"Learning to walk for the first time"
As we are all born infants, I was ethically an infant
when i was a child.  My views and concepts and ideas
of Goodness and Everlasting Light, Eternity, God, and
God's Love For Me and all living things or nonliving,
He Created This Incredible World and Put Me Into His World
What an honor, thank you Lord God for giving me life!
As a Child I did much sin. I was not born an ethical person
I had to realize so many things about life and god and myself
as God was Good to me, as i saw cruelty and injustice and sin,
as God forgave me the most unthinkable sins as little girl
How then can I Not Realize that God Loves Me and Wants Me
To Be His Child?  I did realize it.  i started praying as a teenager
all my life is like a baby toddler learning to walk towards his God,
Taking my first steps, and learning to grow up in my mind and heart!
Thank you God, for your all-forgiving mercy unto me, and Thank you
For Teaching me right From Wrong, and Walking With me all the days of
 my life!

"Impossible"
With What Breath Has Been Given Me,
 Let Me Love Thee Theodore, for all
that I can see is you, and my purpose.
My purpose is to be good and do good
and my reward is your love for me,
in my shy opinion.  Your Love, Theodore,
And Your Tender Embraces in Our Bed, are
Fueling A Heart Too Passionate about goodness
That I Cannot Imagine anyone could extingush it--
it....it, my heart!  It loves on and lives on and so long as
as i draw breath it shall be true to thee and to my God
I will someday pass away from this world in peace
I believe God will let His Servant Live On To Love
And Do The Will and Bidding Of That Almighty God.
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen!

"Some Time Spent Alone"
I Need Some Time To Figure Out
Who, Exactly, I Am, and What, Exactly,
I Dream Of Becoming, And What I Feel
Deep Inside My Heart.  I'm Confused Emotionally
I need Some Time Apart, maybe the rest of my life,
To contemplate who I am and What I Will Become
With This Brief And Glorious Tool Called Life!
Being Alive is not random and it isn't pointless at all.
In fact, my current objective is to discover what, exactly,
Was I Born To Be?  Who am I, And What Can I Become?
What Do I Want To Become?  How Much Time Is Left?
I believe that Lifetimes are a gift from God, to be Used Well!
I believe that however long time span we are given on this Earth,
That We make the most out of it.  Look at the world around you.
Look at your heart.  What are your dreams and ambitions?  Who needs help?
What Can you do to ethically make a difference in the lives of others
in the tiniest acts of kindness are some great truths revealed
and it is only in putting one foot in front fo the other, being kind,
doing good and not evil things, and giving something back to God
To Thank Him For The Gift Of Life.  Prayers aren't always answered, but
God Hears Every single one of our prayers, and he numbers all our good deeds
they are written in His Book Of The Neverending Story of Life.
Life is a gift from God, whenever I Die, I want to face God
And Show Him all the beautiful things i've created and loved and done
With my life...and to thank him for making my life glorious and gorgeous!
I want to thank God for giving me life, in part by being very brave
And having courage, loving deeply, and having those prayers of good will
towards mankind, towards God, towards the Earth.  At the end of my life,
I want to Give God a Big Hug And Thanl Him For All He Gave Me
And I Hope dearly and pray desperately, that He, God, Will Be Pleased
With All The Good things I've Done In My Life, and forgive the bad!
I hope to leave this world a better place than it was before i Got Here.
My Life is a tool, a task, a purpose, and God is my King of Kings,
And The One True God Towards Whom I Plan all my actions for!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Love Poem To Theodore"
I Wish, my Love, that I Could Paint You My Heart
I Wish I Could Capture The Warmth and Adoration I Feel For Thee
If I Could paint pink roses, or daffodils in the snow, yet that
could never compare to the feeling in my heart
How does one describe true love?  It's too difficult
Love is the ever changing flower of the human heart.
It Blooms In The Hearts of Loves and never Dies.
I Wish, My Love, That I Could Paint You My Heart
But No Number Of Koi fishes or willow branches
Could ever express that feeling, the completeness.
True Love is Completeness Within, One's Better Half.
I was lonely so long and since then, i'm made complete by you!
If thee didn't love me, i would surely wither away and die!
But Thee Dost Love Me Truly!  And Ever Shall!
They Cannot Decrypt The Human Soul, and Love
Is Infinite like falling snow in an arctic tundra
or wildflowers in the hills of meadows of my home
it never ends

"To Theodore"
I love you to Reach to The Highest Heavens above Us
I Love You Enough To Temper the fires of Hell!
I Love you more than soul has body or body has life
or mind has breath or hearts can love or life faces death
Our love is unvaquishiable, enduring through time and age
Our Love Will Surely Never Die
My love is an everburning fire, eternal
If we ever die, I hope we never realise it
Because We are already in Heaven Here!
Heaven Is Being Your Wife, Being loved by You.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!////

"Love Poem"

When I was a young Girl,
I would wish on every star in the sky
That I would Find a lifelong, True Love
And when I Met Theodore long ago,
It was the beginning of a love story
My Prayer To Heaven Was Answered
In Thee, Theodore, are all my hopes
In thee, is all I can see anymore
I so do want to be your pretty Wife
I'll even wear eyeliner if it helps
me to draw close to you every day
I can never get close enough of you
When We Are Apart, We Feel One Another
There With Us, We Love one another so!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"after the hospital i stopped writing"
I need so badly, to clear my head
bruises are worn by the abused and unvalued
but i prefer to wear
pearls, cameos, roses and delft
Chinese Watercolor paintings inspiring my mind
wanting to life a paintbrush delicately
I'm still alive, still happy, perhaps happier now,
now that I'm saved that forced fate of daily writing
i can see waterfalls of cascading pink roses
and ballgowns from all over the world
I want to have daffodils in the planters this spring
I Need so badly, To enjoy my life
I need to clear my head.  time
it takes time, to learn and grow anew
these beautiful things are soothing my worn soul.
in Jesus' Name,
amen!