/////

"Theodore Adores The Violence In Me"
Theodore adores the violence in me. it makes him feel safe
because i am incredibly protective over him and he is like a baby
helpless, homeless, penniless, he can't live on his own. he is attracted to my temper.
I just wish he wouldn't push my buttons purely out of fun, like a child.
He does it because he trusts my self control i've never hit him in eight years.
But Sometimes the pain and frustration makes me want to scream
Oh, how many times i have repressed the urge
 to Punch Theodore in the Face so hard he stopped hurting me!
Pain is not "supposed" to be disclosed but i feel alot of pain
things aren't perfect anymore
i am not perfect anymore i am changed i am weary and frustrated
I have a temper and it goes off and I have to repress the urge to fight back
For Jesus, I will turn the other cheek.  But It doesn't make
ME feel any better inside. I'm like, "hit me again." "Hit me again."
i have never hit my husband back i turn the other cheek when he hurts me
it makes him feel better to abuse me he takes his anger out on me
but what he does not realize is that i am a dormant volcano/
Dormant, but completley active.  He doesn't know that when he taunts me,
I choose to ignore him.  For His Sake.  And Mine.  Because I Love him.
I love him but I am sick of him treating me like an unworthy servant
I decided to ignore him years ago.  We're married, and that's for life.
The only way to make problems go away is to repress them until they abate.
Anger goes away with medication.  He is married to a psychotic schizophrenic poet!
I can't make this any better and it better not get any worse.
It isn't my fault.  It. Isn't. My. Fault.-------
I'm sorry.  a happy child id dancing on the rim of my angry volcano
And if it weren't for jesus, i wouldn't have stayed so calm and reliable.
he thinks im reliable.  sometimes i don't feel so reliable.
even in my madness he trusts me.  Even when my mind is gone
I feel like a tiger in a cage when he taunts me, a tiger, and
I built the cage myself, out of my protective love for him.
It's my way of preventing myself from being violent or dangerous.
I love THeodore.  HE trusts me.  He Knows Me. He Adores Me. He needs me.
I just have to be strong when the rage fills my eyes with the color of blood
and my heart beats really hard, and i bite my lip to keep the words back.
He really loves me........I'm lucky to have him!  HE likes danger.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

I just want to lay down on my back in the forest
and feel the leaves and the sticks, and listen to the sounds
birds, airplanes, locals, the rushing of the river, sighing of trees
rustling of leaves and the wind against my cheeks, and feel alive
I want to bring a shovel into creekbeds and unearth what lies beneath
I want to hunt for cherokee indian paths, artifacts, civil war, revolutionary war,
any human objects over thousands and thousands of years.  also fossils
in sedimentary rock there are so very many fossils are so common
noone looke for them anymore. i want to see the tadpoles crawling out of the ponds and eddies
in the river, and watch all day as they stop being a tadpole and change into a tiny baby frog.
i wouldn't hurt them.  i wouldn't catch or touch them.  i would observe, take pictures,
do some research.  the world all around is big and vast and there is infinity in everybody's yard
all around us, is History.  And gardening! i love to grow plants and study plants,
i also have a pet mouse named "Jesus", we are incredibly close. he is my only pet
and he is getting almost three years old, but i feed him by hand and wash him in warm water
he has an eye infection. yeah they broke my heart.  who? the aesthetics.  the famous poets.
when i realised i have a gift to write that is Different from anything the literary poets famous
would consider to be "quality"...yet i prefer just to write.  jsut to live my life. just to tell the rules
to go to hell, and tell The Truth.  Just tell it.  about everything.  and anything. I love to write.
I'm no less talented a writer now than before.  I am brave and daring and there is beauty in that!
Sometimes you have to be different from the famous people, to be who you really are, to realise your potential, to tell your truth, to find your way, to realise who you truly are.  You jsut have to forge ahead.  Ideas are everywhere....
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!////

I have Anxiety disorder and schizoaffective disorder, i've had it since the diagnosis of age 18; and i've kind of had it all my life...and i'm 30 years old, and i feel that my life is a huge success story for people with schizoaffective etc. i have heard voices that didn't exist since i was 20 or 21 years old, i don't hear them much anymore except when i dont get my meds within 12-24 hours. without my meds, i get incredibly sick... i think, psychotic, and paranoid. But..... I went to college for eight years following my diagnosis majoring in B.A. in English Literature. i nearly graduated but was unable to pass my senior seminar class. when i got out of college, i couldn't find ANY work... this continues to this day. So then i became a freelance writer online, writing for international and business articles etc. then i started writing poetry. after five years of poetry i mailed my work in to a NYC Publisher, and got a "Return to Sender" stamp, but.... i didn't give up. in the last seven years, to cut it short, i found over four publishers who published my work, including amazon and Barnes And Noble. I published a volume of poems today on both sites! I've written almost fifty ebooks for nook and Kindle, and... In 2016 I published 20 paperbacks or so with barnes and nob le, and they are being sold...for money. This week i publushed twenty or so more paperbacks with amazon....and they are being sold, for good money. That's my success story...how a girl can hear voices and have all manner of symptoms and yet write the most compelling beautiful poetry that i actually am now a proud and accomplished Professional Author, and always will be.....POWER TO THE MENTALLY CHALLENGED "You Can Do This, Too!"

"The advantages of having Theodore, a pretty boy husband"
The biggest advantage is, they like maternal women
and they usually are weak and need money and to be taken care of
so like my husband, pretty boys are usually needy and they need alot
they need their wives to provide for them and be the strong one in the relationship
you will have to be the backbone of your husband and you, wise, practical, responsible,
reliable, and motherly.  They have to be able to trust you.  with anything.
to fully grill food.  to disinfect the house. to be faithful. to make decisions
they will trust you with their deepest secrets and they trust you with these secrets.
my husband can't help being pretty, he was born pretty, and his son is pretty like him.
they're both pretty.  they say "mama, i'm sorry i'm pretty" without saying anything.
they say silently "but i love you....does being pretty make a bad person? i'm not bad"
and they crawl into your arms and snuggle apple dumpling style inside the curve of your body
they like to be the baby.  they like to be the child.  they are not gay.  there is a big difference
between gay men and sensitive, pretty shy men who adore women, like my husband.
the other day i asked my husband, "do you think i'm beautiful?" and he answered immediately,
"honestly? no...i think you're ugly as f!*k".  I felt it was an honest appraisal and so I asked him
 "then why did you marry me?" he shook his head and told me to shutup...but the unspoken answer is,
he didn't marry for beauty.  He married me because of our companionship, we complete one another.
we are two halves of a whole that makes us a married couple.  we feel empty with out the other,
he married me because he likes me, and always has, and we're best friends.  He is my best friend.
We don't like to have sex or kiss, but we snuggle and cuddle and caress and massage and talk together.  We are very intimate, very comfortable with one another's bodies and often we just
go into separate rooms for hours up to twelve hours at a time, and we just each do our own independant thing.  it doesn't mean anything bad, at all!  the walls that separate us draw us together.
we can be alone, together.  We can sleep, together.  one of us stays awake while the other sleeps.
this is happening very often in the last few years. if i'm asleep, he keeps watch...if he's asleep, i keep watch.  it's a trust issue.  we feel protective over one another.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Life on Earth Came from Meteorites"

They say mendeleev had a dream about the periodic table and he took a leap of faith, imagining element that at the time were undiscovered elements.  he drew what he saw in a dream, and wrote down the words in each box...those are our modern "Periodic table of the Elements" \

....So I had a dream last night, i was talking to God, sitting in his Lap.

 when I asked God "How do we keep aliens from invading us?" 

 He Responded, saying "The Hydrogen Alcohol Affinity".

 then he said, "Go Tell momee and bumpaw, they know."

 and he put me off of his lap...and i woke up,

 and started researching covalent bonds and molecules etc

I googled "Hydrogen and..." and immediately the words came up:

 "Hydrogen and helium affinity"

"Hydrogen and Oxygen affinity"

"What is Hydrogen?"

"How did life begin on earth?"

"The Origins of Life"

...So it was just a matter of researching a few words God told me on his lap...

And I discovered the origin on life on Earth!  Meteoroids hitting the amassing earth

meteoroids brought cyanobacteria, which created plants and the plants created the atmosphere

by releasing oxygen as a chemical reaction

meteoroids meanwhile brought saltwater embedded into rocks.  The saltwater from meteoroids from outerspace, billions of them, accumulated into the oceans.

-meteoroids also brought Amino Acids, which are the foundations of Proteins...and these amino acids,

combined with the oxygen from the cyanobacteria

and the saltwater was a great chemical solvent to work in...these elements reacted 

until they created "Life" Life evovled form amino acids, cyanobacteria, and saltwater

that came from billions and billions of meteoroids amassing into the mdern-day eart over a billions of years.

Life on earth came from meteorites.

"I Am Not My Body"
I Glare Stubbornly at My Naked Face, Proud and Heartbroken.
This is not who I am, I think, every time I see my reflection.
This Body is Dumb.  I do not see any sense in decorating it.
I prefer to wear rags and go ugly and walk with my head high.
My Treasure is in Heaven.  This Body is a poor Representation
Of Me.  I Don't Recognize Me in This Body.  I am A Soul Trapped.
This Body is not worth worrying about. Love me for me, or not at all.
And I try so hard, not to be ashamed of this insulting bodily form I am
limned to.  This, Too, Shall Pass, I Remind Myself, When I Get Frustrated.
Our Treasures are in Heaven!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!/////

"The Origins of Life"
The secrets of time and the past, our origins,
Is in the mud and rocks on the world
Life depends on rocks and rocks are made of dead life
Gardening is the most soothing balm to my soul
Electricity and oxygen and water and light ignite
the amino acids that make proteins, that are alive
slowly the world wakes up into blossoming life
millions and billions of years. what a lot of meteoroids
the amino acids that were ignited into life came from meteoroids from space
the cyanobacteria that released the oxygen came from the meteoroids from space
that water of the oceans came from the meteoroids in space
a cosmic plan, God seems to have been the creator
you look at this and think, "This Planet wasn't an accident."
"There is a divine plan and life came from outer space, not earth."
"Only God Could have Set these things into motion."
"The scientific evidence completely agrees with the Bible's Genesis Chapter One"
"There is a reason I exist."
"One Day I will die and one day my remains will become sedimentary rock."
"They left love out of the equation."
"I know I have a soul, this bodily form is stupid."
  "Earth's amino acids, oxygen and water came from meteors hitting earth"
"Of course there is life in space...Because, Space is where the meteoroids came from!"
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Hope is
Dwindling Sparks in a Desert
Where No Trees Will Grow
Hope is
Struggling against the current
even though it is sure to drown me
Hope is
Ringing their nunbers just one more Time
Hope is
Knowing, aware, that somehow you've survived
Knowing that you are alive and Gratitude for that
Hope is
Laughing When She Burns Off The Mole
Cringing at death like a lamb to be sacrificed
Hope is
When the experiment experiments on you
To realize that science isn't a valid reason to torture
Hope is my succulents fighting the ice storm
and the plant that gets no rainwater yet waits for me
Hope is
Exploring the origins of life online at 5:45 AM
Knowing that their scorn is wrong and Learning.
Hope is
Shaking off the bully, the thing destroying you
and walking away into a brand new day because you Can.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////

"Politicians and suits versus everyday Individuals"
I trust the police, i trust the nurses.  Because Although
Politician and men in Suits Give The Commands To Kill
(The Politicians don't want to "dirty Their Hands" with working)
The Police and nurses scramble to carry out their orders because they are supposed to...
But The officers, nurses, paramedics, soldiers--- they aren't heartless like their leaders
in fact they're usually extremely human and compassionate, like the people they "do unto"
A Politician may order something with a word or pen signature or keystroke or command
But there is yet hope, for there is mercy in humanity...we are humans, not machines,
we have hearts, we are all unique, we all have hearts, and hearts are more important
than orders, always.  Hearts come before orders, in the decent hearts of us all.
Hearts of the police, medical staff, and soldiers refuse to kill i think the news is a lie
Policemen are not killers at least real police aren't in fact they want to do Good to you
Not Harm others.  The average human is...well human.....that is, unlike the politicians,
that means we decent ordinary  folk have hearts, and ethics, and we are not barbarians
police officers are not going to shoot someone when they rech for their wallet or interrupt
policemen are human beings, they are heroes, they are all doing their own personal missions
to make the world a better place.  Chris and I Have faith in the police and nurses.
We trust in ther goodness, their humanity, unlike those men in suits, those politicians
Everyday people arent going to be uncivilised to one another....in spite of what the news says
And in spite of what they may be "ordered to do" we're all humane we ignore the suits
look in my eyes and see a frightened woman.  look in their eyes and see fathers, husbands, sons.
look in their eyes and see what they had for lunch.  see what they are feeling, thinking about,
what is bothering them, what it has to do with you.  Why they are concerned.  What they are doing.
Decent, humane, civilized folk never shoot one another in cold blood, at least i have never seen it
i have never seen anyone evil in the everyday folk, in passers by, in policemen who glance at me,
i see human beings in roles,  I see humanity.  I see a need for humanity and the love of God.
We ordinary people Love our fellow man.  We aren't playing strategy simulation theories
instead we are expected to do what we are told by the suits.  Police are quite human.
look them in the eyes. there is nothing to be afraid of.  I do not lock my doors/
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Our Love Keeps Us Alive"
Our Love, The Love Theodore and I have,
This Love and the Power of it is why we survived
Our mutual love is strengthening us to move forward together
He and I, as one!  Our Love Is Keeping The Two Of Us Alive!
Our Love Keeps Us alive We wouldn't be here today if we weren't
madly in love, we could never have survived!

Is it possible that True Love
is the most powerful energy of all?
The universe is vast, yet vaster still, is
the beating heart, and the love held
 in these infinite memories forever marked
onto the charts of time.  Could it be that
True Love Conquers All?  That Love is
The Most Strong and Vital Energy in the Cosmos,
That what we call love on Planet Earth
Is The Reson the universe exists in the first place?
I feel love in my heart for Theodore, so much so,
That I am pretty sure that my love for him
is the most powerful force
I have ever encountered in my life!

"Love Poem"
When You Love Someone, Your Heart feels like its Bursting
Theodore gives me butterflies everytime he walks in the door
True Love Is Precious and real, there are no lies or insincerities
trust is essential in a lifelong love, one must never lie to the other
honestly talking about problems and confessing sins to one another
being ample with forgiveness and moving forward together, making mistakes
but never ceasing to adore one another, true love is possibly omnipotent
and I personally believe that it conquers the grave, death.  I think that
True Love is More Powerful than Death.  Death is the ultimate evil.
But theodore and I have a true love that will never ever die, even though
our bodies may crumble into the dust, we are more than physical matter
we are spirits and our spirits are eternally bound to one another in eternity
Ours is a love that will surely conquer death and live on into eternity forever!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"If You Love Someone"
If you love someone deeply enough,
Then you will work in all the talents God gave you
to provide for them and care for their basic needs
making sure there are clean sheets on the bed and pillows
buying new pillows and bed linens when they get dirty
keeping two comforters on the bed in the winter nights
when the cold seeps in through the cracks of the doorways
keeping food for the baby and tea for that baby that you love, and
holding them and helping them purchase a car online because they need help
and holding up the one you love if you love them its love that motivates us
love if you really love someone, then you Will find it in you to
at least, do the best that you possibly can!  we all have skills
skills are given to care for our babies and my baby is Theodore Land
When i see him sleeping on a clean pillow and warm, i Give Thanks
To God for giving me this love in my heart, to take care of my Theodore
If you love someone, you will do the best that you can.  that is all
anyone can do, their personal best.  Do your best, if you love someone.
Just Do your Personal best.  I do my personal best and we are doing okay.
In Jesus' name,
Amen!////

"The Best Jobs Are The Humblest"
The Best Jobs Are The Humblest
Sometimes One Always Wants to have the luxuries
the so-called best jobs, the ones that make money
that don't require manual labor.  But it isn't true
The Best Conscience/Karmically Rewarding Jobs are the humblest
The Best Jobs make you feel proud and good in your heart
that you've done a good thing for someone or something you love
The Best Jobs leave your conscience clean like pure white forest snow
Humble jobs are beautiful and wonderful in their raw simplicity
and their power of goodness for the human race and the universe
It is vital to clean up and disinfect your house
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!////

"The Humblest Tasks"
The Humblest Household Tasks are Important.
Doing Them With the Help of Chemicals and tools
Is A Way Of Fighting Evil.  I fight evil With A Mop
I fight Evil with steel wool on bathtub stains
I fight evil with a vaccuum I t is a form of Darkness
You Must Learn To Be The Light Casting Out The Darkness
Messes and build-up are a form of Physical Darkness, Of Evil
Occuring in the Universe, in the home.  Have Courage! Fight Back!
Defend Your Home Against Darnkess and Physical Evil!
The Humblest Houshold Tasks are Vital to Survival.
Don't refrain from being humble and brave, when
you are cleaning up your house.  Cleaning is
Humble and Brave.  God Goes With You
Soap Bubbles indicate a job well done, or progress
Try to make soap bubbles occur in the universe
They Are A Beautiful Thing.  Oh Lord God,
The Power of Disinfectant!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"Housework"
Dishes Must Get Washed
Floors Must Get Vaccuumed
Garbage must get taken Out
Counters Must Get disinfected
Bathtubs must be scrubbed clean
Trash must be thrown away
Food Must Be Sanitary and not Rotten
Refrigerators must be kept up
Plants must get watered
Clothes must get Washed
Messes must get picked up
Daily life is beautiful, crucial, and
Important.  Your Husband Will
Thank You When He Crawls Into your arms
And you will feel that warm feeling inside, that
you are doing a good job! Doesn't have to be perfect
Just Don't let your house get Out of Control
As Long As You Can Keep It All Under Control, That's
That's What Matters.  When He KissesYou and buys
you dinner, or smiles a little happy smile, you will realize
the goodness and kindness and the Importance of cleaning
Up the house everyday. Keep it under Control.
Use disinfectant!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"Washing Dishes"
Washing Dishes Takes A Few Things,
A Strong Stomach, Courage...and Disinfectant Soap
 Dawn Dish Soap is what i use warm soapy water
kind of magically smearing away grime and bacteria
then putting them in the dishwasher... these daily acts
of caring for the household are so very crucial, even to writing.
If i did not wash my dishes often enough, we would get sick
and I would be unable to write.  Don't be afraid to use your hands
when you are done loading these grimy dishes ino the dishwasher,
wash your hands about three times and change clothes, maybe bathe
depending on how bad the house has gotten.  Then when you sit down
at your makeup desk to relax again, be sure and rub off any extra "stuff"
by putting hand lotion onf your hands, massing them into fingertips, and
then wiping all the lotion off.  it get your hands clean again.
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!

"Friendships"
Friendships are each a Gift from God
Treasure each friendship, the part in you
that loves another person, that sees their pain
and connects with it and they love you back
maybe, something you have in common, or
just generally love one another, friendships
bring out the best in us.  When Children
are little, growing up, they are going to remember
the grownups who were their parents friends, and that
is important. Children need healthy homes.
all the chil of starlight and eternity cannot compare to
the warmth of a hearth, a warm fire, a computer, a comfort
the comforts of the warm family home, and our friends!
You don't need friends, but if if you have one or two people
that you really connect with and love, then that is enough.
we can only share so much energy with others before exhaustion
so spend quality time with the ones you value and love!
Friendships are a gift from God.  Nurture them daily with little
unimportant acts of kindness that become a legacy of
trust, communion, companionship, memories, and Love.

"We Just Had A Miracle Occur"
My husband almost died in a car wreck two days ago
Yet he walked away... miraculously unscathed, completely unharmed!
He even went for long walks on the same day, in cold and darkness
after getting many, many xrays at the local hospital, they let him go home
but noone knows how he survived this potentially deadly accident
he hit a tree going very fast "too fast for conditions" but-If You Ask Me,
I Personally Believe That God Sent An Angel of The Lord
 To Wrap Its Wings Around Theodore During and after the collision with the tree,
And it gave him unatural strength so that even I wondered how this miracle occurred!
I realise the value of all my daily prayers, and remember how much God Loves Each of Us
Theodore And I, And How much I trust God, I Have Faith, faith in God, total faith
almost as though i could do miracles by my own faith alone, and so can anyone
at the time of his wreck i was praying for him desperately without knowing what had happened
i couldn't stop praying from 5pm until 9pm, when he walked in the door, home!
Home from the hospital.  I know this Was God's Miracle A Miracle Sent To Theodore From God
That If He Have Faith In God, God Will Send Angels To Wrap Their Wings Around Him
And Shelter and Sheild Him from any possible harm, and to strengthen his energy!
I witnessed this miracle done by God to save my husband Theodore's Life Two days ago!
It was a miracle granted by The Will Of God.  I don't know what help that i was praying
at the time it happened and for four hours straight afterwards, but I know My God
And Yes, I am a firm Believer In Miracles.  Thank You. Oh God!  Hallelujah!
You saved my husband's life like you saved Daniel from the lion's den or fire!
Thank You, Dear God!  Your Mercy Endureth Forever and Ever! Hallelujah!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

A Wreath of cascading pearls falling
 onto my long waist-length night-black hair
White floral dress illuminates my white skin
Not a trace of makeup, I am beautiful as i am!

"Earth"
Life, it's for Us To Enjoy, Share and keep,
It is for the living to adapt, live and grow and live
and live and respond and think and evolve and develop
This Thing We Call Life, It Is For The Living Only!
Earth is for the living not the dead.  Get thee hence Satan/////
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"The Beating Of My Heart"
The Beating Of My Heart
Keeps My Husband Alive
Moves Mountains Unmoveable
By The Beating Of My Heart,
Great things have been done!
Throughout the world, and above all,
The Beating Of My Heart
Keeps Theodore Alive!
Many Good Things are happening
One the earth Because of
The Beating Of My Heart!
I HAve A Big Heart, and
It Compells me to do Great Things
In Smallest Ways
Like a Doll House
The Beating Of My Heart!

Someone May Be Intelligent as a "Gift" they have,
Even A Genius.  Some People Strive To Learn!
But not me.... I am one of the solitary wise old souls
Who knows that the "Gifts" of the mind are unimportant
Rather, It the the Gifts Of The Heart, that really matter!
Compassion
Kindness
Mercy
Love
Courage
Wisdom
Strength
These are the "Gifts" that truly matter in life....
Those Gifted In The Heart And Soul, Lovingkindness,
Good Faith,
Have The Greatest "Gifts" of All

The Outstretched Hand
In Hour of Sorest Need,
Having Faith There Will
Be Someone To Take Us Up!

The Drowning Soul
With Worn Down Body
Seeking Help Eventually
Who, Lord? Who Will Come?
Who, Lord, Will Answer that Call?

"A Hundred Years To Live"
We Are All Given The Opportunity To Help the Universe.
It is at Times like these, that I feel in my heart Why
Why
Why
Why, God didn't want me to have a baby
I am a fighter.  I will carry the load of defending the women
in my life and the Women of the world, and myself.
We are all given the choices in life.  Different people
Make different choices.  As for me, I do not plan
To Have Any Children.  I'm a fighter.  I'm tough
and brilliant and talented and it isn't in my heart
to give birth to a newborn baby.  I cannot see myself doing it.
I do not want to get pregnant, it bothers me.
Besides, I've got my hands full, taking care
of my family and loved ones!  These souls entrusted to my care,
they shall not go neglected by me.  I am a mother to my loved ones
I am a mother to the world.  I want to volunteer and contribute to the world
feed the hungry, toys to the children, money to the poor, shelter for the homeless
comfort for all people, and mercy to criminals, and an end to suffering
I am too busy saving the lives all around me, to
to have a baby of my own!  No, I can't, because
I look around me and there are homeless people
and cancer patients and thursty and hungry and shelterless.
i am a mother to the poor.  can't wait to start volunteering
just need a car.  Will dedicate my life to soothing the less-fortunate.
I Cannot morally bring a baby into a troubled world that already needs my help!
My husband doesn't want children either.  He feels exactly the same way as i do!
Our love is all we need- He and I. He and I work to Change The World!
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!////

"Poem to my Best Friend, Zhanna Kvacheva"
When A Baby Occurs In The Universe,
When A New Life is ignited by god
within the bosom of a wonderful sweet lady,
then I fall down onto my knees and I Pray!
I Pray To God To Bless Mother and Baby,
For Herein lies, dear friend, A Secret Little Miracle
It must be nourished and fed good things,
kept away from chemicals and poisons
must not fall on thy belly eat good food
I Want To Be Auntie Caroline!  For a baby is a miracle
A Newborn baby is a gift from God Above,
a Touch Of Love From Heaven, A Divine Blessing
That a New and Sweetest Tiny Life
Has Been Invited To Join Us
Into This Glorious World!
Oh, My Sweet Best Friend!
How much do I Love You.
For Unto Us, A Child is Born,
And he shall be called Magnificent,
Lord of Lords, King of Kings,
Our Emmanuel, The Greatest Gift
Of All!  Hallelujah, blessed Miracle!
In Jesus Name,
Amen!

"The Branches in Winter"
The Branches In Winter Are as though Dead whisps of fingers,
although the trees are only sleeping, to awaken
In the spring.  When the Wind Moves Through Them,
They Whisper a Loud "Shhhh!" And The Trees Shudder
In The Ice Storms The Forest Becomes a Jungle of Glass
Clear, Cold Wet, Fragile Glass Branches That Break and Crack
In The Sunlight of a winter Afternoon.  The trees are sleeping.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

"God Has Dominion over Creation"
By The Lord We ARe Sanctified
And Our God OF All Creation
That God Who Has Dominion
Over Heaven, Earth, and Hell
And Not Satan!  Satan is Powerless
Our God is Good And He Has Dominion
Over All Creation God Has Dominion
He Put Satan In Hell To Punish Him
God Is The Author Of Salvation
There Is No Lamb Satan Can "Purchase"
For Jesus Purchased our eternal life
When He Died and Suffered On The Cross!
He penetrated Hell and Opened up Heaven
United us with Our God Our Heavenly Father
Jesus Shot The Dragon In The Heart
Satan Is The Evil in This World of Earth
But In Eternal Life, He Tormenteh us
No More! By The Power of The High God,
God Almighty, in his name, No More Suffering
After Death, but Total Forgiveness of Sin
And Fall of Satan By Jesus Who Is God!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"To Jesus"
Jesus, I am so happy and glad that
you are a joyful and loving part of my life
Jesus you are my only friend much of the time
And What A Friend i have in thee, my best friend!
Jesus, you are God, and God Loveth me,
and shall judge me at the last day, and I Pray
God Shall Forgive Me My Sins And Welcome
Me and Loved Ones Into The Gates of Eternal Life
Where I will always be with Jesus and God and my family
JEsus is my best friend but he is also God and I worship Him
He is meek and a lamb.  He is perfect, sinless, clean like pure snow
If Jesus I giving us rules to live by, then the reason we are alive is
to become christlike, while enjoying life, that we learn his scriptures
a seek to obey all that he taught, even the smallest details.
Therefore, in this mortal life, Let Us Devote our meditations to Christ's Teaching
And Then and And Meanwhile learning, Let us give to the poor
clothe the naked be not hypocrites be poor and meek, carry our crosses--
Jesus , we seek to do everything ye have taught us until we die and gain eternal life
Jesus, please let me be your disciple.  I went to university for eight years but learned nothing.
Yet the bible, i testify is the Way, and the Truth, and the life.  It is the only knowledge
I study hard the scriptures as i studied in college, but light and goodness I am learning
to understand and to contribute to others and to do unto others good things.
In my mortal life i am Jesus's disciple, even unto celibacy.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"You Cannot Put Out This Little Light Of Mine"
My Lifelong Love Letters To ME are written
My Lifelong Love Letters To ME are published paperbacks
Are Coming From Barnes and Noble
They're Published, and I'll cry with JOY
When I see the frightened litlle 16 year old
 girl I was, and see my book in Print
And for sale at Barnes And Noble
Ain't Nobody Gonna Put Out This Light
Of Mine! I Will Write Forever!
You Cannot Put Out This Little Light Of MINE

"The Power Of Optimism in Me"
I am an Optimist, I keeps me alive.
I Got it from my Grandmother.
Optimism, is, putting One Foot
In Front of the other...and then,
Continuing to put the next foot
in front of the next and never
never giving up hope willpower
Hope determination Joy Happiness
Faith in God.  Optimism is for me,
to put one foot in front of the other
again and again and again and again
and the trick is, no matter how discouraging
other people will talk and feel about you
and what you are doing, you have to
Believe In Yourself and You Dreams,
and Keep Pushing Forward, One Step
In Front Of The Other, on and on
"Rome was not built in a day" and
"The journey of 1000 miles begins
With A Single Step, and taking the next...
Never Give up hope.  Let Everybody think
You're Crazy, that you have gone insane,
that you are past help, whatever their hate is....
but Believe in yourself!  Ignore them!  Keep On!
No matter what people say, Follow your Dreams!
Never Give Up On Something Because Others
Discourage your Dream. Or The Situation looks bleak
One foot in front of the next!  You WILL Get There!
You will Succeed in your own eyes, and get to your dream acheived.
That, to me, is my Power of OPTIMISM
And How It Keeps Me Alive In Hard Times!
It's Good Advice for Anyone facing hardship!
I know Optimism is Everything because, hey, I did it....
I made my dreams come true wuth determination, and
i'm still going at it every day.  Writing keeps me alive.
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen!/////

"My Love Letters To A Future Me"
When I was a teenager I wrote in my journal
it was the thing that kept me sane, not in pain
observations of my little world made me who I am
I had always dreamed of becoming a writer...well,
I published those writings, that love letter to the future me
I feel a warm goodness in my heart when i think
of myself as a teenager writing that books at 2am-4am
and how very lonely and delicate emotionally I was
I Give Thanks To Barnes and Noble For Publishing It
It is a love letter I addressed to myself fifteen years later
When I Open The Book, my eyes will well with tears of
Gratitude for me then and me now. Thank You!
They were truly my love letters to a future me
and they encourage and strengthen me today and everyday
not to mention, i'm still keeping myself alive by writing on here
these posts are my own love letters to a future me
I can't wait to open then in fifteen years! I will cry tears of joy,
Reading my own work over the years!  I'm Going to fill a Bookshelf!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"JEsus Was Not a Prophet; He Was God Himself"
Jesus Christ Was Not A Mere Prophet,
He Was The Almighty God In The Living Flesh
When Jesus Walked This Earth, He Was God
No Mere Friend of sinners was Jesus.
I do not call him a friend but more than a Friend
More Than a Prophet-- Even, I Call Jesus MY GOD
The God That Blesseth Me, The One Almighty God
The God That Giveth And Taketh Away.
God Sent Us The Holy Spirit, The Comforter
But Jesus Himself was more than a Prophet
He Was The Very Incarnation Of God.
And In Seeing This Subtle Difference
Between Friend and God, May All People
Realise, have Faith On Christ, and recieve
Everlasting Life!  No more will I consider
Jesus "my best friend", but Rather "My God"
For Theodore Land Is My Best Friend
And God Supplyeth all our needs! This is all
made Very Clear In The Book of John.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"The Comforter"
The Voice in me is, I believe, That Of
The Holy Spirit, of the Father, The Son,
And The Holy Ghost.  If It Speaketh, Then
Then It Hath Need To Say Something To The World
When It Speaketh Not, I Do not fear but Pray
I am Grateful For The Tender Loving Poems That God
Himself Plants Into My Heart.  God Gives us Those Desires.
The Desire to seek one's purpose, the desire to write,
the desire to Praise God, The Desire to walk righteously
God Puts those things into our hearts, I believe.  If I speak,
I suspect it be the Comforter Given to Us in The Book Of John,
The Still Small Voice of The Holy Spirit, The Comforter!
In The Holy Spirit I place my heart and my trust.
It will not decieve me nor lead me astray.  Those truths
that seek themselves to be told by me, to be outpoured
as from an urn or fountain, are surely born of an immortal well!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Your Will, Oh Lord"
Not My Will Be Done, But Rather Thy Will, Oh Lord God
Not My Choice when I Die Someday
But Thy Choice, Oh Lord God Unfathomable
So kind Thee hast Been and Generous In Blessing Me
In This Life, That I PRay To Live
a Long and Good Life With Theodore, my Love,
and to Continue Doing Thy Will as I Learn from the Bible
When I Die Lord, It Will not be at the hand of any evil,
But thine own loving touch, calling me, calling me Homeward
I Believe When I am old That God Will Call me homeward
And I will be with God.  Oh God, Not My Will, But Thine.
No Mortal can kill me.  I fear no Dictators or threats.  Only God
Only God has power and Dominion over creation, and
when it is The Lord's Will that I Return to Him in spirit,
May It Be!  No Longer Shall I Fear My Fellow Man
Your Will Be Done, Oh Lord!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"The Majesty of God"
In The Way God PRovides For My Household
In the way he feeds me, bathes me, clothes me,
lulls me to sleep, in the way God Plays with me all day
in the endless hot tea, in the kindness of family
to whom i am grateful but can never thank properly,
these gifts they care for us, i attribute to God
I attribute there-always-being-enough, to God
I attribute my Christmas dollhouse to God
I Give Great Praise On The Majesty and Glory Of My God!
My One God, Who Has Delivered me from much enemies
and has put good things all around me,
 My God who gave me my home, my household, my husband,
my loved ones, and their kindness.  all these blessing i attribute
to My God!  I Praise the majesty of God!
God Is Triumphant even in my darkest nightmares at night
God Delivers me always safely from harm
I need never fear evil, but yet trust in My God,
My Comforter, My Father, My Redeemer, My Deliverer!
Hallelujah! His Mercy on me endureth for ever and ever.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN!////

"Omnipotent Love"
I love you more than a Billion Horses Theodore
I Love You More Than a Billion Stars
I Love you More Than all the water in the Ocean.
Some Call True Love Madness, But I Say,
It Is The Only Arrow That Can Peirce The Entity of Hell Itself
And The One and Only Route To Heaven After This Life Itself!

"The Scariest People of All"
Perhaps the scariest people are not the ones who are
 "Evil themselves", but those who, also don't believe in God!
But Rather The Denial Of The Existence of God!
Everyone Is Born Sensing God.  The scariest thing
Is that, Some People, Like Scientists, Do Not Believe In A God!
I Find That Impossible.  We should all be either Good Or Evil.
Learning To Walk is called Life.  But Science, is unfathomable!
Because It Doesn't Believe in God!  Did you know, that there are
Some, in fact Many, People, Who Don't Even Believe In A God At All!
Like Life had no Purpose!  I pray to Jesus my savior for those people.
Life is all about learning whether we are going to be good or evil.
It is a choice we all face.  But what terrifies my heart with choking fear,
is that there are doctors and scientists and philosophers who think
That God and Goodness Versus Evil aren't Even Real!  As Though life
were a pointless buymping into one another, and our hope, our God,
Who Could Believe That God and his Hope Are A Mere Delusion?
That, friends, Is the Person who can destroy me.  That is Primevil.
The person who doubts God's Existence terrifies me! I PRay for them!
I stay as far away from such humans as I Possibly Can!
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!/////

"Learning to walk for the first time"
As we are all born infants, I was ethically an infant
when i was a child.  My views and concepts and ideas
of Goodness and Everlasting Light, Eternity, God, and
God's Love For Me and all living things or nonliving,
He Created This Incredible World and Put Me Into His World
What an honor, thank you Lord God for giving me life!
As a Child I did much sin. I was not born an ethical person
I had to realize so many things about life and god and myself
as God was Good to me, as i saw cruelty and injustice and sin,
as God forgave me the most unthinkable sins as little girl
How then can I Not Realize that God Loves Me and Wants Me
To Be His Child?  I did realize it.  i started praying as a teenager
all my life is like a baby toddler learning to walk towards his God,
Taking my first steps, and learning to grow up in my mind and heart!
Thank you God, for your all-forgiving mercy unto me, and Thank you
For Teaching me right From Wrong, and Walking With me all the days of
 my life!

"Impossible"
With What Breath Has Been Given Me,
 Let Me Love Thee Theodore, for all
that I can see is you, and my purpose.
My purpose is to be good and do good
and my reward is your love for me,
in my shy opinion.  Your Love, Theodore,
And Your Tender Embraces in Our Bed, are
Fueling A Heart Too Passionate about goodness
That I Cannot Imagine anyone could extingush it--
it....it, my heart!  It loves on and lives on and so long as
as i draw breath it shall be true to thee and to my God
I will someday pass away from this world in peace
I believe God will let His Servant Live On To Love
And Do The Will and Bidding Of That Almighty God.
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen!

"Some Time Spent Alone"
I Need Some Time To Figure Out
Who, Exactly, I Am, and What, Exactly,
I Dream Of Becoming, And What I Feel
Deep Inside My Heart.  I'm Confused Emotionally
I need Some Time Apart, maybe the rest of my life,
To contemplate who I am and What I Will Become
With This Brief And Glorious Tool Called Life!
Being Alive is not random and it isn't pointless at all.
In fact, my current objective is to discover what, exactly,
Was I Born To Be?  Who am I, And What Can I Become?
What Do I Want To Become?  How Much Time Is Left?
I believe that Lifetimes are a gift from God, to be Used Well!
I believe that however long time span we are given on this Earth,
That We make the most out of it.  Look at the world around you.
Look at your heart.  What are your dreams and ambitions?  Who needs help?
What Can you do to ethically make a difference in the lives of others
in the tiniest acts of kindness are some great truths revealed
and it is only in putting one foot in front fo the other, being kind,
doing good and not evil things, and giving something back to God
To Thank Him For The Gift Of Life.  Prayers aren't always answered, but
God Hears Every single one of our prayers, and he numbers all our good deeds
they are written in His Book Of The Neverending Story of Life.
Life is a gift from God, whenever I Die, I want to face God
And Show Him all the beautiful things i've created and loved and done
With my life...and to thank him for making my life glorious and gorgeous!
I want to thank God for giving me life, in part by being very brave
And having courage, loving deeply, and having those prayers of good will
towards mankind, towards God, towards the Earth.  At the end of my life,
I want to Give God a Big Hug And Thanl Him For All He Gave Me
And I Hope dearly and pray desperately, that He, God, Will Be Pleased
With All The Good things I've Done In My Life, and forgive the bad!
I hope to leave this world a better place than it was before i Got Here.
My Life is a tool, a task, a purpose, and God is my King of Kings,
And The One True God Towards Whom I Plan all my actions for!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Love Poem To Theodore"
I Wish, my Love, that I Could Paint You My Heart
I Wish I Could Capture The Warmth and Adoration I Feel For Thee
If I Could paint pink roses, or daffodils in the snow, yet that
could never compare to the feeling in my heart
How does one describe true love?  It's too difficult
Love is the ever changing flower of the human heart.
It Blooms In The Hearts of Loves and never Dies.
I Wish, My Love, That I Could Paint You My Heart
But No Number Of Koi fishes or willow branches
Could ever express that feeling, the completeness.
True Love is Completeness Within, One's Better Half.
I was lonely so long and since then, i'm made complete by you!
If thee didn't love me, i would surely wither away and die!
But Thee Dost Love Me Truly!  And Ever Shall!
They Cannot Decrypt The Human Soul, and Love
Is Infinite like falling snow in an arctic tundra
or wildflowers in the hills of meadows of my home
it never ends

"To Theodore"
I love you to Reach to The Highest Heavens above Us
I Love You Enough To Temper the fires of Hell!
I Love you more than soul has body or body has life
or mind has breath or hearts can love or life faces death
Our love is unvaquishiable, enduring through time and age
Our Love Will Surely Never Die
My love is an everburning fire, eternal
If we ever die, I hope we never realise it
Because We are already in Heaven Here!
Heaven Is Being Your Wife, Being loved by You.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!////

"Love Poem"

When I was a young Girl,
I would wish on every star in the sky
That I would Find a lifelong, True Love
And when I Met Theodore long ago,
It was the beginning of a love story
My Prayer To Heaven Was Answered
In Thee, Theodore, are all my hopes
In thee, is all I can see anymore
I so do want to be your pretty Wife
I'll even wear eyeliner if it helps
me to draw close to you every day
I can never get close enough of you
When We Are Apart, We Feel One Another
There With Us, We Love one another so!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"after the hospital i stopped writing"
I need so badly, to clear my head
bruises are worn by the abused and unvalued
but i prefer to wear
pearls, cameos, roses and delft
Chinese Watercolor paintings inspiring my mind
wanting to life a paintbrush delicately
I'm still alive, still happy, perhaps happier now,
now that I'm saved that forced fate of daily writing
i can see waterfalls of cascading pink roses
and ballgowns from all over the world
I want to have daffodils in the planters this spring
I Need so badly, To enjoy my life
I need to clear my head.  time
it takes time, to learn and grow anew
these beautiful things are soothing my worn soul.
in Jesus' Name,
amen!