"A Courage Quickened Me"
A Courage Quickened Me
That I Knew Twas Right and Good
And So I did as my Heart was bidden
With a leap of faith.  Got knocked down
then got up, started
climbing again.
Prayed to god but my heart broke
when they told me i could not work
i thought i saw a glimpse of heaven
almost as though jesus were real, and
actual, as though god had smiled on me!
But who is God to smile on a person like me,
i remember, for he obviously cannot stand me
so i thought i saw heaven and then
i was thrown down into my own misfortunes
poverty, penniless, utterly bereft and cast out.
Jesus, i know not why you do these mysteries
in our lives but i believe there was a reason in time
for God to break my heart, even, this one time.
I weep for the future God Will Never Get To See
It's almost as though he doesn't Want to be happy
as though he wants me to suffer endlessly
even though, i know, my treasures are in heaven!