Sunday, April 2, 2017

"Happiness"
I Am Truly Happy Tonight
And I Don't Care About Dying Young
Happiness is in my PEace of Mind
Theodore Has A Place To Live
God Answered My Prayers
The Ones About Him Coming Home
I Have Found True Happiness In Life
If The Devil Takes My Life
tomorrow or in seventy years
It won't make a difference because
I have Found True Happiness
Happiness Is Hard To Reach
It Cannot Be Bought, It Isn't Material
My Heart Is Filled With Pride
My Heart Is At Peace and Serenity
In My Inner PEace
of a life Kindly lived,
I have found True Happiness
In This Life, Not The Next!
Thank You God, for My Happiness!
It Is Neither Here Nor There.////
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!


"The Womanliness In My Man"
The Truly Soulful Man
Has A Feminine Side
He can be himself with you
Without you judging him at all
except to love him. When He Cries
You Want To Be There To Hold Him
Can Your Husband Be That Vulnerable
With You? My husband Can, with me.
He has the womanly side in his man-self
the part that cries, the sensitive side
If you're lucky enough to have a mate
in touch with their feminine undertones
the things that make you cry, make him cry
Then you are a lucky woman Indeed.
I love to find The Womanliness In My Man.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!
"JEsus, Thank You For Giving Me My Husband's Heart"
Dear Jesus,
I Just wanted to write you this THANK YOU Note For
Giving Me My Husband Theodore Christopher Land
 His Love For Me I wish I could explain what love feels like
Love HURTS your heart Breaks it shatters when you see
The Man You Love Struggling To Find His Way
My Theodore needing time alone time to cry juice babas
It just makes me want to cry I love him for who he is inside
I don't care what he looks like even though he's beautiful as he is
I just love his peaceful sweet heart, his soul, the child in him
I love every single thing about him he's why I'm not a suicide
my love for him is greater than my pain from everything
I took on the world for him, im balancing these juggling plates
the bills are getting paid, dinner's getting made, groceries are coming
and new pants and tshirts this month, knicknacks for my birthday
and candy and toys for Christmas!  I don't care how long I live anymore
Not really-- as long as it's a life with Theodore and no one else
I don't want to die alone I dont want to be alone I can't replace my love
Jesus, don't let God take him from me, please!  Lord, I am his beacon
in the storm, his home, his dollhouse, his train set, his bedroom, his tv,
his home... and his wife.  Lord please don't take my life before
I am able to see my older husband through this life, so he isnt homeless
or alone!  Lord, bury us side by side!  Thank You Jesus For Theodore!
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!
"Flower Trees"
Willolyn Explodes in April With Flower Trees
There are no Leaves-Just Pure soft cottony ivory petals
white as new snow, full and puffy as cotton candy balls
poufy fluffy soft and heavenly like angels' wings I pray
One cannot help but pray to God that one is Worthy of Seeing This
The Azaleas make it a fuschia paradise, the hammock in green and white,
and the sweetest little angels dancing around on the lawn
child asking me all about my life and my favorite flowers and animals
and i realize, she really want to get to know me, and so we get to know
Each other on a hammock with grandma and grandpa sitting by, weeding
Underneath the soft white Flower Trees, I've made a new friend!
Children are so wonderful!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!
"We must Just Be Happy In Life"
The NASCAR Race is playing on the Radio
Theodore listens attentively as though it is
some intriguing lullaby i cannot fathom
I made him a roast and potatoes and rice with gravy
Extra butter on the potatoes and pepper, his full belly
three days' worth of food in that baking dish
I eat nothing, not hungry, drinking hot tea in a tumbler
Theodore is laying on his back, his little belly now full,
so that my heart is now full.  He will go to sleep in our bed
Today he didn't want to cuddle,  I didn't mind!  Of course it's
Up to him whether he wants to be held, and two Juice Babas
Completely turned his frown upside down.  He is as nursing child.
I Love him Madly and Jealously, which is a blessing from God
When I say I will violently kill his female friends, it is how i tell him
In a sweet way, how much I Love him, how precious he is, to me,
the girls he looks at are completely irrelevant, they may as well be
the same woman...I love him, and I am grateful to be his wife
We have been married for eight years, today i vaccuumed
and picked up the train set, and cleaned up the living room
more home design is soon to come.  We must be happy in life
Just to enjoy our lives, every simple pleasure, even vaccuuming
watching my husband eat my rice and roast gravy is fulfilling
talking to a little girl who used to be very sick and healed, is heavenly.
These are the things that make life beautiful.  Not just worth living!
But memories like this make our lives wonderful and beautiful!
I think we all just want to be happy deep inside....including me
For so long I had been miserable about nothing important, which
I don't want to talk about anymore, I want to enjoy my life's moments
Simple moments make up every life, and it's vital whether we enjoy them
We should be happy, and optimistic, and calm.  It's now how long One Lives,
But What One Does With It, and how much one appreciates simple things
I'm Grateful to The Good Lord That I, myself, am constantly grateful
for life's small and simple pleasures, like sunshine or dying easter eggs!
I think my years of suffering in and out of hospitals has given me a little more
a little more ability than normal people have, the ability to treasure simple freedoms.
That's another reason I am glad for my past, glad I got through it without dying!
And what didn't kill me, makes me stronger!  Literally!  I am not worried about statistics.
I consider myself enourmously blessed...and If I am Simply Blissful with
just exactly Who I Love, What I Have, And My Life, Well==
That is Everything
In Jesus Name,
Amen!////
"China Trees"
The China Trees are all abloom in flowers
clusters of lacy white blossoms so light and fluffy
endless blossoms heavy-laden the china trees
Azaleas pink and fuschia are joyfully inviting butterflies
Emily and  me rock in a hammock, talking about fairies
and where to find them, and all childlike and lovely things
Enjoying the sunshine making our cheeks rosy and pink
in the Saturday afternoon, we laugh and giggle as we open boxes
of porcelain easter teasets and teapots, decorations
ducklings and all sort of easter baskets and porcelain eggs and rabbits
Meanwhile the China Trees Are Blooming Over our heads
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!
"April Sunshine on a Sunday Morning"
Warm White April Sunshine Floats and Settles
In all the dark corners of the white room
Warming us, this light is that starlight
 which makes lilies grow and daffodils smile
joy is in this house, and Easter Egg kits
are waiting to dye and decorate Easter eggs
Thinking of the little girl that bought me the kit
Glad smiles and gratitiude for such a thoughtful act
Top Round Roast with potatoes in the oven, baking
Gentle loving husband sleeping in bed beside me
Treasuring these delicious moments of life
this is the meaning of life, this is what life is all about!
April Sunshine on a Sunday Morning
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!