"To Theodore"
I Love you more than my first or last breath
I could no longer live without your love
If you break my heart i'll surely die but i
have faith in God my God Above,
To fill us with unending love!
Time passes and life loses its meaning
I try to to kind things, you work all day,
our love is eternal i love you more than life
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
"I Am A Good Person"
I am a good person
It keeps me from being lonely
I try to make the world a better place
and it keeps me from despair
I actively seek and look for things
I can do to do good to the world
Inside my heart there's scarcely any pain
My conscience is free like a kite in the wind
And my heart warms me on cold nights
I think to myself, I am a good person!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen/
I am a good person
It keeps me from being lonely
I try to make the world a better place
and it keeps me from despair
I actively seek and look for things
I can do to do good to the world
Inside my heart there's scarcely any pain
My conscience is free like a kite in the wind
And my heart warms me on cold nights
I think to myself, I am a good person!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen/
"The Moon"
In this life there is the moon
But then we fall asleep under it
where is the moon when we're
asleep in bed dreaming?
How far away is the moon
From our dreams in our souls,
the immortality of the soul endures
but what of the heavens and the pools
of water and the alleyways and the ones
not asleep? In the dead of the night she shines
with god's grace, which He shines On He Face
To light the world, Our moon, A lonely mother,
she looks onto the face of
the earth, yes the darkness is bleak
but god left us a moon to keep out darkness
It seems to me that she is forever weeping
The moon reminds me that i am lonely.
In jesus' name,
Amen!
In this life there is the moon
But then we fall asleep under it
where is the moon when we're
asleep in bed dreaming?
How far away is the moon
From our dreams in our souls,
the immortality of the soul endures
but what of the heavens and the pools
of water and the alleyways and the ones
not asleep? In the dead of the night she shines
with god's grace, which He shines On He Face
To light the world, Our moon, A lonely mother,
she looks onto the face of
the earth, yes the darkness is bleak
but god left us a moon to keep out darkness
It seems to me that she is forever weeping
The moon reminds me that i am lonely.
In jesus' name,
Amen!
"Mortally Ill"
In this life there's an awful lot
of time to dwell on death
i know that sounds dark, but its sad
its sad that we even know its coming
its the dreading of death
and the fear of death
and the death of those we love
losing one another to the other side
oh, Lord! How many times
that i have turned the other cheek!
In this life i have been such
a good person that there must be
something after this life
i see the cemetery and i pray to God
surely death doesn't put out
the light of the soul! Surely
surely there must be an answer
to all these unanswered prayers
some bit of comfort some safety in life
that we could not think of death
as an ever-present threat
to be mortally ill is a heartbreaking thing
I am mortally ill
In this life there's an awful lot
of time to dwell on death
i know that sounds dark, but its sad
its sad that we even know its coming
its the dreading of death
and the fear of death
and the death of those we love
losing one another to the other side
oh, Lord! How many times
that i have turned the other cheek!
In this life i have been such
a good person that there must be
something after this life
i see the cemetery and i pray to God
surely death doesn't put out
the light of the soul! Surely
surely there must be an answer
to all these unanswered prayers
some bit of comfort some safety in life
that we could not think of death
as an ever-present threat
to be mortally ill is a heartbreaking thing
I am mortally ill
"Our Love Letters"
Today I found our love letters
Birthdays, anniversaries, Valentine's Days
I found your cards over the years
Our Love Letters To One Another
The years go by and in those years,
we begin growing old and youth fades
but our arms are just around one another
and we don't need anything more
we are our own mother and father
we are taking care of ourselves
and in our arms we hold one another
so closely there is no evil that can come
into this poor pitiful beautiful house
and the police burst in the door
every single year that passed
and we always got by somehow
Today I found our love letters
Our Love Letters To One Another
This precious tender little life is sacred
I wouldn't exchange it for a single thing
the police harrass us periodically
i guess they do that to everyone
but it doesn't matter as i am reading
Our Love Letters To One Another
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////
Today I found our love letters
Birthdays, anniversaries, Valentine's Days
I found your cards over the years
Our Love Letters To One Another
The years go by and in those years,
we begin growing old and youth fades
but our arms are just around one another
and we don't need anything more
we are our own mother and father
we are taking care of ourselves
and in our arms we hold one another
so closely there is no evil that can come
into this poor pitiful beautiful house
and the police burst in the door
every single year that passed
and we always got by somehow
Today I found our love letters
Our Love Letters To One Another
This precious tender little life is sacred
I wouldn't exchange it for a single thing
the police harrass us periodically
i guess they do that to everyone
but it doesn't matter as i am reading
Our Love Letters To One Another
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////
"Sometimes"
Sometimes I just smile in my heart
and think, "I know that was You, God"
"Thank You For Your Love and Grace"
Sometimes my heart just breaks for no reason
sometimes i just feel like crying among the
tea and spices and matzo balls at the grocery
and i think about the beautiful world and i smile
sometimes the beauty of the world just overcomes me
often i find myself weeping for the beauty
and i realise with a smile that im happy because
You Know, I Am A Really Good Person!
I am good in my heart and grateful to God
for that goodness and kindness and sweetness
and Grace that God has Given me
I really am grateful to God for my good heart
it keeps me warm in times of need
it helps me make decisions and always
to decide to do the right thing
Sometimes i just smile in my heart
and think, "I know that was You God"
"Thank You For Your Love And Grace!"
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!
Sometimes I just smile in my heart
and think, "I know that was You, God"
"Thank You For Your Love and Grace"
Sometimes my heart just breaks for no reason
sometimes i just feel like crying among the
tea and spices and matzo balls at the grocery
and i think about the beautiful world and i smile
sometimes the beauty of the world just overcomes me
often i find myself weeping for the beauty
and i realise with a smile that im happy because
You Know, I Am A Really Good Person!
I am good in my heart and grateful to God
for that goodness and kindness and sweetness
and Grace that God has Given me
I really am grateful to God for my good heart
it keeps me warm in times of need
it helps me make decisions and always
to decide to do the right thing
Sometimes i just smile in my heart
and think, "I know that was You God"
"Thank You For Your Love And Grace!"
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!
My Grandmother the ballerina
is gliding in a backless tunic
across her lawn strewn with petals
among the blooming China Trees
The White clusters of thick snowy blossoms
they make her smile and she wanders beneath them
like a swan gliding on water
the ginger plant looks like small green frogs
jumping are the piles of leaves all about the garden
so that one starts to look out for frogs
The roses pink and happy blooming wildly
blooming their hearts out for joy,
and the little injured hosta my grandmother
has been separating into twenty pieces,
struggles to drink the water from confused roots.
is gliding in a backless tunic
across her lawn strewn with petals
among the blooming China Trees
The White clusters of thick snowy blossoms
they make her smile and she wanders beneath them
like a swan gliding on water
the ginger plant looks like small green frogs
jumping are the piles of leaves all about the garden
so that one starts to look out for frogs
The roses pink and happy blooming wildly
blooming their hearts out for joy,
and the little injured hosta my grandmother
has been separating into twenty pieces,
struggles to drink the water from confused roots.
"People like that"
The world is full of good people
you just run into them
the beautiful grocery lady
you've seen working for ten years
and haven't seen in seven, looks
at you and her eyes say "I Wish
I Had A Mother To Buy My Groceries.
Instead I have to work" A Flash of fear
and she bagging groceries again.
The kind waiter at the american restaraunt
that smiles with genuine compassion
and gives of his heart, and theodore
gave him a sixteen dollar tip.
The lovelorn young man in his thirties
who owns the little-frequented coffee and bar
in our neighborhood, smiles looking down,
he's madly in love with his wife, sh isn't there
but you can tell he misses her and wants to be
back in her arms like a little child, won't look
you in the eyes as he hands you your change
because he needs business and he's just a dreamer!
The world is full of good people...
People like that.
The world is full of good people
you just run into them
the beautiful grocery lady
you've seen working for ten years
and haven't seen in seven, looks
at you and her eyes say "I Wish
I Had A Mother To Buy My Groceries.
Instead I have to work" A Flash of fear
and she bagging groceries again.
The kind waiter at the american restaraunt
that smiles with genuine compassion
and gives of his heart, and theodore
gave him a sixteen dollar tip.
The lovelorn young man in his thirties
who owns the little-frequented coffee and bar
in our neighborhood, smiles looking down,
he's madly in love with his wife, sh isn't there
but you can tell he misses her and wants to be
back in her arms like a little child, won't look
you in the eyes as he hands you your change
because he needs business and he's just a dreamer!
The world is full of good people...
People like that.
Saturday, April 23, 2016
"Let's Get Lost Together"
Let's Get Lost Together
Let the Wide World Pass Us By
Like fluffy clouds in a faraway sky
Let's get lost together
Find a side street and follow it to the end
settle down in a mill house
live our lives
cuddle more than anything
just love one another
lets escape the crazy cruel world
and together find ourselves a heaven
in each others eyes
because i am secretly pretty
and you are secretly a dreamer
Let's get lost together
Take an exit to anywhere
and start again.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
Let's Get Lost Together
Let the Wide World Pass Us By
Like fluffy clouds in a faraway sky
Let's get lost together
Find a side street and follow it to the end
settle down in a mill house
live our lives
cuddle more than anything
just love one another
lets escape the crazy cruel world
and together find ourselves a heaven
in each others eyes
because i am secretly pretty
and you are secretly a dreamer
Let's get lost together
Take an exit to anywhere
and start again.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
Friday, April 22, 2016
Thursday, April 21, 2016
A Conversation:
1"Why Are You Weeping, Little One?"
2"Because I Fear I Have Lost
The Capacity To Dream!"
1"Dreams? What a silly thought,
dreams are for everyone....people just don't
believe in their dreams. Do you believe in
your dream?"
2"Yes! With All Of My Heart! My Dreams are Lights
that Keep Me Warm, Trapped in a Cruel Life!
They are all I have to cling to! My Dreams!"
1"That is your soul, sweetheart. You'll
never lose that. It will keep You alive
strongest in darkest times
joyfully in lightest times, it will keep you
holding you safe from all the world's Harm,
Forever."
2"Amen! I Believe! I Will Keep My Head Up!"
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////
1"Why Are You Weeping, Little One?"
2"Because I Fear I Have Lost
The Capacity To Dream!"
1"Dreams? What a silly thought,
dreams are for everyone....people just don't
believe in their dreams. Do you believe in
your dream?"
2"Yes! With All Of My Heart! My Dreams are Lights
that Keep Me Warm, Trapped in a Cruel Life!
They are all I have to cling to! My Dreams!"
1"That is your soul, sweetheart. You'll
never lose that. It will keep You alive
strongest in darkest times
joyfully in lightest times, it will keep you
holding you safe from all the world's Harm,
Forever."
2"Amen! I Believe! I Will Keep My Head Up!"
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////
"My Soul!"
When I Was Created
This Instant I was Born,
An Angel Of Light Gave Me A Gift
A Powerful eternal gift
A Secret of Times and echoes of space
a secret that breaks all barriers
a fire from god
even, my very Soul!
The Angel cradled it in her strong arms
And Fed it good things
and i grew strong and wisdom grew in me
and I realised as a child that that angel i remembered her
i promised myself that i would mever let anyone
put that light out
and she was so pretty, idecided
to go to war with this precious light
and use my soul as a tool of light
to fight the demons of evil and Lucifer
This is a war between light and darkness
Goodness Fighting Evil
Stars Burning Bright In Spite Of
Darkness And Eternity and Death
My Soul!
Given me By An Angel,
My Soul!
When I Was Created
This Instant I was Born,
An Angel Of Light Gave Me A Gift
A Powerful eternal gift
A Secret of Times and echoes of space
a secret that breaks all barriers
a fire from god
even, my very Soul!
The Angel cradled it in her strong arms
And Fed it good things
and i grew strong and wisdom grew in me
and I realised as a child that that angel i remembered her
i promised myself that i would mever let anyone
put that light out
and she was so pretty, idecided
to go to war with this precious light
and use my soul as a tool of light
to fight the demons of evil and Lucifer
This is a war between light and darkness
Goodness Fighting Evil
Stars Burning Bright In Spite Of
Darkness And Eternity and Death
My Soul!
Given me By An Angel,
My Soul!
"Elisha's Light"
Instantly, With No Warning nor Omen,
I Beheld A Great, Sudden Light, Explode
Like a Newborn Star, and it baffled me
filled me with awe, wonder, joy and prayer!
It was the birth of the most beautiful star.
Even Elisha Roden! Oh, how I love Her!
Her Light Shall Not Be Put Out
I Saw The Eternal Fire Of Goodness in Her
And Beheld That light and basked in that Glow
And it was a gift from her star, and I am so grateful
forever i will keep those shared words in the cavernous
treasures of my most sacred inmost heart.
She is a Light In Darkness
That Will Not Be Put Out.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN!////
Instantly, With No Warning nor Omen,
I Beheld A Great, Sudden Light, Explode
Like a Newborn Star, and it baffled me
filled me with awe, wonder, joy and prayer!
It was the birth of the most beautiful star.
Even Elisha Roden! Oh, how I love Her!
Her Light Shall Not Be Put Out
I Saw The Eternal Fire Of Goodness in Her
And Beheld That light and basked in that Glow
And it was a gift from her star, and I am so grateful
forever i will keep those shared words in the cavernous
treasures of my most sacred inmost heart.
She is a Light In Darkness
That Will Not Be Put Out.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN!////
"Love, Ignited, Grows, Eternal"
Love! Tis Neither Stone, Nor Bone.
Cannot Be Hidden From Any Sun
Love! It Pushes through the earth
And Where it is Born, It will always grow
No wandering pebble can dissuade the seedlings
of great trees-- they must persevere,
and in persevering become stronger
Love! It grows in the most special places
It is a light in darkness
that cannot be Put Out.
To Extinguish love may impede
Or Harm, But Cannot Stop Love
Oh How It Grows! Loving Hearts
Have The Capacity To Dream
And if I give you My Heart,
I hope that you won't Throw it Out
My Love is my inspiration
It is growing more with every day
Nourished by the earth
Watered by the rain
Beloved of The Sun, I grow
and shall someday Stand,
Great and Tall, Among
The Great Trees of The Forest
Of Dreams.
You cannot put out a light
that is born of an eternal fire
even the very existence of God
and and all life! No, Love Grows///
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
Love! Tis Neither Stone, Nor Bone.
Cannot Be Hidden From Any Sun
Love! It Pushes through the earth
And Where it is Born, It will always grow
No wandering pebble can dissuade the seedlings
of great trees-- they must persevere,
and in persevering become stronger
Love! It grows in the most special places
It is a light in darkness
that cannot be Put Out.
To Extinguish love may impede
Or Harm, But Cannot Stop Love
Oh How It Grows! Loving Hearts
Have The Capacity To Dream
And if I give you My Heart,
I hope that you won't Throw it Out
My Love is my inspiration
It is growing more with every day
Nourished by the earth
Watered by the rain
Beloved of The Sun, I grow
and shall someday Stand,
Great and Tall, Among
The Great Trees of The Forest
Of Dreams.
You cannot put out a light
that is born of an eternal fire
even the very existence of God
and and all life! No, Love Grows///
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
Theodore is a young man
He has very difficult time
communicating his needs
and it hurts him it makes him angry
and It frustrates him, that
he cannot speak for himself
he is naturally very quiet
and he loves me very much
and I feel that If he did write,
then these are the things
he would write for himself.
Little lamb sleep nuzzly tight
In the lush deep thickets
of sleeping night drowse heavily
and fall into thy mattress which
ill forever hold the like a cloud
Little lamb sleep quietly and beloved
We love you more than you know
thee art the apple of our eyes
so sweet, so innocent, so young
how could anyone not love you?
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.//
He has very difficult time
communicating his needs
and it hurts him it makes him angry
and It frustrates him, that
he cannot speak for himself
he is naturally very quiet
and he loves me very much
and I feel that If he did write,
then these are the things
he would write for himself.
Little lamb sleep nuzzly tight
In the lush deep thickets
of sleeping night drowse heavily
and fall into thy mattress which
ill forever hold the like a cloud
Little lamb sleep quietly and beloved
We love you more than you know
thee art the apple of our eyes
so sweet, so innocent, so young
how could anyone not love you?
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.//
"Fighting The Urge To Run"
When In the insane asylum, remember,
The strongest urge you will have is to RUN.
Fight That Urge with all your heart and soul.
It is the only Way to be released.
You must let them break your heart
or at least, fool them into thinking they have,
broken your heart. Don't panic. Don't Bolt.
Don't go hysterical. Stay Calm when they walk you
down the corridors to group therapy and recreation
and meal time. It is truly bizzare, and in this strangeness,
find hope. Tell yourself, "No matter how crazy
These people may be, and no matter what
they may do to me, I Shall never RUN.
Because its impossible to escape.
There are locks on all the doors and cameras
and when they catch you they'll inject you
and knock you unconscious and
move your body and and you might not
wake up for several days. Theymight
put you in restaints. it's terrifying.
The Wissest advice for anyone committed
to an insane asylum is to STAY CALM
and not Run. Do Not Panic. Do not
Show Them That You Are In Pain
And Afriad beyond comprehension
of being trapped and tortured like a butterfly
in the clutches of schoolchildren.
The only way to escape
is to keep your cards to your chest,
be confident, believe in yourself,
and behave. When they feel that
they have broken your spirit, they will
let you free into the light of day.
But not Before.
Never Let Them See Your Fear Or Pain
Be Brave. Above all, BE CALM.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
When In the insane asylum, remember,
The strongest urge you will have is to RUN.
Fight That Urge with all your heart and soul.
It is the only Way to be released.
You must let them break your heart
or at least, fool them into thinking they have,
broken your heart. Don't panic. Don't Bolt.
Don't go hysterical. Stay Calm when they walk you
down the corridors to group therapy and recreation
and meal time. It is truly bizzare, and in this strangeness,
find hope. Tell yourself, "No matter how crazy
These people may be, and no matter what
they may do to me, I Shall never RUN.
Because its impossible to escape.
There are locks on all the doors and cameras
and when they catch you they'll inject you
and knock you unconscious and
move your body and and you might not
wake up for several days. Theymight
put you in restaints. it's terrifying.
The Wissest advice for anyone committed
to an insane asylum is to STAY CALM
and not Run. Do Not Panic. Do not
Show Them That You Are In Pain
And Afriad beyond comprehension
of being trapped and tortured like a butterfly
in the clutches of schoolchildren.
The only way to escape
is to keep your cards to your chest,
be confident, believe in yourself,
and behave. When they feel that
they have broken your spirit, they will
let you free into the light of day.
But not Before.
Never Let Them See Your Fear Or Pain
Be Brave. Above all, BE CALM.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
Thursday, April 14, 2016
Wanna break free and fly into the heavens
Free is how i must be free to live my life
i must be free, nothing can tie me down
just my soulmate theodore and me, being faithful
i am bound to my husband yet he makes me
feel free i love freedom i love to draw all over
the sidewalk and color in blank spaces
i love to cover blank pages with paintings,
poems, designs, drawings one of my favorite
things is the blank page. That is freedom.
A blank page is total freedom i am free
I can do anything i can imagine on that page
its up to me to imagine the things i daydream
Free is how i must be free to live my life
i must be free, nothing can tie me down
just my soulmate theodore and me, being faithful
i am bound to my husband yet he makes me
feel free i love freedom i love to draw all over
the sidewalk and color in blank spaces
i love to cover blank pages with paintings,
poems, designs, drawings one of my favorite
things is the blank page. That is freedom.
A blank page is total freedom i am free
I can do anything i can imagine on that page
its up to me to imagine the things i daydream
I got tired of playing your games
I wanna break free like an eagle rising on the tide
poetry should be free like roaring crashing waves
blowing whithersoever it goest like the wind
my heart breaks its cages and wants to break free
i love my freedom i am a poet and i am just beginning
no more canned yams i'm going to do this i can do this
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
I wanna break free like an eagle rising on the tide
poetry should be free like roaring crashing waves
blowing whithersoever it goest like the wind
my heart breaks its cages and wants to break free
i love my freedom i am a poet and i am just beginning
no more canned yams i'm going to do this i can do this
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
"Mother"
These tiny souls entrusted to my care
Are so much more than they appear
These Tiny Souls I shall nurture and grow
Filling them with Good Things and love
These Tiny Souls Entrusted To My Care
Are My Family And Husband, I Treasure
Them More Than Life. In me is a small family.
Tiny Souls entrusted by God Into My Protection
Love, Adoration, and Care. For Life.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
These tiny souls entrusted to my care
Are so much more than they appear
These Tiny Souls I shall nurture and grow
Filling them with Good Things and love
These Tiny Souls Entrusted To My Care
Are My Family And Husband, I Treasure
Them More Than Life. In me is a small family.
Tiny Souls entrusted by God Into My Protection
Love, Adoration, and Care. For Life.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
3. The little Spiders
There Were Once Little Wise Spiders
With Long Long Legs as ample
and moveable as water. like a dancer
and a weaver, the spider is one
of god's most beautiful creatures
they appear wicked, but yet they
build webs that gather dew
and they are actually quite beautiful
and they lose their tempers and bite
and they catch winged things for dinner
but that is not their fault
for all living things must eat one another
and they are frightening in appearance
but that is not their fault
for god so made them that way
although frightening, spiders are
extremely beautiful...just glance at the
Grace with which they move and weave
and skitter across the floor and hide
and climb. Spiders really are beautiful.
Glory be to God for Creating Them!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
There Were Once Little Wise Spiders
With Long Long Legs as ample
and moveable as water. like a dancer
and a weaver, the spider is one
of god's most beautiful creatures
they appear wicked, but yet they
build webs that gather dew
and they are actually quite beautiful
and they lose their tempers and bite
and they catch winged things for dinner
but that is not their fault
for all living things must eat one another
and they are frightening in appearance
but that is not their fault
for god so made them that way
although frightening, spiders are
extremely beautiful...just glance at the
Grace with which they move and weave
and skitter across the floor and hide
and climb. Spiders really are beautiful.
Glory be to God for Creating Them!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
"The little Grasshopper"
Hope is a little Grasshopper
Winged Whirring Mechanicals
Kicking and flying and screeching
like little toys all wound up with energy
or clocks that tick with some unknown battery
why, the battery is the grass they eat!
oh little winged mechanicals, thee dost delight me
surely thy muscles must be coils and springs!
oh the miracle the miracle, was the day that God
Imagine all creatures into existence
The winged Mechanial Grasshoppers are
a dazzling example! Oh, Praise The Lord!
For He is Good.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Hope is a little Grasshopper
Winged Whirring Mechanicals
Kicking and flying and screeching
like little toys all wound up with energy
or clocks that tick with some unknown battery
why, the battery is the grass they eat!
oh little winged mechanicals, thee dost delight me
surely thy muscles must be coils and springs!
oh the miracle the miracle, was the day that God
Imagine all creatures into existence
The winged Mechanial Grasshoppers are
a dazzling example! Oh, Praise The Lord!
For He is Good.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
2. "The Darkness Of Night"
Brew, Oh Darkness, Froth and Bubble!
Darken the earth until Father Sun
Comes back around to our side of the globe
Brood and threaten and cause fear and cold
Oh darkness terrible, thee dost cool the earth
that the sun should not burn it to death
yet singing are the stars in your seas,
your heaven, oh infinity horrible,
if it were not for the stars, i'd fear thee!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Brew, Oh Darkness, Froth and Bubble!
Darken the earth until Father Sun
Comes back around to our side of the globe
Brood and threaten and cause fear and cold
Oh darkness terrible, thee dost cool the earth
that the sun should not burn it to death
yet singing are the stars in your seas,
your heaven, oh infinity horrible,
if it were not for the stars, i'd fear thee!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
1. "The Sun, Moon, and all The Stars"
Oh The Heavens I Will Never Reach
No matter how far i push into space
No matter how hard I dream
reaching mars is something to dream to
not to travel towards if you want to
talk to a star
look up at the night sky on a clear night
and take your pick of the twinkling lights
Stars are the oracles of time
Stars see the future and the past
their light is traveling through "Space"
which is so far away it takes time
even billions of years, to reach us
i assume, of course there must
be no coincidences because the stars know
the past, the present, the future,
all time's infinity in a universe like a puddle of rain
they are burning in darkness and isn't that a faith
to cling to like a baby to its mother
isn't that something to have faith in
a billion billion stars burning in an infinite darkness
surely there is a war of light versus darkness
Oh The Heavens I Will Never Reach
No matter how far i push into space
No matter how hard I dream
reaching mars is something to dream to
not to travel towards if you want to
talk to a star
look up at the night sky on a clear night
and take your pick of the twinkling lights
Stars are the oracles of time
Stars see the future and the past
their light is traveling through "Space"
which is so far away it takes time
even billions of years, to reach us
i assume, of course there must
be no coincidences because the stars know
the past, the present, the future,
all time's infinity in a universe like a puddle of rain
they are burning in darkness and isn't that a faith
to cling to like a baby to its mother
isn't that something to have faith in
a billion billion stars burning in an infinite darkness
surely there is a war of light versus darkness
The sun, moon and stars
The darkness of night
the absence of spiders
Jesus, a riddle for the ages
the beauty of flowers
the business of insects
the lost stray animals
meadows of waving grass
the lilies of the field
peace in a garden
fish in a pond
trees drinking water
the beauty of water
talking to the stars at night
what the birds have to say to me
what the trees have to say to me
all about god
why we should praise god constantly
why we should be grateful for life's little pleasures
why homeless people should be loved and taken in
imagine a world without apathy, where everyone was kind
the fruits of the earth, produce, fruits and vegetables
the running of water over stones and boulders
the way the lakes and rives and creeks all flow into the sea
hunger
the sensations of existence
the presence of darkness at night
when i was young I was lonely
how much i love my family
the magic of rain, raining on the earth
being happy with what you have
loving your life
being at peace with yourself
being good, a good person
little things like dust and crumbs
The tiny feathers on birds
fern fronds, and how they grow
lichens and mosses
the beauty of stones and rocks
the miracle of water
"Life"
Nights spent trying not to cry
Lazy spring days leading into summertime
The promise of summer is a kiss on my lips
The stars sing and giggle in the heavens
Growing older, the stars tell me jokes now
And how much they love me
Theodore works all day
the only thing we have to fear is fear itself
Spring pools of water glistening on the porch
soon to be filled with fish
why do people do the things they do
when the world is so beautiful
getting lost in the light of a distant star
staying in bed to snooze all morning
being grateful for even the smallest things
taking it one day at a time
Nights spent trying not to cry
Lazy spring days leading into summertime
The promise of summer is a kiss on my lips
The stars sing and giggle in the heavens
Growing older, the stars tell me jokes now
And how much they love me
Theodore works all day
the only thing we have to fear is fear itself
Spring pools of water glistening on the porch
soon to be filled with fish
why do people do the things they do
when the world is so beautiful
getting lost in the light of a distant star
staying in bed to snooze all morning
being grateful for even the smallest things
taking it one day at a time
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
"Fishing"
The Pond is where God Sleeps at night
He rests there in the cool of the evening
Little fish nibble the worms on our hooks
But God won't let us catch them because
we fry them and eat them
The sun goes down and the lake is still and silent
Herons and canadian geese sing as it gets dark
in the swampy places there are probably more fish
I already know how to use a fishing pole
He baits the hook with a worm and casts it
The bobber sinks over and over, then resurfaces
Every time we reel it in, there is a little bit less worm
on the hook, but no fish. I think the fish are pulling
chris's leg-or line, it is pretty funny to watch
we pack up as god pulls the covers over his head
and he tells us he loves us as he closes him eyes
and we come home and get in our soft bed
after our picnic of fried chicken and hashbrowns
on the dock of the pond where we went fishing.
The Pond is where God Sleeps at night
He rests there in the cool of the evening
Little fish nibble the worms on our hooks
But God won't let us catch them because
we fry them and eat them
The sun goes down and the lake is still and silent
Herons and canadian geese sing as it gets dark
in the swampy places there are probably more fish
I already know how to use a fishing pole
He baits the hook with a worm and casts it
The bobber sinks over and over, then resurfaces
Every time we reel it in, there is a little bit less worm
on the hook, but no fish. I think the fish are pulling
chris's leg-or line, it is pretty funny to watch
we pack up as god pulls the covers over his head
and he tells us he loves us as he closes him eyes
and we come home and get in our soft bed
after our picnic of fried chicken and hashbrowns
on the dock of the pond where we went fishing.
Monday, April 11, 2016
"Paintbrush"
Glide, glide, like a swan my horsehair brush
sweet darling lead the way where you go i follow
there are things out there i have never imagined
i've got to get to work there are dreams unrealized
designs so achingly profound so painfully beautiful
designs that simply make the world a lot more beautiful!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
Glide, glide, like a swan my horsehair brush
sweet darling lead the way where you go i follow
there are things out there i have never imagined
i've got to get to work there are dreams unrealized
designs so achingly profound so painfully beautiful
designs that simply make the world a lot more beautiful!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
"We Just Have This Sweet Little Love"
We Just Have This Sweet Little Love
Theodore and I, We Just hold one another
We are getting older while cuddling
Our life is mostly composed of cuddling
We aren't brilliant and we aren't spies
We don't have fancy clothes or rich friends
We Just Have This Sweet Little Love
Simple Souls, We Have One Another
And That is All Each Of Us Ever Needs
No Money, No Children, No Investments
Just He And I In The Dead Of Night
And I Am Happier Than I Have Ever Been
We Just Have This Simple Little Love
We Just Have This Sweet Little Love
Theodore and I, We Just hold one another
We are getting older while cuddling
Our life is mostly composed of cuddling
We aren't brilliant and we aren't spies
We don't have fancy clothes or rich friends
We Just Have This Sweet Little Love
Simple Souls, We Have One Another
And That is All Each Of Us Ever Needs
No Money, No Children, No Investments
Just He And I In The Dead Of Night
And I Am Happier Than I Have Ever Been
We Just Have This Simple Little Love
Sunday, April 10, 2016
"Willolyn In The Spring"
Lose Me In The China Tree and I'll kiss you there
Snowballs of White Blossoms falling from the sky
Blossoms like snow falling on the green grass
Butterflies making love to one another in midair
Azaleas Exploding in blossoms all down the path
roses blooming their little hearts out in the sun
planters of hosta and windchimes in the shady spots
forgotten wishing well, koi sleeping therein
tadpoles waiting to be born and turtles on swamp logs
the sunny forest patched in lacy patterns of sun through leaves
Lose Me In The China Tree and I'll kiss you there
Snowballs of White Blossoms falling from the sky
Blossoms like snow falling on the green grass
Butterflies making love to one another in midair
Azaleas Exploding in blossoms all down the path
roses blooming their little hearts out in the sun
planters of hosta and windchimes in the shady spots
forgotten wishing well, koi sleeping therein
tadpoles waiting to be born and turtles on swamp logs
the sunny forest patched in lacy patterns of sun through leaves
Thursday, April 7, 2016
"Trembling"
Trembling hard, teeth clenched, gnawing my inner mouth
Shaking, unable to move or walk or even hold you darling
PRayed that the angel of death would release me from its grip
The cruelty of disease is certain death without medication
medication and salvation are two things that keep me alive
alive so that i can live on to love you and write down my heart
alive to live the life so sweet and precious to every soul
alive and safe from harm and pain, you and i will find peace now
under the heavens, God's Mercy Will Rain Peace on Our Weeping Eyes
And Happiness will seep into our diseased bodies and you will see your wife
alive again, alive with medication which is salvation. Xanax is Jesus Christ
In Disguise. The Only Trembling I shall do now shall be of ecstasy and of joy
Not Fear.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////
Trembling hard, teeth clenched, gnawing my inner mouth
Shaking, unable to move or walk or even hold you darling
PRayed that the angel of death would release me from its grip
The cruelty of disease is certain death without medication
medication and salvation are two things that keep me alive
alive so that i can live on to love you and write down my heart
alive to live the life so sweet and precious to every soul
alive and safe from harm and pain, you and i will find peace now
under the heavens, God's Mercy Will Rain Peace on Our Weeping Eyes
And Happiness will seep into our diseased bodies and you will see your wife
alive again, alive with medication which is salvation. Xanax is Jesus Christ
In Disguise. The Only Trembling I shall do now shall be of ecstasy and of joy
Not Fear.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.////
"Heaven on Earth"
Heaven is a place on earth
Where You and I live without Pain
Where addiction is not a death struggle
Where there is Grace in Xanax
Where There is Enough Medicine For Me
To Love You Like I've Always Wanted To
To Love You With No Holds Barred
my Full Beating Heart, I want you to Have
No Church Can Touch Our Jesus
And Jesus Dwells In Our Home
And He Is Bringing Happily Ever After
We Will Live To See Heaven On Earth
In The Fruits Of Our Labors, In our Home,
In Our Love For One Another. We Are Healed.
Hallelujah! Xanax, by The Grace of God!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
Heaven is a place on earth
Where You and I live without Pain
Where addiction is not a death struggle
Where there is Grace in Xanax
Where There is Enough Medicine For Me
To Love You Like I've Always Wanted To
To Love You With No Holds Barred
my Full Beating Heart, I want you to Have
No Church Can Touch Our Jesus
And Jesus Dwells In Our Home
And He Is Bringing Happily Ever After
We Will Live To See Heaven On Earth
In The Fruits Of Our Labors, In our Home,
In Our Love For One Another. We Are Healed.
Hallelujah! Xanax, by The Grace of God!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
"We Live Happily Ever After"
We Live Happily Ever After Now
We Get To Retire, To Rest, To Sleep, To Dream
Time to learn one another like the bible
Time to study one another's hearts
Time to be Good To One Another
Time To Love One Another
and be loved in return
life is hard but we aren't going
to die, we aren't going to feel pain
We live happily ever after Now.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
We Live Happily Ever After Now
We Get To Retire, To Rest, To Sleep, To Dream
Time to learn one another like the bible
Time to study one another's hearts
Time to be Good To One Another
Time To Love One Another
and be loved in return
life is hard but we aren't going
to die, we aren't going to feel pain
We live happily ever after Now.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
"Theodore"
My Little Lamb Sleeps Nuzzly Tight
Under Thick Blankets with a Pillow for his head
The monster under the bed only urges one to get in bed
My little lamb is the sweetest thing you'll ever see
There is surely nothing there to fear My Baby
If we ever die, we must surely never realize it
Because Life is Beautiful and you are my little lamb!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
My Little Lamb Sleeps Nuzzly Tight
Under Thick Blankets with a Pillow for his head
The monster under the bed only urges one to get in bed
My little lamb is the sweetest thing you'll ever see
There is surely nothing there to fear My Baby
If we ever die, we must surely never realize it
Because Life is Beautiful and you are my little lamb!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
"To Mama Land"
Mama Land, I am so sorry
For All The Times You Weren't Here
Mama Land, I Pray To You Every Day
Theodore Likes to Go Fishing at Berry's Pond
He fishes with Red Worms Now
He Told Me You and He Used To Fish
When He Was A Little Boy
One Day This World is gonna turn around
And See Theodore For All His Sweet Perfection
And His Life Won't Be So Hard, Anymore
Mama Land, I am So Sorry
For All The Times You Weren't Here
Mama Land, I Pray To You Every Day...
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
Mama Land, I am so sorry
For All The Times You Weren't Here
Mama Land, I Pray To You Every Day
Theodore Likes to Go Fishing at Berry's Pond
He fishes with Red Worms Now
He Told Me You and He Used To Fish
When He Was A Little Boy
One Day This World is gonna turn around
And See Theodore For All His Sweet Perfection
And His Life Won't Be So Hard, Anymore
Mama Land, I am So Sorry
For All The Times You Weren't Here
Mama Land, I Pray To You Every Day...
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
There Is and Always Will Be
Grace And Mercy
It is Never Too Late To Do The Right Thing
Grace And Mercy
are Pouring From the heart like a sieve
I'm so grateful to God That I found you there
Homeless and Cold, October 10th 2009
The Day You Moved In With Me
Marked The Ending Of Your Desolation.
I Pray For You My Little Lamb
I Choose To Pray For You
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
Grace And Mercy
It is Never Too Late To Do The Right Thing
Grace And Mercy
are Pouring From the heart like a sieve
I'm so grateful to God That I found you there
Homeless and Cold, October 10th 2009
The Day You Moved In With Me
Marked The Ending Of Your Desolation.
I Pray For You My Little Lamb
I Choose To Pray For You
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
"Hope"
Did you ever Cry Without Hope of Consolation?
Did you ever long for something you can never ever have?
Did you ever realize that you were going to die someday?
Did you ever get hit in the face by the One You Love Most?
Have You Ever been afraid to show your naked face to the public?
Have you ever felt like a freak or a monster?
Did you ever pray to God and Get no Answer?
Have you ever been hungry beyond control?
Have you ever been diagnosed with a lifelong disease?
Did you ever Cry Without Hope of Consolation?
There is Peace In The Comfort Of The Lord.
Lay Your Burdens on God, And He Will Carry You.
The answer lies in the Holy Spirit working through us
The little voice of Hope, Hope so small it is only a thought
A thought of Hope like a flower in a sidewalk
Seek Refuge In The Lord
There Is Salvation In The Name Of Jesus
There is Power in Calling Out The Name of Jesus
God Will Find You, God Will Comfort you.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
Did you ever Cry Without Hope of Consolation?
Did you ever long for something you can never ever have?
Did you ever realize that you were going to die someday?
Did you ever get hit in the face by the One You Love Most?
Have You Ever been afraid to show your naked face to the public?
Have you ever felt like a freak or a monster?
Did you ever pray to God and Get no Answer?
Have you ever been hungry beyond control?
Have you ever been diagnosed with a lifelong disease?
Did you ever Cry Without Hope of Consolation?
There is Peace In The Comfort Of The Lord.
Lay Your Burdens on God, And He Will Carry You.
The answer lies in the Holy Spirit working through us
The little voice of Hope, Hope so small it is only a thought
A thought of Hope like a flower in a sidewalk
Seek Refuge In The Lord
There Is Salvation In The Name Of Jesus
There is Power in Calling Out The Name of Jesus
God Will Find You, God Will Comfort you.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
"Heartlessness"
You Say I'm Insane, I smile sadly
At least, I'm not Heartless
So They Say I am Mentally Ill
I'd rather be homeless than heartless
Money has no true value
at least i have a heart
the Pharisees go on sinning
The liars Go On Lying
People Are Suffering everywhere
Loneliness is the least of our problems
You Say I'm Insane, I Just Smile back
because, at least, i'm not heartless!
There are pharisees, I will never, ever understand them.
But the poor people, i feel their pain the same.
You diagnose me a psychopath, i say
at least, I'm not Heartless!
The Hungry are still going hungry
The frightened are wandering the streets
i don't see the pharisees doing anything about it!
they must be too busy counting their money
that they earn from the tragedies of the poor.
You Say i can't have children because I'm insane...
At least, i'm not heartless!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
You Say I'm Insane, I smile sadly
At least, I'm not Heartless
So They Say I am Mentally Ill
I'd rather be homeless than heartless
Money has no true value
at least i have a heart
the Pharisees go on sinning
The liars Go On Lying
People Are Suffering everywhere
Loneliness is the least of our problems
You Say I'm Insane, I Just Smile back
because, at least, i'm not heartless!
There are pharisees, I will never, ever understand them.
But the poor people, i feel their pain the same.
You diagnose me a psychopath, i say
at least, I'm not Heartless!
The Hungry are still going hungry
The frightened are wandering the streets
i don't see the pharisees doing anything about it!
they must be too busy counting their money
that they earn from the tragedies of the poor.
You Say i can't have children because I'm insane...
At least, i'm not heartless!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen
"When I Found You"
When I Found You You Were Sleeping On a Sofa
There was no pillow for your head
There was no shower to wash your pretty hair
there was nothing that belonged to you, no home
there was you my little broken one
I was the lucky one
i had never seen anything so sad as you
like a newborn kitten in a dumpster
i was the lucky one When I found you
I was the lucky one
Giving you little bits of food and clothing
Little toys and candies, holidays and dryer sheets
Treating you to tiramisu at dinner means everything to me
Watching you lick the custard from your silver spoon
wrinkling your nose and squnching your eyes with delight
I was the lucky one
Bathing yourself so carefully now, like a duckling
in a plastic swimming pool dunking under
hungry little boy i want to feed you
washing dishes downtown i'll never lose you
I was the lucky one
Watching you save your chocolate easter bunny
cleaning your dirty dishes
eating your home cooked meals with ketchup
I was the lucky one
When I found You
I was the Lucky One!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
When I Found You You Were Sleeping On a Sofa
There was no pillow for your head
There was no shower to wash your pretty hair
there was nothing that belonged to you, no home
there was you my little broken one
I was the lucky one
i had never seen anything so sad as you
like a newborn kitten in a dumpster
i was the lucky one When I found you
I was the lucky one
Giving you little bits of food and clothing
Little toys and candies, holidays and dryer sheets
Treating you to tiramisu at dinner means everything to me
Watching you lick the custard from your silver spoon
wrinkling your nose and squnching your eyes with delight
I was the lucky one
Bathing yourself so carefully now, like a duckling
in a plastic swimming pool dunking under
hungry little boy i want to feed you
washing dishes downtown i'll never lose you
I was the lucky one
Watching you save your chocolate easter bunny
cleaning your dirty dishes
eating your home cooked meals with ketchup
I was the lucky one
When I found You
I was the Lucky One!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
"Little Bits"
Some little bits
Fragments of hope
a root that waters a little life
breathing through one's nose while sleeping
looking in the mirror
am i still pretty to you?
Little nestled joys
Everybody longs to be safe
Everybody needs to be loved
Show me someone that wants no mother
I'll show you a broken heart
Everybody wants their mother
Nobody should have to be alone
If you love me kiss me
Losing the odds is a good sign
Thank God I still have you
Thank God We Are Alive.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
Some little bits
Fragments of hope
a root that waters a little life
breathing through one's nose while sleeping
looking in the mirror
am i still pretty to you?
Little nestled joys
Everybody longs to be safe
Everybody needs to be loved
Show me someone that wants no mother
I'll show you a broken heart
Everybody wants their mother
Nobody should have to be alone
If you love me kiss me
Losing the odds is a good sign
Thank God I still have you
Thank God We Are Alive.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen
"My Soul lives On"
I like to watch clouds float by in the sky
I like to let my mind wander wild and free
I like to find bigger planters for ambitious bonsai plants
I like to give money to the homeless
I like to crochet in the glow of the Christmas Tree
I like it when people complain that i am mentally ill
I like to set .15 cent feeder goldfish free into ponds
I like to give my husband hamsters at christmas
I like to give myself parakeets if i could i would have them
I like to drink hot tea alone or with loved ones
I like to visit my grandparents at their beautiful home on Saturdays
I like to paint floral watercolors in my sketchbook
I like to draw princesses with a ball point pen
I like to eat buckets of cottage cheese in large spoons
I like having colds and staying in bed all day
I like giving myself the day off of work as a treat
I like to see my grandmother smile and make her laugh
I like to hold my Theodore anytime, so safe and warm
You see, I am alive, I am alive...My Soul lives on and on.
I like to watch clouds float by in the sky
I like to let my mind wander wild and free
I like to find bigger planters for ambitious bonsai plants
I like to give money to the homeless
I like to crochet in the glow of the Christmas Tree
I like it when people complain that i am mentally ill
I like to set .15 cent feeder goldfish free into ponds
I like to give my husband hamsters at christmas
I like to give myself parakeets if i could i would have them
I like to drink hot tea alone or with loved ones
I like to visit my grandparents at their beautiful home on Saturdays
I like to paint floral watercolors in my sketchbook
I like to draw princesses with a ball point pen
I like to eat buckets of cottage cheese in large spoons
I like having colds and staying in bed all day
I like giving myself the day off of work as a treat
I like to see my grandmother smile and make her laugh
I like to hold my Theodore anytime, so safe and warm
You see, I am alive, I am alive...My Soul lives on and on.
"When You Love Someone"
When you love Someone, you just want them to bloom and fly
It doesn't matter what you have or don't have, it's what they need
You want to buy them everything you can and everything you can't
When you love someone, you just have a cry in your heart cheering them on
Wildly and hopelessly like some crazy mother, when you love someone
you would do anything to protect them from the world and its cruelty
when you love love someone, there there is no mine nor yours, but "Ours"
when you love someone, you share what you have and take communion
when you love someone, it simply doesn't matter what anybody else thinks
there is no reason for your your love it just is, and it grows and grows
over the years you forget the things that had hurt you and fall in love
with one another.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
When you love Someone, you just want them to bloom and fly
It doesn't matter what you have or don't have, it's what they need
You want to buy them everything you can and everything you can't
When you love someone, you just have a cry in your heart cheering them on
Wildly and hopelessly like some crazy mother, when you love someone
you would do anything to protect them from the world and its cruelty
when you love love someone, there there is no mine nor yours, but "Ours"
when you love someone, you share what you have and take communion
when you love someone, it simply doesn't matter what anybody else thinks
there is no reason for your your love it just is, and it grows and grows
over the years you forget the things that had hurt you and fall in love
with one another.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.
The World Beyond Me Is So Vast
There Is No Exploring it
This little apartment is my world
Oh how i have dedicated my life to it
Our little home sweet home piece of heaven
If there is a heaven after death it is just this life
I don't care what the world does every day
I don't care what they're doing, what they have to say
Tell them all to go to hell cause I'm here with Theodore
My Life is His And The World isn't relevant Anymore
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
There Is No Exploring it
This little apartment is my world
Oh how i have dedicated my life to it
Our little home sweet home piece of heaven
If there is a heaven after death it is just this life
I don't care what the world does every day
I don't care what they're doing, what they have to say
Tell them all to go to hell cause I'm here with Theodore
My Life is His And The World isn't relevant Anymore
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////
"To My Husband Theodore"
When you hold me I feel safe
I know that I am home in your arms
There is no other home there is no other sanctuary
Happiness is in your arms
it's a simple truth that I cannot shake
Ours is a Love That will never break
Laughter fills my heart, not tears
Courage and motherhood i feel for you, not fears
I know you are the answer to my unsolved mysteries
I know you are the remedy for all my sadnesses
I know you are the destination of all my journeys
Hold me close in your all-knowing arms forever
And In your Quiet Strength, may we survive and never sever!
I love thee more with every passing day
I love thee more than I had ever hoped to love anyone
God Blessed Me When He Gave Us This Love We Share
I Treasure Our Love More Than Any Priceless Treasure...
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.
When you hold me I feel safe
I know that I am home in your arms
There is no other home there is no other sanctuary
Happiness is in your arms
it's a simple truth that I cannot shake
Ours is a Love That will never break
Laughter fills my heart, not tears
Courage and motherhood i feel for you, not fears
I know you are the answer to my unsolved mysteries
I know you are the remedy for all my sadnesses
I know you are the destination of all my journeys
Hold me close in your all-knowing arms forever
And In your Quiet Strength, may we survive and never sever!
I love thee more with every passing day
I love thee more than I had ever hoped to love anyone
God Blessed Me When He Gave Us This Love We Share
I Treasure Our Love More Than Any Priceless Treasure...
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.
"The Fish Fry"
I got up from my desk to see what the clamor in the kitchen
I gasped in horror when i saw
the huge decapitated head of a dying fish in the sink, separated
from its body unnaturally, and my husband Theodore with a
steaknife, sawing away at the heads of a dozen other small fish
they were quite alive! Then they were quite dead...something ran ajar
within my heart, came unhinged, a madness flew like a crazed bird
from its cages in my heart, and Theodore looked up at me, his eyes
were asking me if i could ever forgive him. "I went fishing, " he explained,
helplessly. I didn't know how this had affected his heart, and so, troubled,
I quickly stifled my horror at the dead fish and set to work healing his mess
and his troubles. I thought, "What can I Do with Theodore and all these fish?"
Their hearts are ALL broken! So something kindled in me, something motherly,
i said, "Well...It's time to fry them up, Theodore" to which he heartily agreed,
grateful for this forgiveness and grace. I got a skillet, melted a stick of butter,
added half a cup of lemon juice, and gave him a bowl of salted flour, and I
Instructed Theodore To Pat them in flour and Fry them Whole. Which He did.
We Ate Fish For A Long Time, picking tiny bones and scales out of our teeth
Then we turned down the lights, and put our nightclothes on and snuggled into bed
And I poured us each some Blue Raspberry Koolaid, which he drank. I fell asleep
in his warm loving arms, grateful that i had known just how to cook his violent massacre.
I got up from my desk to see what the clamor in the kitchen
I gasped in horror when i saw
the huge decapitated head of a dying fish in the sink, separated
from its body unnaturally, and my husband Theodore with a
steaknife, sawing away at the heads of a dozen other small fish
they were quite alive! Then they were quite dead...something ran ajar
within my heart, came unhinged, a madness flew like a crazed bird
from its cages in my heart, and Theodore looked up at me, his eyes
were asking me if i could ever forgive him. "I went fishing, " he explained,
helplessly. I didn't know how this had affected his heart, and so, troubled,
I quickly stifled my horror at the dead fish and set to work healing his mess
and his troubles. I thought, "What can I Do with Theodore and all these fish?"
Their hearts are ALL broken! So something kindled in me, something motherly,
i said, "Well...It's time to fry them up, Theodore" to which he heartily agreed,
grateful for this forgiveness and grace. I got a skillet, melted a stick of butter,
added half a cup of lemon juice, and gave him a bowl of salted flour, and I
Instructed Theodore To Pat them in flour and Fry them Whole. Which He did.
We Ate Fish For A Long Time, picking tiny bones and scales out of our teeth
Then we turned down the lights, and put our nightclothes on and snuggled into bed
And I poured us each some Blue Raspberry Koolaid, which he drank. I fell asleep
in his warm loving arms, grateful that i had known just how to cook his violent massacre.
"Planting the Hosta"
The Hosta Has A Special Name
She Pulls it from its container by its lush base
the roots are congested and thickly strangling
in that tight space they need to breathe and spread out
so we take a knife and loosen the roots apart from one another
and my grandmother chops the hosta plant in two
when the roots are unentangled she holds the hosta
as i fill in around the roots with shovels of dirt
we water it the roots are like fingers and i know
the Hosta is glad to still be alive as it drinks the water.
The Hosta Has A Special Name
She Pulls it from its container by its lush base
the roots are congested and thickly strangling
in that tight space they need to breathe and spread out
so we take a knife and loosen the roots apart from one another
and my grandmother chops the hosta plant in two
when the roots are unentangled she holds the hosta
as i fill in around the roots with shovels of dirt
we water it the roots are like fingers and i know
the Hosta is glad to still be alive as it drinks the water.
The White Bird
Lightly Lifted Wings
in whispering flight
calling my name "Caroline"
In The dead of night
we have conversations
flown madly into winter night
madness is sweetest sense
freezing and hungry
flown from their cage
into the night
on white bird lays wounded
mauled by dogs
struggling to fly
i lift her in my hands and
cradle her close
two years have passed
still alive, she sings my name
in whispering flight
calling my name "Caroline"
In The dead of night
we have conversations
flown madly into winter night
madness is sweetest sense
freezing and hungry
flown from their cage
into the night
on white bird lays wounded
mauled by dogs
struggling to fly
i lift her in my hands and
cradle her close
two years have passed
still alive, she sings my name
"Beheading The Fish With A Blunt Knife"
My Theodore comes home late after dark
He has styrofoam buckets flopping with
live fish, brim, and he cuts off their heads
as i listen to the gospel of jesus christ,
he beheads the living fish with a blunt dinner knife
their bodies flop in the sink, the gills still flashing,
the fish heads he gathers into a pile of large triangular faces
with huge horrified eyes, dead--i know this has hurt him
deep in his heart, if not healed some great unbearable pain,
and so prepare a skillet with lemon juice and a stick of butter
melting on high in the skillet on the stove. he takes the bodies
out of the sink basin and rinses them, puts them in a bowl,
and i prepare him a salted flour in which he dips each body raw
and slaps them in the yummy butter and lemon of the skillet
where they fry for a few minutes on either side, then
we eat them, scales, bones flying everywhere i gnaw at them
and eat, hungrily, he flicks a bit of fish gently from my hair
and then we go to bed with koolaid and watch the news
i toss the fish heads into the garden because they are good fertilizer
and the countertops are covered in fish guts!
"Black Magic"
Something magical comes to life in the sunlight
revealed, a chubby comfortable lizard resting warm
under a sunny pot in the the garden, a flash of life
flickers like flame ignited in the wet black body
a foot long, as though a snake with legs and six inch tail
black velvet body streaked in blue and yellow stripes
revealed in the light, Flashes with instinct of fear and scurries
with the most elegant motion of a guided slither, away from me
Black Magic beyond my comprehension something more beautiful than i
oh magical snake, wilt thee ever come home to my garden again?
Lonely, I Gaze long time out over the city with a peace and a prayer
That My Gorgeous Black Lizard Will Return to me here!
Probably, he's indulging on earthworms and bugs in a sunny place
under covering of a cool stone, or perhaps, he is somewhere lingering
on my porch!
Something magical comes to life in the sunlight
revealed, a chubby comfortable lizard resting warm
under a sunny pot in the the garden, a flash of life
flickers like flame ignited in the wet black body
a foot long, as though a snake with legs and six inch tail
black velvet body streaked in blue and yellow stripes
revealed in the light, Flashes with instinct of fear and scurries
with the most elegant motion of a guided slither, away from me
Black Magic beyond my comprehension something more beautiful than i
oh magical snake, wilt thee ever come home to my garden again?
Lonely, I Gaze long time out over the city with a peace and a prayer
That My Gorgeous Black Lizard Will Return to me here!
Probably, he's indulging on earthworms and bugs in a sunny place
under covering of a cool stone, or perhaps, he is somewhere lingering
on my porch!
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