"God's Grace Is Mercy"
The Mercy Of God Is That,
Just When You Can't Hold On Any Longer,
The Good Lord Almighty God will Give You HOPE
Just when you think your troubles have overwhelmed your heart,
God Whispers In Your Ear, "Get Up, My Child!  I Have Plans For You!"
God Gives Each of Us Hope through Challenges that make heartbreak seem trivial
God can heal heartbreak he can make you Happy To Be Alive- not suicidal anymore!
The challenges you will face, you now look forward to them, because
lif is so precious and satan is so wicked, and while we are on this earth,
God is going to inspire every living person and creature with
Hope
Hope
Hope, For A Future unforeseen.  The promise of a future
is priceless.  You don't realize how grateful you are for your gifts,
Until maybe you are faced with losing them sooner than you hoped!
I'm not angry at God, at all.  I think, God Gave Me
A Reason To Fight, To Live, To Survive,
Today, When He Told Me I Would be Very Brain-Damaged
If I am lucky enough to grow old.  So, of course, I am now
determined to live to grow old!
God's Grace Is Mercy!
Thank you Lord!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

all these years, the stigma of being called "Crazy" and "Psychotic" all the embarrassment an shame and attack of my dignity, went out the window hwen i realized IM NOT insane But I Really AM SICK!  I am a sick person! its not an insult its just true.  mental illness stigma is a nightmare and i'm here to tell everybody my thoughts thoughts are just as valid as anybody elses', and i have every right to write and publish all the books i can think of!  I have a disease, but it doesn't have to be an insult....its not an insult to be disabled.  it's a fact. and it is sad. and YES my opinions are completely valid to publish! SCHIZOPHRENIA

"I Face a Great Challenge"
I face a Great Challenge, brain damage
Did You Know, That I Am A Hero
I've been through so much and lived
I have survived things with pure courage
I'm not afraid of being braindead when I'm Old....
By then, i will already have done so much
literary damage to Satan that, people will say,
"She was a genius!" and my legacy WILL be Published
I Have A Dream Of Writing My Heart And Soul Out
While I am Young, I'm Glad to know this damage
Is going to get progressively worse...because I'm a Champion
Forget everybody else.  Forget all the things I'd feared.
I'm now aware Of A HUGE Challenge as a writer
and I'm Going to use all my energy to reduce relapse
and Write The Hell Out Of Anything I Feel I Should Say!
Starting Today!

"So many of us never get the Chance to succeed!"
So many of us never get the encouragement to follow their dreams
It's really sad.  Just a little challenge you discover can be so inspiring
Your precious treasured possession, your intellect... knowing, learning,
That due to having schizophrenia, i'm incurring huge amounts
of brain damage over a lifetime, both from the disease, and the drugs!
So if my candle is going to burn lower the old i get, i'm inspired.
Inspired, to take on my passion, which is writing, and show schizophrenia
a thing or two before I go to heaven!  You see, I don't quite "fear" death--
I mean, I DO, but I....Tempt death, I look for danger...I tend to be a hero
I'm brave I love a good challenge!  Knowing that, by the time I get old,
I may barely be able to think intellectually at ALL, due to brain damage...
makes me want to write the hell of this sucker!  Life is brief.  I want to write.
I want to write all the important winsdom and beauty i have to share
with others while i still HAVE my brain, while I am still young.  I'm going
to assume i'll be about braindead by old age, But I'll have the victory
Because I am actually, umm... brilliant, and I have so much more to say!
I'd better take advantage of the time I have and write as fast as possible!
I already lost my ability to paint....brain damage...I loved painting
I miss painting It's sad....but I'm going to show the devil a thing or two
in poetry, in words, because baby I've got the Spirit, the heart, and the ability,
right now!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Be Brave and Have Faith!"
Be So Incredibly Brave!
Be The Very Bravest You Can Be...Braver!
Be Braver Than You are Capable of Being...
In Christianity We Call That Courage "Faith"
Faith Is When We "Believe" That Everything's OK.
That No Matter What, Everything Will Have Hope.
Believe In Life After Death!  Believe In God! Believe!
When We aren't certain whether things are gonna be OK
But Our Hope OverComes Our Fear...That is Faith!
It Is Whistling In The Dark.  It Is A Form Of Courage
And Courage Is A Form Of PRayer To A Higher Power
I Dearly Hope You Believe in A God That Is The Ultimate Love!
I Hope You Have Faith In A God Made Of Love!
Believe In Love!  But In Times of Fear, Courage...
Courage and Faith Will See Thee Through Any Storm.
Faith is a Form of Courage.  Be Incredibly Brave!
Have Faith In God, That Everything Is Going To Be OKAY
Everything is somehow Going To BE Okay, no matter
How Lost Or Hopeless things may seem... No matter how lost,
Jesus (My God I Place My Faith In, A God Of Pure Love)
Jesus Will Find Every Sheep That Is Lost.  Pray To God.
God Provides for the Tiniest Creatures like Insects, To Highest Leaders.
Have Faith In That.  Be Brave and Have Faith!  NEver Give up Hope---
Keep Having Faith.  Keep The Faith.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

"Courage"
The Greatest Thing You Can Ever Learn
Is Not "To Love, and Be Loved In Return."
Few Of Us are That Lucky In Life!  Actually,
The Greatest Thing You Can Ever Learn
Is That "You Are Alive So Just Be Happy" With That
The Greatest Thing I Ever LEarned
Is To Be Alone, and fine with that, forever.
To Know I am completely Alone In Life, and Smile At That!
Courage Is Magical Maybe Courage Defeats Love
Because Sometimes Courage Is The Difference Between
Everything, Including Whether You Choose To Live Or Die,
Your HEart May Be Broken!  Yes!  Admit that you are alone...
If You Have A Heart Full Of Courage, Then Realize We Are All Alone!
If You Do Not Love Yourself, Then There's No Hope, At All.
If You Can Learn To Love Yourself and Love "Being Alive"
If you can sit alone in a room and smile grateful for your life
This is a power Greater than love Itself!  The Soul Is Highest.
The Soul Is More Important Than Loving and Being Loved.
In The End We are All Alone With All Of Our Memories and Deeds
When You Stand Before The Judgement Day, Will You Be Let In?
That, That Question, is All That Really Matters.
To Be Loved Is To Be Lucky.  Few Are So Lucky.
If You Are Not Loved, If You Are ALone,
Love Yourself.  Love Life.  Love Breathing and being Alive.
Try Your Best To Do Your Best With Your Life, But Also Know
That Life Isn't Just A Test...It's a Gift From God!
And Once A Life Is Lost, Then A Hope Is Dead and
I Do Not Personally Believe In The Absence Of Hope.
I Hope That This Helps Anyone Who has A Broken Heart,
Is Being Bulled, Feels low Self-Esteem, Builled, Or Suicidal.
I Hope That Helps.  Smile!  You have the gift of Being Alive!
They Aren't Worth Dying For.  Be Your Personal Hero.
May The Person You Face In The Mirror Be
The Bravest Face, Your Greatest Hero, Your Only Hope!
It Is Possible To Live Alone And Be Happy!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Nest"
The Government Will Never Enter My Home.
The things I own are my own Property, and should I move,
Theodore and I shall take them with us.  We do have possessions.
Those filthy political "sides" i refuse to take, owing to it's being ...dumb
I am not a Follower of People, But A Loner.  I walk alone, With my dignity
I will never let those dingy economic concepts dim my ethical vision
I am A Child of the Light, Of God, I answer to no man, I Owe nothing to anyone!
Money is an Old Concept Our Humanity is advanced beyond "Currency"
As for money, I'm neither one nor the other for both is pure evil
Money is the root of all evil, purge these words from my cozy nest!
In me is domestic life and liberty, In me is Home, Theodore's Home
In Me Is My Family's being held together by my great love and care to call.
No, those filthy words shall never destroy my home, The Nest of Theodore Land
His Nest Will Endure Whatever Storms Life may throw at us
After all, money isn't even important anymore, it is not relevant to daily life
So I take no side at all.  I try to get rid of money as quickly as possible!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!