"Being Alone"
He Loved Me And Used Me And He Threw Me Away
Cast Out Into The Howling Storm I Felt Alone For The First Time
For The First Time Since I Belonged To Him I Found Myself Alone
Alone For The First Time In One's Life Is Pretty Terrifying
The Days Go By That I Just Wait For His Footfall On The Front Door
I Thought To Kill Myself But I Didn't Have The Heart To Do It
I realized with a sudden awareness that I am at this point incredibly alone
unnerving for the first time all i ever wanted was to belong
and I did belong in his arms when he loved me he was home
then flew startled like a frightened bird leaving the nest
I thought i could never find a way out of this dark tomb
like my life would end exactly where it had suddenly begun
as though forced awake for the first time i was utterly unloved
and for the first time i actually didn't feel a need to belong anywhere anymore
i had a thought to wander the world aimlessly and enjoy my life as random as it seems
sometimes when we belong in someone's arms we never get to look outside our front door
you take a timid step and then another and the days go by you feel stronger
being alone can be the most beautiful feeling
In Jesus' Name,
Amen