How Poor Are They Who Do Not Feel The Love Of God!
There Is No Greater Tragedy to my reasoning.
I Can do all things Through Christ, Who Strengthens me!
Amen.

"I Feel So Much,The Love Of God"
I Think I Know Exactly Why I Have Writer's Block:
It is Because, I At This Point Feel The Love Of God
I Feel The Love Of God
So Deeply And Powerfully
Impossibly Deep Within My Heart,
Like A Miracle
Like Jesus Loves Me
Like We Should Listen To Jesus
I Feel The Love Of God So Much,
That I Literally Cannot Describe it into Words.
I Feel The Love Of Jesus Deep In MY Heart.
I Wish Everyone Had This Blessing.
I Pity Those That Don't Feel The Love of God...
And I Praise My God ALmighty, That HE LOVES ME SO MUCH
That He Put A Little Miracle Of His Love Into My HEart,
and i just don't have anything else to say, honestly.
I've finished writing on the earth.  In this life,
i have completed my task
that I set out To Do
as a Writer.  It's Time To Put Down The Pen.
I HAve Explained Everything I Ever Dreamed I Could.
I Just Don't Have Anything Else To Say!
I PRay To Live A Long Life Now happily ever after
With Chad and Theodore and my Family.
I don't believe I am going to die, I have faith
In God's Love, and I Love God.
I Love God More Than I Love To Write.
So I Don't Have Anything Left To Say.

"Homebody's"
I Love When THeodore Grows A Beard and Moustache
Because Then The Other Girls Don't Flirt With Him!
I like to have him all to my very own self and no one else
We don't care what each other looks like, we are very Exclusive
We Both Used To BE Beautiful and now we are getting older
Losing our beauty, We don't like to go out anymore at all.

"Staying In On Date Night"
I LOVE Staying In On Date Night
It's the most Wonderful Treat
Suddenly We're On a Date AND
We Don't Have To Dress up or Drive
Chris Goes A Block Down The Street
And Orders Our Mutual Favorite
Pizza with Onions, Mushroom, and Bellpepper
I pick off the sausage (vegetarian)
I LOVE the magic of A Date In Bed.
I Wait for him to get back home with pizza
and he always brings a suprise like pepsi
It feels so incredible blissful to stay in on date night
We can laugh about both being old and ugly now
We like each other just the way we are, no makeup
Two Introverts, We Can Speak Volumes In Total Silence!
I LOVE Staying in on date night!!!!!
I Never want to go to the Olive Garden Again!
I love my husband Theodore! Solitude Tickles!
In JEsus' name,
Amen

"MY HEart Breaks"
My Heart Mainly Breaks, again and again
There is really no end to the heartbreaking
I shouldn't be there at all and i realize it with fear
I fear the gates of hell that could get a message through
It isn't safe anymore.  MY heart belongs to theodore.
I wish you were here, Theodore.  I've learned to love again.
But It Doesn't mean the first cut doesn't still bleed. it hurts
the pain grows so intense you doubt your own sanity
struggling to speak you are muffled among a crowd
three little words "I love you" are all you have left to say to him
i am hoping i can stay off there and we can hold hands together there
as we grow old.  But i don't have anything to say.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen

"Two Broken Hearts In Love"
Theodore I Just Want To Hold You Right Now
Theodore I need so badly to be held i wish you were here
Theodore i get so tired of heartbreak and you have one of your own
The original Exes from Hell, We've both had one each
They Broke Our Hearts Into Shattered Pieces Forever
And Now, Heartbroken, You and I Struggle to Put
The Pieces Back Together As Best As We Can.
He Breaks My Heart into Pieces.  She Breaks your heart into Pieces too.
We Have that and a million things in common.  We have quiet moments.
We Have Time Alone and time cuddling and feelings that noone will ever understand
But Each Other.  My Husband, When I am low and feel like Crying, don't,
Please don't ask me where I've been all day, and I won't ask you.  Fall into my arms
And I Will fall into your arms and we can grow old together, in each other's arms
If we never stop holding each other they can never really break our hearts
because Theodore and I have Each Other, and We Are Madly In Love.
Hold Me Now, Theodore, and don't ask me where I've Been, you can trust me,
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!/////

"My Faith In God Is Endless Hope"
My Faith In God Defies Physics and Laws of Motion
My Faith In God Defies Laws And Countries and Hospitals
My Faith In God Defies The Government and and all Governments
By My Faith In God To Sustain Me, I Walk In Dangerous Places Without Fear
By My Fear I Can Tread On Evil and take great Risks that others would not take
By My Faith In God I Will myself to survive and I have faith in living as long as possible
By Faith We Will Be Provided For, All Of Our Lives
By Faith I Can Speak To God and Condemn The World For God's Righteousness
By Faith I Can Do The Will Of God And Feed The Hungry And Love The Unloved
By Faith I Take Me Life One Day At A Time and live in the Constant Present
By Faith I Uphold Myself to the Very Highest Christian Standards That I Know How To Do
By Faith My Husband Will Live Into Old Age With Many Treasures, And Have A Beautiful Life
By Faith I Will Choose To Endure When My Husband Gets Too Old And Dies Of Old Age
By Faith I Will See MY Husband's Face When I Myself Am On My Deathbed
By Faith I Will Never Be apart from my husband, awakening in death to his open arms
By Faith, after a time of sadness and grieving, we will be reunited in heaven forever
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!

"True Honest HEartbreak"
My Heart Breaks So Hard For Theodore's Prizes
Somewhere in Heaven, Somewhere in Eternity,
There is the greatest FlatScreen TV In The World
And The Greatest Apple Watch I Could Never Imagine
If I Could, I Wish I Could Give Them To Him Somehow
I am so Poor.  Penniless.  Yes Lord, My Heart Breaks So Hard
About That.  Harder Than any Mortal Heart Could Put Into Words.
If I Could, I Would Go Through Hell To Get Them For Theodore
My Heart Breaks and aches and Breaks For My Poor Little Boy.
Only A Mother Could Know This Pain In My Heart That Will never leave!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Keeping Watch"
Five Thirty in the morning, I am Keeping Watch
Keeping Watch Over My Little Home and My Little Baby
His Little Fingers Clenched In Little Fists, His Little Tummy
Full Of Pizza, Warm under layers of Comforters, Exhausted,
Safe, Safe from the Cold Outside as Winter Turns The Leaves Red
And The Nip Cometh Into The Chilling Air, I Prepare for Winter
My Child Theodore Is Sleeping Happily As I Keep Watch Over The Night
I Wish One Could Know How Sweet It IS To Stay Awake While My Child Sleeps!
My Heart Full to Brimming, I Will Wait for him to Rise with morning for work!
Oh Blow, Blow, thou Autumn Chill, I Fear Thee Yet Have Faith In God That
My Husband Theodore and I Shall Never Be Cast Out Into the Freezing Cold!
Oh Lord, Send me Your Homeless, Thant I May Take Them In!  Not One, Lord,
But Many!  I Will Fill The House With The Hungry and Cold.  Lord, Send Them To Us!
If The Homeless I ever see again, I will reach out and take them inside this little Warm home.
Lord, I Pray thee, send the Cold and Hungry and Shelterless To My Door Once More!
There IS Love In This House and Comfort Too.  I Will Feed Them Ramen and have blankets.
Lord, I leave it in thy hands, to send the hungry to me!
In Jesus' Name,
 Amen!

In The Darkness Of A Sound Sleep, I am Jarred
By A Strong Hard Voice In My Dreams, asking Loud,
"What's This?  A Little Homeless Man's Wife?"  I said, Why?
The Voice Answered, "If You Are Not His Wife And His Only Home,
Then Noone Is!" And Woke Me Up Roughly, as i opened my eyes wide
I was safe in bed, in my husband's warm little frightened arms!
In JEsus' NAme,
Amen

I Sleep Like A Baby In Our Little Bed Because I Know
There Are Angels flying overhead By Day
 And Spaceships gliding across the sky at night
like a whale in the ocean high above
I've never felt so safe knowing they watch over me.

"The Past, The PResent, and The Future"
We Do Not Have The Past, It is Gone Forever
Lost Behind Us Forever an eternity away Yet---
Yet--We Do Have The Present To Change The Future
We Have The Power of the Present Moment, as time passes,
To Make The Future A Better Place For Everyone
The Future Depends On The Present Moment
This and this passing instants, the seconds as they tick away, as
as we can concieve of them, are ever disappearing into eternity
the past is lost to us forever.  But We Do Have The Present Moment
If We Use Each Present Moment To Change The Future,
And Do Good Deeds, to always meditate on always doing the right thing,
to Live in a constant awareness of the present moment
and all that each of us is possibly able were we are, with
what we have, to "do the right thing always" and also
to take every idea up on doing a good deed as we see a need,
to do good deeds when we are given sadness, and must face bad things
in life, if we are living in the "Constant Present" and are looking to
do always what we believe ethically to be the "Right Thing To Do", then
We Will Overcome The Past And As Time Flies By, We All
Each One Of Us,
Has The opportunity in our lives to do
what we Can,
With What We Have,
Where We Are,
Right Now.
In Jesus' NAme,
Amen!

"The Still Small Voice Inside Me"
I Was Terrified and Heartbroken, and so, bereft, I prayed.
I threw my hands in the air and started praying to God.
 Cried Out, "God, I'm Scared!  I'm actually terrified"
Cried, "God, I'm alone and Heartbroken and
I kept on a-prayin.  Prayed so hard that
God Came To Me And Talked With Me
That Still Small Voice, The Comforter, The Holy Spirit,
Came To Me In My Heart And Comforted Me, speaking words
that I willed him to tell me, and which were His Will to Give Me!
The Will Of God!  He Told me many things.
But He Told Me To Pray When I am Scared too.
My God is always with me, in good times and bad alike.
God Comforted me for hours.  I'm Fine Now.  Hallelujah!
For The Lord Answered My Prayers, and Comforted Me
Until I felt Calm and happy and brave and sensible.
God, well--he pretty much talked some sense into me
and told me i WILL live on and I Will Write On.
God Says I'm A Little Worn Out and Need A Rest.
But Lo! Here I am, Writing right now.  I'm tired, God.
But Most of all, I Love You God!!! Thank You
For All The Blessings and joy and love You've Given Me!
And Thank You For Giving Me Theodore!  I Love Him Very Much!
Thank You God!  Hallelujah Lord!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Fortress"
Our God Is Our Fortress
And He Is With Us In Our Home
I Verily Believe That
No Evil Thing Could Ever Come HEre
Or Harm My God's Children in his Fortress, unless
unless
Evil Were The Very Will
 Of God.  And God
Is Not Evil.  In fact, I feel his love
more than anyone i've ever met
besides my grandparents and Theodore.
This is a Home.  Our Home.  I Want you
To Feel Safe, Impenetrable, Loved Completely,
Completely Safe, Completely Loved,
Completely Protected From The World When You
Are Laying In Your Soft Warm Bed, or Cooking,
My Sweetest Baby Theodore, I Want So Much
For You To Feel Safe, Protected, and above all, Loved.
That is my Purpose.
Amen!

Life IS Extremely Hard To Endure
Patience, Faith, Love, Hope, and Home
Sometimes--a LOT of times---life is so damned hard
that people lose their hope and give up.
But Not Me.  I've been through som things.
I'm getting older and i faced alot A LOT of rejection
and loneliness and i am aware of satan's daily evils
that are reported on the news daily, yet
those evils, I Believe CANNOT PENETRATE THIS HOME
whats is on the tv screen, is not real.
When life gets too tough and you don't think
that you can handle it, me---
We personally, I Pray To God
I Pray To God To Give Me Strength
 and Wisdom and Courage, so that
when life is too hard, i can be even tougher than my life.
i've been through hell.  i'm saying, when life is too tough,
and you think you cannot take enough,
You CAN.  Just Be tougher than you believe
that you are capable of!  Could save a life. damn good advice
Be Tougher Than Life and Live,
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

This Memory,
These Memories,
Meant Much, Much, Much More To Me
Than It Did To Any Of You!
I simply feel God's Love
And I Pray For Those That Do Not
I Pray Hard For Them All.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

I am JEsus's BFF.  Best Friend.  Companion.
I Never Ever Feel Alone Or Afraid.  JEsus Keeps Me
And I Don't Ever Want to Change.  I'm married.
I'm a writer.  Me and jesus, we sing the blues.
I am a friend of Jesus, and it makes me proud.
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN.

"I'm Too Busy!"
I am just busy having beers with Jesus all day every single day.
I'm too busy to do anything else.  Jesus and me sleep together.
I pray for him. I Also pray TO Him.  Especially when i'm scared.
My Jesus even gets in bed with me and holds me close all night
he even kisses me etc God sent me Theodore and i drink with Jesus
Now leave me alone because im exmtremely busy, can't you see,
i've got all this work to do and Don't Even act like I'm not gonna
 be talking about what we're thinking about!  Togehter, Just JEsus, and Me!
In Jesus Name,
Amen!!!!

"Having A Beer With Jesus"
Leave Me ALone Everybody, Cause I'm Busy.
Busy...having beers after beers with Jesus/  That's Right
Jesus "Hallelujah" Christ.  Son Number One.  That's My Main Man/
That Be Be Where All My Main Notes Springing from...listening to
Matthew, Mark, Luke and John on audiotbible.  I am very, very busy.
Together Jesus and Me, Are Are Taking On The World.  MY JESUS,
Baby keep growing your hair and your beard theodore i believe in you
I'm very busy having beers with jesus so leave me alone.  Drinking Buddy.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"When Silence Is The Enemy"
When They Try To Silence Freedom of Speech
and Creativity, When They Try
To Smother Your Light
When The Government knocks down the front door daily
When There's nowhere To Go
When There's Nowhere To Hide---
When you feel like your trapped---
When "Silence" is The Enemy---
JESUS is there with you.  All of you.
Jesus is with us in our idlest times
Jesus blooms on despair and fear and isolation
all the more darkness tries to smother it,
Then the clearer shines the light of Day.
Jesus
Jesus Is With Us In These Dark Times,
When Silence Is The Enemy He Sends Angels
Angels
To Whisper Untold secrets
Into
 Our Ears!
In Jesus' Name,
AMEN!!!!!!!!!/////

"Have You Ever"
Have You Ever Cried
Have You Ever Been Told You've Lost Your Mind
Have you ever wished there was more you could say?
Have you ever wanted to explain something important
Have you ever kissed someone goodbye when you
never wanted to ever, ever,never
Never Let Them Go?

"We Can All Laugh At Death"
We Can all laugh at Death/
"DEATH. " So What/ we're not terminal
if you're not terminal then you are not Dying
Fuck death.  Fuck Pain i'm sick and tired of both
carry your crosses and live, simply because life is sweet
and time is precious and there is the principles of jesus
you can learn the teachings of Jesus every day and never stop
That's Why Life is worth living, for me
I love jesus, and if i die, i cant hear the scriptures anymore
i dont ever want to live to see the day jesus's light is put out forever
he lives in you he lives in me he lives in us all
And i personally believe He Saved our souls
We can laugh at death if we have a choice
because life is sweet and precious and so worth living
who wants to die?  Nobody.  My faith in God and Jesus
Keeps me alive through any amount of pain of addiction, simply
because i pray to God that i don't die, and he doesn't let me
Go.  God Won't Take Me Out Of This World Till I'm Done.
Never Give up hope.  We can all laugh at death
then there would be no overdoeses or suicides
it is simply a matter of the love of live, the love of God,
and COURAGE.
In JEsus' Name,
Amen!////

"There Should Be No Prisons or Asylums"
There Should e No Prisons.  No Police.
Judge Not, Lest Ye Be Judged...That is what Jesus
Taught us but we did not listen.  When will we listen to Jesus?
The Pharisees are still killing people and shedding innocent blood
Without facing a trial, meanwhile the meek and hungry are lethally injected
for petty crimes and given horrible prison sentences for petty things.
No one should be killed and no one
Should have the Right To Kill.  No One.  God Didn't
Give That Ultimate Sin To Anyone.  Even those that kill
Must not be punished.  Put an End To "Justice".  How about "Mercy", instead?
If we are merciful to one another, then people will be merciful to us.
The gods will be merciful to us if we stop taking our "revenges" and Cruel tortures
out on people who are, not only the meekest, humblest of souls, they need Jesus.
Give a Man A Prison Sentence, and You Have Done Evil.  The Parable of The Unjust Judge
And The Parable Of The Servent Who Was In Debt To His Master,
yet went out and beat another servant and had them cast into prison
for the same deed that this very servant had been forgiven of by his Master!
Does anyone understand that?  Nobody Should Be Hungry
We Humans must become vegetarians and have mercy on our fellow creatures
Do not shed innocent blood, animal or human....
Because "life" is completely Temporary and we face eternity after we die
life is a test of how kind we can be, how ethical, how christlike
the world is an opportunity to realize compassionate deeds
not a place to use, abuse, destroy, or harm others.  Plant a seed.
Give Food and Drink To The Thirsty.  Take In The Homeless.
Start With Yourself!  Because if every single individual started with
themselves instead of judging others, i we each did our true personal
Christlike Best attempt at being Good, Ethical, and improving lives of others,
Well, Then we Wouldn't have things like War Or Evil.
If Every single individual looked in the mirror every day and
confronted themselves about whether they are sinning in any way.
imagine what a better world this would Be!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!

"Although I am Weary..."
Although I Am Weary, I Have
Ever So Much More To Tell The World
God Put This Little Light Inside Of My HEart And
I Feel The Constant Urge To Let My Light Shine!
If I Am Not Doing Good Deeds, I am unhappy.
All I Can do is write about goodness, clean the house,
not wear makeup, listen to the gospel, and be a vegetarian.
I see so much Evil in this world around me
I see evil everywhere, i think, "What a Mess" of the world
and I Really Really want to set about cleaning it up
if i cannot afford to volunteer, i can take up my crosses
and spread the good news of jesus christ and reform to the world.
I am not going to die.  the light shineth into the darkness
And the darkness comprehendeth it not.  if fact,
the darkness has never been able to put out the light.
And it never will.  My God Is With Me In Deep Waters.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!