"Ghost City"
I Live in a ghost city
that never changes
the people come
into my life
and leave it
i always think they
are with me forever
but they always fade
away and die and there is
nothing for me now
except the ruins of this
ghost city.//all of my friends
are married and moved
far away, and my hearts
desire is dead and in
the grave, and i am
the only one who still
lives in our hometown.
The architecture of the city
remains.  it outlives the people.
the people are all gone
i will never see them again
i am still here
in this ghost city
even the people i know now
what few are left
will all fade away too
and finally i will fade
away in this ghost city.

"Love Fractures"
A Quilt is my heart
layered with the tapestry of
hearts i have loved and
hearts who loved me back
all sorts of love, crazy
and lost and hopeless
loves, arrogant and cruel loves
sweetness and pitiful loves
loves lost in the insane asylum
lovers confined to restraints
and getting sent to the
permanent asylum because
im getting out and loves
lost and lonely waffle house
loves highway lost loves
loves in the gloaming
of the halloween night
loves deep and real
loves that have left
 my heart fractured
beautifully broken
sweet, sweet pieces
of you and they, and
i will never see them
again and i am married
still yet on those lonely nights
when i wish my tea
was a sleepy booze
i lose myself in memories
of my lost loves and how
our loves were meek and
 silly like something that
Jesus would have died for.
I have loved many that
Jesus must love so much
And i loved them too
and our love was blessed
in the eyes of Jesus Christ
All of the loves i've loved.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

We can't have chlidren
Because
We are too poor
to have children
We cant afford
to have children
We will never be
able to afford
the things a child
would need in life.
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen.////

"Why I Don't Want Children"
To have a baby is like
having a millstone
tied around your neck
and being thrown into
the sea.  Children
are for rich people
Children...Grow Up.
Fast.  They are in
constant need you can
never be at peace
motherhood is like slavery
yoking yourself to a plow
willingly they do
but children...Are Ungrateful
Children...Are bad
Children....Grow Up
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"The Way Women Should Be"
Women Should Be Soft and Plump
Curved and Full figured like generous
Roses in full Bloom.  Women should be
soft and round and lovely and gentle
virtuous and innocent and chaste
plump and soft like goosefeathers
bosoms are a man's porcelain heaven
roundness and plumpness and softness
long free hair in a loose tangle free
and soft and lovely dressed in long skirts
and blouses with ribbons around the waist
wide hips and healthy legs lovely hands
and feet that is the way i look.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Something terrible has happened
to me and Theodore and it makes
it makes me want to cry but crying
doesn't help anything it doesnt stop
the freight train of bullying and forcing
it doesnt stop to cogs of the shuddering
machine that is my neighborhood.  i wish
i could spread my wings and fly away
i wish kindness and freedom still were rights
i wish i was free but theodore i wish you were free
i wish we were both free i wish we had human
rights like other people have but we are too poor
to have those rights so we get what is given to us
in charity by my family./  i wish i could cry
i have lost much and desire nothing
but my home to be back to normal.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.

"Grow Old With Me, My Love!"
Grow Old With Me, My Love!
In The Blur Of Our Love
Six Years Have Passed Us By
Just As The Blink Of An Eye
Thus are Such Happy Times Past
I wouldn't trade those years
for anything not for beauty
not for anything the memory
of our love and all we have left
to live.  I smiled sadly and tried not
to cry when i heard you retort
to the Drive-In Employee Yesterday
That Although He and I Both
Applied For Work There We
Couldn't Get It Because, as you said,
"We're not Young Or Good Looking Now!"
I love you more than ever.  Come
Theodore, Grow Old With Me,
The Best Is Yet To Be.  Beauty
and Youth are Fleeting but i would
rather be here now with you this way
than at any other point in my life.
i may have been a beauty but
I would rather be here now with you
than at any other point in my life
because i love you THeodore
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"I'm Getting Old"
I'm Getting Older
With Every Passing Day
And I'm at Peace because
i was a great Beauty
When I was a teenager
and my early twenties
i could have any man
men would adore me
when i was young
now i never get a glance
but i am happier now
and i am still beautiful
i'm just not exceptionally
pretty anymore.
I look tired and worn
I'm Getting Old.
It makes me sad but
It makes me proud
to remember how beautiful
I once was as a
young girl.  You cannot
Cannot fight time
We all must grow old
I've had my glorious
affairs and roles and
starlet and hostess jobs
i cannot do it now
but it doesn't make me less
less of a person.
I'm still beautiful
I am at peace
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

An Old Rusty Mailbox
Standing White Alone
Red Flag Up
On A Lonely
Road
Weeds of a Meadow
Growing Up Into
Your HEart
They Are All Dreams
They Are All Dreams.
In JEsus' Name
Amen.

"Faraway Soul"
You Have
A Very
Faraway Soul---
I'm tracing my
Way around
To You
And I Know How
You've Got
A Very
Faraway Soul---
Even You
Cannot
Reach It
I Have
Good News
That
After All These
Years, I
I Know
How
To Reach In
Into
Your Faraway Soul.
I will reach into
into your heart
and fix the
broken parts
tinker with it awhile
till i get it on its feet
then i will marry you
and bear your children
you wont have to
cry
anymore, after that.
I love
your faraway Soul
you see--
I Have One
Too
It all I can do
To Keep My Heart
Afloat
So You'll Be Fine
In My Loving Hands
You Will Be Just
Fine
Inside Me
Safe
And Warm
Like We We Both
MEant
To Be,
Inside Of Me
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.

"I Wish A Great Jungle"
I Wish A Great Jungle
Would Overgrow My City
And Turn It Into Ruins
Filled With Computers
And Rusty Cars
Old McDonald's Signs
And Leftover Petroleum
Plenty Of Abandonded Houses
Plenty Of Artifacts
TV's
Computers
Smartphones
all covered in Jungle, giant
giant spiders gaurding this jungle
huge trees bigger than houses
vines thick and mischevious
entwining and winding
and enfolding all the civilisation
that once was and treeroots
breaking the highway up into
 remnants of asphalt islands
i wish a Great Jungle
Gaurded By Great Spiders
Would Overcome My City
An Eden.  And Theodore
And I Would Wander on bicycles
the ancient streets all overgrown
i wish nature would conquer
overcome and command
human civilzation and become
Eden Restored!
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

"I Dream Of Starlight"
When I Look Up At The Night Sky
I Dream
Of Infinity
When I Look at a Flower Growing
I Dream
Of Infinity
The Same Infinity
I Feel
An Eagerness
In My Heart And Mind
Because
I'm Working On
Unifying The Vision
Of Stars
Stars In The Night Sky
And Flowers
And Society
And Everything Else
Ethics
and Hope
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

I dream of a world with an Open Mind
A World Without Barriers
A World Where art science can
play
together
like children
innocent children
in A Garden OF
Eden
Return To innocence
we must open our minds
dont draw conclusions
instead, ask questions
open our fields of study and
compare notes
communication
is a wonderful gift
you can learn so much from
a quantum physicist to benefit
your own poetry
if we just open our minds
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

"Raised by a College Library"
Blue Trees
Blue Roses
I am Confounded By Your Arrogancee
Is that Which Confines thee to genres of
knowledge
College Libraries Raised Me
Walk the aisles
walk from business to Law
to chemistry to the environment
to literature to criticism
to music to sculpture art
to communication
to argumant
to psychology
to medicine
to science
and settle for some literature
to take home and study
and sit for hours in
the university library
leafing through the
various periods of
the art and artifact
of the earth over
time.
College Libraries
In JEsus' NAme,
AMEN

If I could Write you a poem
Send it on a passing ship
far afar away far
--for the is, after all;
...Beauty.
There is Beauty
It is artistic
free flow words
form over
your liinear plane
grtowing like ancient tree
roots in the sands of hope
and time
if it were possible
to be as open-minded
as possible
--that must be
the wisest man!
a rennaissance person
one who knows a bit
a bit of this and that
--it's like cooking
---or inventing theories
---or curses
---or stories
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN/

"HOME"
Home.
Home...
it is the place
where you go to
to be safe
after being out
in the world.
Home is important
you can't really
carry
your home on your back
you need a phyisical shelter
as long as home is safe
we can know there is a God
that God is Good
that he is WITH US
INSIDE
our home
to be cast out
of one's home
is like being cast out
of heaven
home is heaven
heaven is home
when there's nowhere to go---
when god is home
and you can't leave Him
God
You don't to Go
Out
Into The World
When God Is Living In
Your Home With You,
You Can
Have Faith
Can Have Peace
Can HAve Joy
Homes Can Be Fought For
But I Don't Think
God Would Live Here
If We Weren't
Here
At Home
To Love Him at Home
God is home
God is what we are thanbkokful for
home is what we are thankful for
unfortunately tthe world needs money
In JEsus' Name,
Amen./

"The Mind is Evil"
Do you use
your Mind
Or Your HEart
When you write?
I use my heart
I want for no dollars or money
my richness is of
the soul
the mind is evil
the heart is good
the mind can write
but without the heart
speaking through,.
using the mind
to do goodness--
then writing is pointless
i like books written with
the heart
books written with the mind
and no heart
are not worth
even reading.////
unless they are nonfiction/
In JEsus' Name,
 Amen.

"Torturing Small Animals"
They are still
all caught up in
the innovations of cruelty
the children that torture
small insects
and animals
for their own evil hearts
and the insects
and animals
just pray
pray to god
that this crazy fools
will soften their hearts
they just want me to
suffer
they dont know why
and they
dont care
why
why they want me to suffer
i dont know either
they just do
when i have suffered
sufficiently
to their hearts content
they will let me escape
their clutches
this is humanity
toying with evil,
torturing small animals
and we are the small
animals.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.////

"Is your Heart Strong Enough"
Is Your Heart Strong Enough
Will You Remain Calm in the Storm
Will You Bite Back The Tears
Will You Face Your Fears
Will You Master The Lowly Indignites
Will You Learn To Keep Silence
Will You Swallow your Pride
Will You Hide Your Heart Far Away
Will You Conceal it from all the world
Will you never let it show to anyone
Will you be buried alive in pain
Is your heart strong enough
Because if it isn't then you're probably
not going to make it so be strong
your heart cant break if you hold it close enough,
In Jesus name
amen.

Little Lily Buds
Unfurl Lush Trumpets
Springtime's Balmy
Air
Lamplit my Lantern
How Little We Are
 and How
Insignificant
to the whole
world
i wonder that upon asking a
little ladybug
 how being insignificant
to the whole
wide world
feels
would agree
the fact itself
is rather irrelevant
and it isnt useful
to everyday life.

When I first met my husband
i didn't know he was
my soulmate
the first time he looked into my eyes
stood inside of my front door-I
loved him Lord!  From the first glance
I knew I loved him.  I remember this
arrow hitting my heart and peircing my
soul.  I continue to fall hopelessly
in love with him with every passing
moment...I know that i
could not live
without him
When he goes, I want to
go too
He is eight years older than me-
I shall never love again
my husband
has the key
to my heart
and I would rather
die
 than love again
no i'll never love again
i would rather die perfect this way
than to live and love another
I refuse to love another
courage holds us penned in close
cannot separate he and I
like two
halves of a whole we form a new
creation not he not i
yet the Two Of Us
Our Love is an entity that
others can believe in and look to
like a lamppost in a terrible darkness
our love is perfect light in
darkness
it cannot be altered
many souls rely on our love to see
them through
our love is a pillar
of faith
and principle
a beacon in the night
a beacon in the night
an infinite
and a proud thing
a young star in the night
twinkling full of
tremulous hope
Our love
is an achievement
full of honor
strength
dignity
our love
is bigger than
we ourselves
our love
 sparked
an eternal fire
our love
is a beautiful
neverending
story
When we are both
dead
our love
our love
it will shine on
our love
is an angel's arrow flying
through the night
and it pierces
the entity
of hell
we are two angels
awaiting God's command
we shall never forsake
one another nor
the promises
we make
cherish
adore
care
for
one
another
our love
the angel's arrow
our love
the fact of it
has defeated evil
as it is
by its own
Being
and having Been
Our love had existed
that fact proves
that God
Is Good
Real
all God's Promises
are true
we know not fear
evil will never win
Love Conquers All
our love
 is proof
our love
will burn
 forever
in the forests
of time's sanctuary
universe frozen in time
is our love
like a rose among thorns
our love
is written in the stars
our love
cries victory
is a victory for
 God
Goodness
JEsus Christ
all we love
all we stand for
all worth fighting for
we have already won
growing
nourishing
our love
like a tree in winter
without a touch
of green
Hope
Hope
Hope
Awaiting Spring
Our Love
Is Hope
Itself!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen.

A Lonely Night
All Is Lost Forever
I am unable to Weep
Goodness is Punished
I am Unable To Weep
In My Loneliness and Despair
I have No Real Comfort.
I no longer need to be happy
for i have nothing left.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

"People Talk"
I found you sleeping
You Seem So Helpless
And So Lost
I want to hold you
But Since I Can't
I Will sit here
With a Broken Heart.

"You Can Leave It All Behind"
His Name is Jesus
Karma under Control
Has Everything Under
Control Let Go
Just Let Go
Let It All Go
All You love
All You own
All your Dreams...
even your very life///
leave it behind
karma is kind
you CAN
leave it
all
behind
i did
i know
my heart will
go on
i'm not afraid
of you
i never was
i never will
be
you can't hurt me
any more than
you already have
so kill me
i'll leave life
behind
and walk in my naked
Spirit.
IN JESUS' NAME,
Amen.////

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY! LOVE, CAROLINE

“To My Stepson, Zachary Matthew Land, On His 8^th Birthday”

Little Saint! Little Saint!  Dost thee  mean

To tell me that thee openest thy newborn eyes

On the first morning of Spring!  And took thy first breath

Breath,on the first breath of warm wind blowing

From the south! Ah little lamb, Thee wert exactly that---

A Newborn lamb, the ninth of spring! Child, this Birthday

isThine, and the dayof which must needs Prophesy---

That, as thee art the heirandherald Cherubim of Spring

Theall thelittle daffodils must must bloom to you

Trumpetsproclaiming thy birth, Child, all the world

Will bloom for Thee, as a Crown Before a King

--and only if thee wouldst takehold of the Beast and

Tame Him!TheWertBorn SafeFrom

The Winter WinfsthatBlew, and thybirth

Did Tame Old Man  Winter so that He ShutHimself

Away, and let thee little Spring Child, Burst into Bloom!

TheWholeWorld Bloomsfor theechild! The Daffodils exclaim

Thy sweet blessings, thy tender smile, thine rosy cheeks

Allspringbloometh for thee,and thee art a child

Of Spring Herself!LittleSaint! Little Saint!

My Husband’s Son Has Made Me A Mother!

Hallelujah!  Allflowersbloom,I command thee,

At hisbith,and hisBirthday, now and Forever.

TOZACHARY MATTHEW LAND

Love,Caroline Land

"Spring"
Tremulous, the snow-kissed earth
Unfurls her virgin petals.I take thee
Trembling, oh earth, into my own
snowy hands,and marvel at thee,
oh earth, whichbringeth forth spring!
I seek forHope underneath the dead leaves
And Bones of the Flowers,and i find
where the garden is beginning
its show--in the seedlings buds
and tender shoots of root and tuber
ipray that my chubby fingers do not
unearth to reveal a fat spider crouching
inthe dead grass. There are seedlings
coming up all in  the earth-- andwhat is
the earth?  I find decomposing leaves,
so beautifulin their old age like death
the lace of theirveins remaining-- and bits
of wood,stalks,i See ThatThe Wonderful
Showthat is Spring, in which in the thawing
earth, little seedlings,littlelife,germinates
and isborn. I Look up at my grandmother
the Gardener of this Glorious Garden--
and see she is quetly digging with a shovel
and listening to me intently, with a smile.
InJesus' NAme,
Amen.

You Came Into Our Temple
With a fearful lamb about thy shoulders
And Savoir Thee Wert Cold and Wet
From the cold Rain and Darkness
A Fearsome Night
You are My Husband Theodore.


I Went looking for you
fists
in my torn pockets
of my badly-fitting overcoat
I was in my nightgown
It Was After Two AM
The Lampposts had orangey haloes
Like Stars They Were,and the darkness,oh,
it was freezing and pouring down an icy rain
I padded along in bare feet, a little bit afraid
because the fog was smothing the frozen wet
wretched earth and my only comfort
in that gloaming were dry pine needles
under my feet and a poor blackbird calling,
calling to me in its sleep.I comforted the
bird,that this night,too,must also end.
And Then I found you,MyTheodore,sitting
alone in the
darkness.Were you hiding, my child?
Why Did You Want To Be Alone?
And not in warm bed with me thy loving wife?
I brought you a coffee mug of sweet homeade koolaid,
and you drankit.I didn'twant to leave you there
Youwerewaiting
ForMy Nightgowns to wash in the laundry machine!
You had-coime-into this
dark and cold
with only towash my dirty gowns!
I thank the Lord for thee,Theodore.
I ThankYou. I hope to never
never hurt thy feeling again!
In JEsus'Name,
Amen!